Baby awoke the next morning by the feel of cold little feet pressed up against her legs. She rolled over to find Josie nestled closely to her holding on tight to Mr. Squeely. She pulled the covers up to Josie's neck and gently ran her fingers across her hand as Josie twitched at the touch, but never awakened.

She was the most precious little girl on the face of the earth. Baby knew her world would be incomplete with out Josie. All Baby wanted to do was make all Josie's dreams come true. Now that Johnny was a match, Baby hoped and prayed that Josie would be able to live a long and healthy life.

Baby hoped it wasn't selfish of her to be thinking about all the feelings she had for Johnny. She just can't help it. He stole her heart six years and hasn't given it back to her since. They were brought together again because of Josie.

Things could have been so different if she had of just broke down and told Johnny she was pregnant. She would have avoided hurting one of the most important people in her life. She knows now she has hurt Johnny and she also realizes she has been so unfair to Josie. Josie could have known her father.

All she could do now was move on and hope that Johnny and Josie will forgive her one day. Even though Josie is almost six, one day she will look back on this and ask her mother one simple question…..why? She could even have some hostility toward her.

Baby tried not to think about all that right now but it was hard. She just now had to concentrate on getting Josie well again.

Johnny heard a knock at his door. He looked at the clock on the wall and wondered who it could be this early in the morning. Johnny threw the newspaper he was reading down on the kitchen table and headed for the door.

As he opened the door he saw Becky standing before him. "Well, hey."

"Hey." Becky said as she walked into his apartment. "Why didn't you call me last night when you got in?"

Johnny knew he was wrong. He had came in and piddled around till he went to bed and called Baby. "I am sorry I got in late."

"Well, why won't you tell me what is going on? All you told me Friday was you had something to take care of and I never heard from you." Becky said as she placed her purse on the coffee table.

"I know and I am sorry about that." Johnny said closing his front door.

"Well, where did you go?" She asked him straightly.

"New York."

"What on earth is in New York?" She asked him with one eye cocked. "Especially for to have to spend the night."

"Becky why don't you sit down." Johnny told her as he motioned to the couch.

He had to tell Becky everything. He couldn't hide it from her.

"What is it?" Becky said now with a worried look on her face.

"You have heard me talk about when I worked at Kellerman's right?" He asked to make sure.

"Yeah you were a dance instructor." She told him.

"Right, well back in the summer of 63' I met someone down there." Johnny started.

"A girl?" Becky asked trying to figure out what was going on.

"Yes, her name was Baby." Johnny said as her face popped into her head.

"Baby? That's a weird name." Becky told him.

"Her family came and stayed at the resort and that is when Penny had that problem." Johnny responded.

"Yeah I remember that. The abortion right?" She asked.

"Yeah, well see Baby had to be Penny's replacement for one of our scheduled shows and Baby and I got close." He said worrying about what he was going to say next. "I fell in love with her."

Becky looked at him white-eyed. "What does she have to do with you going to New York?"

"Well, she came down to see me Friday and dropped a bombshell on me. She was pregnant when she left Kellerman's." Johnny swallowed hard.

Becky's mouth dropped. "So you just found out? Can you be sure she is yours?"

Johnny took offense to that. "Baby wouldn't lie to me. You don't know her like I do."

"Obviously." Becky smarted off.

"Look, Becky this is big." Johnny tried to make her understand.

"I know, so you went to see her?" Becky asked.

"Yeah, and turns out she has cancer and needs a bone marrow transplant and I am the only match." Johnny said to her.

"I can't believe that. It is all so much to take in." Becky said still trying to absorb it.

"Our surgery is scheduled for Monday morning. I plan on going back up this afternoon after I talk to Roger." Roger was Johnny's boss at the dance school.

"So what is next? I assume you are going to be a part of her life. What is her name?" Becky couldn't help but want all the details.

"Oh yes, of course. Her name is Josie." Johnny said.

"That is a pretty name." Becky said to him. "I just don't get it all."

"Get what?"

"You!"

"Me?" Johnny questioned.

"Well, why didn't you call and tell me? I was worried." Becky told him.

"I know. Everything was crazy. I am sorry for that." Johnny told her meaning it.

"What about Baby? She married?" Becky asked with one eye brow raised again.

"No never has been." He answered quickly.

"How can you not be mad at her?" She really wanted to know the answer to that.

"I am hurt." Johnny started. "I mean she kept something special from me for six years. But, in the end I could never really be mad at Baby. My hurt toward her will fade in time."

"Do you still love her Johnny?" Becky expected his answer to be "no".

Becky was getting deep now and making Johnny very uneasy. He didn't want to hurt Becky. She was a sweetheart. "Don't ask me that Becky."

"I just got my answer right there." Becky said as tears formed. "Did anything happen between you two?"

Johnny walked over to the window and looked out. "Becky you can never understand the connection Baby and I have."

"Look, Johnny I am your girlfriend. Well, here you are talking about your connection with another woman. What is wrong with that?" Becky asked him beginning to get frustrated.

"I know it sounds crazy but, you have to understand that my life is really about to change. I have a little girl who is so special and I get to be a part of her life. That is amazing." Johnny said smiling at the thought of Josie.

"What about Baby's life?" Becky asked as she began to form tears. "Do you still love her?"

Johnny knew he had to be truthful to Becky even though it killed him to do it. "Yes."

Johnny watched Becky lean back on the couch and stared off in front of her. Her face looked motionless. "Well, I guess I know where your heart is."

"Becky I am sorry." Johnny said as she joined her on the couch. "I never meant to hurt you."

"You know Johnny. It takes a real man to stand up and become a father but it takes a coward to forgive someone who has lied to you." Becky said as she reached for her purse and stood up. "A coward."

"Now Becky, don't be that way. That's unfair" Johnny said as he stood up with her. "I am sorry."

"Life is unfair. Just wait till she lies to you again." Becky walked toward the door.

"She isn't like that!" Johnny knew the Baby probably no one else knew.

"Sure." And with that Becky slammed the door and left Johnny standing there speechless.

He didn't want to hurt Becky and no matter how hard he tried not to he didn't anyway. He couldn't be unfair to her. He owed her more than that. He had to find out what would make him so happy and he knew it was being a family with Baby and Josie.