Baby's world was spiraling down uncontrollably. Everything was such a blur. Why couldn't she focus? Why wasn't it hitting her? Where was her mind? Her daughter was everything to her. Baby had raised her to be a fighter. Now Baby was loosing everything.
"Ms. Houseman?" A voice said "Ms. Houseman?"
Baby looked up at one of the nurses.
"Is there someone I can call? Perhaps your parents?" The nurse asked her.
"Um..." Baby couldn't get her thoughts right. "Yeah my parents."
"Ms. Houseman, maybe you should lie down." She offered Baby noticing Baby's odd responses.
Tears were streaming down Baby's face. "I need to get to Johnny's room."
"Mr. Castle?" The nurse asked.
Baby nodded as the nurse gently grasped Baby by the arm and led her down to Johnny's room. Slowly the two walked in silence as Baby really didn't know which end was up. The walked seemed like it was going on forever.
As they reached Johnny's floor Baby grabbed the railed on the wall with her free hand. "Is all this real?"
The nurse didn't know what to say to that remark. "Here we are almost to Johnny's room."
A few more steps and they were at Johnny's door. Chills went through Baby's spine as she hesitated to open the door. She knew he was sleeping. Hell, it was almost dawn.
"If you need anything you just come ask for me. My name is Jessica." The nurse told Baby. "Everything is going to be okay."
"Thank you." Baby managed to get out as she crept into Johnny's room.
Johnny's room was pretty dark. Just a faint light was coming from the bathroom. Baby was afraid to walk to him. Her back was against the wall. She was starting to lose her mind. She pressed her back against the wall as she slid down to the floor. She was so angry and confused all in the same mind. Tears were starting to flow as she couldn't stop them. Her heart was breaking like nothing before in her life. What does she do now?
"We got a code blue in here! Get Dr. Rosenberg in here now!"
"Get the crash car over here."
"Ready, one, two three…go. No pulse."
"Again, one two three…now. Nothing."
"We have to get a pulse, again."
There was silence in the room.
"I am sorry Ms. Houseman she is gone."
Doctors and nurses huddled around Josie to save her life…but in the end it was hopeless. They couldn't save her.
Baby screamed at the nurses "Save her, save her." But, Josie's little body couldn't handle it.
Baby asked to be alone with Josie's body. "My precious, this is hard for mommy to even imagine. I know you are going to rest with the angels. They just don't know what an amazing child they are getting. I love you with all my heart and soul. Wait for me in heaven. I love you."
Johnny was waking up as he heard the familiar sound of whimpering cries. He managed to turn over and looked toward the far right side wall in his room. He seen Baby balled up against his wall. "Baby what are you doing?"
"Oh Johnny!" Baby was loosing all control she had. "I am a horrible mother."
"What are you talking about?" Johnny asked as he managed to sit up in the bed. "Come here."
Baby couldn't move. Her body was acting on its own. At that moment she had no control over it. It was just in shock.
"Baby, come over here. What is wrong? Is it Josie?" Johnny said asking her again.
Baby looked dead into Johnny's eyes. "I am sorry."
"Sorry for what? Baby you aren't making any sense." Johnny rose up from his bed and walked over to Baby. As he knelt down in front of her he had to overlook his discomfort. "What is it?"
"Oh, Johnny." Baby threw herself at Johnny to feel his strong and comforting arms. "She is gone. My baby is gone."
"What do you mean?" Johnny moved her head to look at her face. "What has happened to Josie?"
"She is dead Johnny." Baby could barely get those words out before Baby finally wailed in grief.
"I-I-" Johnny was s tumbling over his words. What did he just hear?
"I watched her die right there in front of me." Baby was now losing it. "OH MY GOD!"
Johnny pulled Baby as close to him as he could. "Oh Baby."
Tears were escaping Johnny's eyes as well. He couldn't believe what she had just told him. Shock consumed him. He was watching Baby fall apart in his arms as he didn't know if he could even hold it together. "I can't believe this."
"I can't handle this. How can I live without my precious little girl?" Baby was finding it hard to breath she was crying so hard.
"Come here." Johnny helped Baby rise to feet as she helped her walk over to his bed. "Sit down."
Baby buried her head in Johnny's chest.
"What happened?" Johnny asked with tears in his eyes.
"Her heart just stopped. They couldn't save her." Baby said quietly. "It was so horrible to watch. All I knew was that I had to get to you. I couldn't believe it at first."
Grief was now creeping up on Johnny. "I don't know what to say. I thought everything was going to be okay. I just came into her life."
"Ms. Houseman?" A nurse Jessica, who had helped Baby to the room, popped her head in the door. "Your parents are on the way. I didn't tell them anything. I figured you would want to do that. Also, Dr. Fleming is on his way in to speak with you. Can I get either of you anything?"
Baby didn't say a word so Johnny spoke for them. "No thank you."
"Very well, if you need anything please let me know." And with that Jessica closed the room door.
Johnny took deep breaths to try and help him absorb this. "I am finding it hard to find the words-I-" He couldn't finish.
"For a while I was in shock. It hasn't really hit me till now. How will I tell mom and dad? I can't even believe it myself. I am lost without her." Baby jerked away from Johnny. "Why, all I ask is why?
"Don't pull away from me." Johnny said reaching back for Baby. "You need me right now."
Baby jerked up off the bed. "No, what I need right now is Josie!"
Johnny tried not to take offense to that. "Baby listen, calm down."
"You don't now the pain I feel." She snapped at him.
"Baby I do." Johnny said sympathetically as he walked over to her.
"No! Johnny you don't!" Baby said. "She was my daughter Johnny, nothing could compare to that love and that feeling."
"She was my daughter too." Johnny said trying not to get upset.
"It wasn't the same." Baby smarted off. "You hardly knew her."
"Whose fault is that?" Johnny couldn't help but make that comment but he regretted it the minute he said it.
"I knew you would always hold that over my head Johnny Castle." Baby didn't know where all this was coming from.
"Baby, listen at what you are saying. You are not thinking straight." Johnny tried to make her understand.
"I know exactly what I am saying. I have just lost the most important thing in my life! You can't understand." Baby headed for his door.
"Where are you going?" Johnny walked quickly to his door.
"To find out why this happened." She told him.
"I will go with you." Johnny said.
"No, I don't want to be around you right now." And with that the newly angered Baby walked out and left Johnny speechless.
What just happened here? Johnny was baffled but he had to understand Baby was so distraught she wasn't thinking straight but, on the other hand neither was he.
There was no way he was letting Baby do this alone. He threw his robe on and followed her down the hall.
