It was long silent ten minutes in the car with gemma. Raven had emotionally shut down. How could she be so stupid. She actually thought maybe david went away. Maybe he was too intimidated by the crowd she was running with. If he couldn't find a way in maybe hed give up and aim his sights at another poor unfortunate soul. Once she got to the club house she walked in and went straight behind the bar. People still strewn about from the crazy antic earlier in the night. She tried not to wake them but to be honest she didn't really care. She grabbed a bottle of a dark brown liquid thinking it was whiskey. To which she later found out was spiced rum. She grabbed 4 shot glasses and went to sit around at the bar stool. And she was lining her shots up gemma walked in the door with tig and chibs at her heels. They all walked up to her. "You ohkay doll?" tig asked. Raven laughed and handed him a shot. She handed one to chibs and gemma as well but gemma turned hers down. Raven shrugged and downed both her and gemmas shot. "This bastard is gonna be gone soon sweatheart. Don't you worry your pretty lil head about it" chibs said and slapped her on the sholder. And then tig and chibs walked back to their dorms. . probably some croweater waiting on them. Raven started to line the 4 shot glasses up again and poured while gemma stared on at her with a neutral expression. She read her head back 4 times in quick succession letting each shot numb her soul. She just wanted to collapse into herself like a black hole. "Good thing the garage is closed Saturdays huh?" gemma said in a cautious tone looking at raven. Raven just looked at her and stared blankly at her for a moment. Then lined her glasses up again and poured. This looked at each one shot intensley before gulping it down. This didn't taste like whiskey she though. After she took it she looked at the bottle. It was captain morgan… jack daniels would just have to understand her little alcoholic affair. She was about halfway through the bottle of rum when bobby and juice walked in the door. "Don't kill yourself sugar." Gemma kissed raven on the cheek and walked out with bobby.

Juice took up the seat next to her. "is there anything I can do?". Raven lined up the 4 shot glasses up again pouring the clear brown liquid to the brim and slid 2 of them over to juice. She held one of her glasses up to him as if to cheers but her face was expressionless. Just a blank stare. Like the lights were on but nobody was home. He held his up and they both took the shots quickly. They sat in silence for a little while. Raven easing up on the bottle just for a moment. She wanted to sit here with juice and simply just exist. Just for a moment. Then she started lining her shots up again. Juice walked behind the bar and grabbed a beer.

They sat insilence and drank until the bottle was gone. After raven was sure the bottle was damn near dry,

she looked at juice and muttered for him to take her to bed. So he did. He half carried half walked her to his dorm and helped her change into her sleep clothes and they laid down. Raven passed out within seconds. After he was sure she was asleep he pulled his laptop out of his bag and started to dig.

Raven woke up the next morning with the alarm on her phone still set for work. Shed forgotten to turn it off. She panicked and scrambled out of bed. She rifled through her duffle trying to pull her work clothes on frantically. She had her coveralls halfway up before her stomach started to turn. She ran to the bathroom in juices dorm and started vomiting profusley. She could taste the spices in the rum more coming up then she could shooting them down. She was praying to the porcelain god for about 20 minutes before she slunked down onto the floor. The tile was so cool on her clammy skin. It soothed her back to sleep and she passed out. Around 10:30 am before juice found her passed out in the bathroom with her coveralls around her ankles, pants indone with no shirt on. He was puzzled. She was just fine a few hours ago when he went to go on a ride and came back with breakfast for raven. He lifted her little body and carried her back into his dormroom and sat her in the bed. He took off the coverall and her jeans and tried to shake her awake. "raven, baby wake up I brought you breakfast.". Ravens eyes shot open and she started scrambling again out of the bathroom and into her duffle to try and get ready for work. "What are you doing?? Juice asked. "What the fuck does it look like im doing im getting ready for work. Why am I at the dorm anyways didn't you take me home last night? " raven asked with venom in her tone. "Did I drink spiced rum last night…" she trailed off. Thinking. Then all the memories of last night hit her like a ton of bricks and she lost her breath. She gasped and sat on the floor where she was. "you alright ray? " juice asked his voice becoming frantic. "No. Im good. " she sat clutching her knees rocking back and forth slightly. "Im gonna shower" she said to juice without even looking at him. And grabbed her things from the duffle and closed the door to the bathroom. She locked the door and her stomach started turning again. She started to vomit and she heard juice knocking on the door. She didn't answer. He kept knocking and kept knocking until she had to scream at him "GO AWAY JUICE!!!" between retching. She finally stopped and took a quick shower. When she stepped back into the dorm room she got dressed. She felt guilty for yelling at juice. She couldn't have even answered the door if she wanted too. She flipped her phone open to no new notfications. She scrolled through her contacts and stopped at taras name. Raven and tara werent great friends but they werent enemies either. They had always been cordial and helped eachother out when needed… she paused…. Did she really wanna be in debt to tara and by proxy jax even more…. Raven thought some more. She had to try to get in with the ole ladies her own age. Gemma and luanne were great company but tara and lylah . she was their equal now and shed never gave them a second thought. As much as she didn't want to admit it she wanted some friends her own age. She was never good at being friends with women. These ladies werent your average women though. At least not tara she was strong. She texted her. "Hey tara…. Its raven. I have a favor to ask. Anyway you could smuggle one of those dehydration iv packs out and meet me at the dorms after your shift?? I feel like road kill." She sent the message and waited. Five minutes later she got a text back from tara.

Tara: could you come into the hospital?? Itll be easier to treat you here under a jane doe.

Raven: cant im on lockdown at the clubhouse. Shit kinda got crazy last night. And I don't wanna ask juice.

Tara: okay that makes it harder. Ill see what I can do.

Raven: Thanks tara.

Tara: don't thank me yet.

Raven closed her phone and then eventually her eyes. Rum did not mix well with her and her body felt sore and weak. She was spinning and when it eventually stopped she drifted off to sleep. She woke up to her phone ringing while someone was also banging on the door. She answered her phone first because it was tara. "Hello?" Raven asked confused "are you going to open the door or is someone gonna have to break it down?" tara asked. Raven mustered all her strength and answered the door. Tara was standing there looking annoyed. "Shit im sorry I fell asleep after I texted you. Did you get it?" raven asked smiling a little bit hoping tara brought her the relief she so desperately seeked. "can I come in?" tara asked. Raven stepped to the side and ushed her in, then shut the door. "Im pretty sure the sheets are clean so you can sit on the bed if you want and maybe we could tape the bag to the head board?". Tara said nothing as she pulled the supplies out of a st thomas duffle bag. The iv needle then the yellow iv bag and tube. Tara set everything up meticulously and motioned for raven to lay down. She cleaned ravens fore arm and got the iv started. They sat in silence for about and hour tara checking the line for bubbles every so often when curiosity got the best of her and she asked.

"What's the deal with you and juice? And what happened last night?". Raven looked at tara and told her all of it. Unsure of what jax had already told her. Raven told tara everything that has happened. Basically her life story up until last night. "and I thought I had baggage…" Tara looked at raven and they both laughed.

"Can I ask you some questions tara. Maybe pick your brain a little… juice asked me to be his old lady… we were supposed to have a serious conversation last night but then we got….distracted. And the next think you know theres a car running over juices bike and crashing into my car so I just feel like im not really gonna have the time to sit down with him and get all the info I need. And gemma well shes just.. Ya know". Tara nodded "Sure. Go for it". "I guess my first question is…. What are the rules? Theres gotta be unofficial rules. I know you guys arent considered part of the club bit there I know theres some sort of code of conduct." Raven asked. "Well. Youre and extension of him now. Youll always be representing him weather you want to or not. Youll have to get a tattoo. His crow. Its kinda like a brand. It says youre his ole lady. Not all charters do that but these sons do because of the acronym samcro. The crow is specific to this charter and this is what they call the mother charter. They go on runs to different charters and clubs for business. It's the general consensus amoung most old ladies that what happens on a run stays on a run meaning your man can sleep with sweetbutts as long as there not local." Tara said. "Fuck that!!!! you let jax sleep with other chicks??" raven interupted. Nearing flexing the iv out of her arm. "No. Jax and I have an understanding. But that's the deafault. That IS something youre gonna have to talk to juice about" tara told raven calmly, readjusting the iv. "Wheres yours. Your crow?" Raven asked. "raven. I got jax crow when I was really young. I was only 16..". Tara stood up to reveal the crow on her lower back. Raven Thought it was nice. Elegant even. The placement was after all a tramp stamp but it was pretty. Raven couldn't help but like it. "So it doesn't have to be visible?" raven asked. "No. Its not for anybody else but him." Tara answered. "One more thing. Im only telling you this because I respect you as a women raven… youre gonna want full disclosure on all of the shit hes doing. Youre too smart. some of these old ladies like to live in ingnorance and act like theyre men arent outlaws. They are. Those ole ladies are dumb. Any of us with any braincells… it doesn't work any other way. Were too smart to let them bullshit us." Tara said in a serious tone. Raven wasn't new to falling for men with criminal activity as their main occupation. "Thanks tara."

Raven finished the iv and thanked tara enthusiastically. She felt better then she ever had. "Whatevers in those bags tara it's the nectar of life thank you" raven said. "Next time youll have to come into st thomas ray" tara said. "Well hopefull ill be able to move around charming by myself soon…" raven tailed off. There was a knock at the door just as tara was putting the last of her supplies away.

When tara opened the door to leave juice came in. "what happened?? Are you alright? Why was tara here with medical supplies?" juice asked. "I just had her to rehydrate me. Ive been drinking too much. Had to get my strength back and didn't wanna wait . So what now?" raven asked, her tone was cold . juice paused….. He looked at her for a long moment. Contemplating just leaving her out of all of this. Letting him and his brothers take car of david so she wouldn't ever have to think about him again but his president and vp had other plans for her. They needed her for jaxs plan to work. And so juice told her everything he knew. ssome of what jax had planned juice didn't know. Just told juice to trust him. It was risky but if it worked it would rid her of this poison for good. "You ready?" juice asked. "Im ready" Raven answered.