The ending. Yes, I know, I may not be a professional writer. But on this one, I'm going to try my very best, fix all the mistakes and make my readers proud. I want to show that I can be what it takes to make people happy or touched. Yes, right now I'm acting very weird, right? Well, I hope you all enjoy my new story. I want to see if I can get any more reviews and not just short ones, but ones that actually say that I am good. If not, well, I'm going to just try another one. Anyhow, let's get on with it, shall we? Well then, enjoy! ;D
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The end, yes, this was the end to it all. The battle was over. After all that, all those sacrifices, so many deaths… were it over? Did it really end? So many lives, innocent people, they were all gone. Was killing the only way that this war was to come to an end? Why? There was a fierce silence over the battlefield. No one knew what to do. Kira wiped his tears from his eyes as he looked out in space. Everyone was silent. No one moving. All of them shocked. Flay… I'm so sorry… I-I couldn't… of all people! I couldn't protect you…! No! "Flay…!" There were many things to describe how silent the place was, but… none sounded strong enough. Kira tried to wipe the tears away. Soft, silent sounds came from the microphone. Kira felt the sound of a voice. He looked onto the screen. It was that soft welcoming face of Meriella. She was sad, wiping off her own tears.
"Kira… Kira are you all right? Kira, is Flay really…?" Kira looked away from the screen and felt the tears growing. Meriella nodded, then felt herself crying again. "Why Kira? Please, tell me why you're crying… Flay, she was… Kira, she was cruel. She almost killed Dearka… She didn't shed a tear when Tolle died! Why did you love her! Why? She used you…! You were hurt, yet… she didn't care. You're so sad; yet, your heart is so kind. It must hurt, to have gone against your kind... She didn't say that. She knew she was wrong. This was only her side. Maybe Flay wasn't as she thought. But still, she didn't even shed one tear when Tolle had died. She didn't give one comforting hand to anyone on the ship. Anyone. Even though that was true, why was she crying? Why did Kira have to be hurt?
Meriella felt a soft hand on her shoulder, it was Sai. This was the worst for him, yet, he was comforting her?
"Please, don't. Please, don't do that." Sai lifted his hand off of her shoulders. She was shaking all over. Her eyes were hidden beneath her hair. She heard voices around her, she didn't care. What was she doing? "Stop that. Don't comfort me! Please, Sai, don't…! I don't need to be comforted now! You should be crying! You're the one who is hurt the most! Through all these months. We all got hurt so terribly. You were always there, always! You were there for Kuzzy… even though you were close and needed a friend like that to be by you… you did what was right for him." She stopped, taking a breath under her tears. "When… when Tolle died, you were there for me the whole time, never left my side. And, also… you were there for Flay… Sai. I was never there to comfort anyone! I was always the one crying! I'm just…I'm just like her." She put her hands on her face, shaking her head.
There was silence, Meriella stood up and looked at him through her tears. "Please, Sai, don't hold it in. Please, don't shield up your feelings because of me. Please, don't… I want to be able to comfort you, be a friend…" Sai made his hand in fists and looked away from her face. He started crying. Then looked at her and saw that she had wrapped her arms around him tightly. Sai held tight onto her. He cried on her shoulder holding onto her tightly. He smiled softly. "Thank-you…" she said, "Thank-you for being my friend. Thank-you for everything. You're so kind." Sai shook his head and looked her in the eye.
"No I'm not. Whatever you may think of me, Meriella. Why do you think I am so? It is because you have a heart of a friend. You are able to see things in people that I would've never guessed possible. Don't you think you've made Tolle proud? You were able to see the real him and make him smile so many times over. You worried about him. He loved you for that. The fact that I wasn't able to make Flay happy means… that I am not like you. I'm supposed to be jealous of you not the other way around. So... why shouldI be crying, whenI have a friend such as you thatI am able to protect? A friend such as you that... that cares about her friends enough to put her own troubles aside... What do you think I did? Kira wasn't on your list of people, was he? He wasn't one of those people that you said I protected. He was the one that was most in need of a friend, but I ended up pouring out all my troubles at him. No wonder he loved Flay. Even though she might've been using him like she was using me, she was there for him. There to make him happy. To comfort him when he needed it most. I... I'm not someone to be loved. Flay left me because of that." Sai put his hand on his forehead, closing his eyes while tears began to fall again.
"How can you...? How can you see anything in me that I can not? You see things that I never would describe myself as. I don't know, but, you have a spark in you that would make the one who you will love some day be very happy. I know that." She walked up and gave him one last hug. It was silent now. Everyone in the room were silent, so as not to disturb them. Meriella walked out of the room. Sai quietly walked out as well. "Meriella, please know that I'm proud to be your friend. You diserve to live through this. I know." Meriella looked at him over her shoulder.
"And Sai... Flay did love you. I just wanted you to know that. I saw it, please... remember that. She's very sorry. I know she is." Sai smiled and walked away to his own room. Leaving the rest of this world to think things through. Right now, there was no one to comfort. No-one. With Kuzzy gone. Tolle gone. And... Flay gone. He had no one, no one to comfort. Meriella wasn't going to be comforted by someone such as him. She already had someone. he climbed into his bed, finding for the first time, in twelve months, that sleep came to him calm and gentle. Yes, in his own little way, he was happy. Sad, but happy.
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Kira sat there, all his tears dried out on his soft face. He sat back, not willing to move. At least... net yet. This gave him the time to get the rest of which he needed. He closed his eyes and felt the pain in his eyes from crying so hard, and so much. He had been crying for so much over the last few months. Everytime, it was more painful than imaginable. But this time, he could feel so pain going to his head. This time, he had hurt his heart more than he ever had. The strong rip going along his heart, burnt him. He tried not to think about it, so as to heal a little bit. He did know one thing, this wound wasn't one that was going to be healded. It was a wound that was going to stay. With no cure.
After this war, nothing could go back to the way it was before. He had long lost the old him. The new him was nothing but anger and sadness. After this, he was going to have to work hard to get back at least some of his old self. He slowly dissapeared into his own little world. Falling into a long, silent sleep. One that he had been need of for more than you could think possible. When he was asleep, one last tear fell from his eye, then he smiled. Leaving himself to be taken over by his dreams. Tomorrow would be another day, until then, sleep was all he would need. Yes, a long, silent rest. To heal at least something within his delicate heart.
Cagalli ran outside and found Athrun, on his knees, crying. Athrun? Athrun was crying? Cagalli walked over to him and bent down, holding him secure by his shoulders. Athrun didn't say anything but cried within his strong hands. Cagalli cried with him and held him tight. "I'm so sorry..." She said, holding him gently on her lap. "You had to do that. I would've never been able to do that. You're so brave, Athrun." After a while of lying there, Athrun stopped. Cagalli reached for her napkin. She wiped off his tears softly. "It's alright, you'll be ok. I'm here. Oh Athrun,I thought you were dead... You scared me so much." Athrun smiled adn held her hand softly. Gently pulling it closer to his other hand and held it softly.
"Know what? I think you are much more brave that I could ever hope to be. I was just following orders, you... you ran away from home and saved so many people's lifes. You're also smart, getting out of things I could never imagine. You're strong, especially after your... your father..." He stopped for a second, wondering if it was right to say it. If she wouldn't want to remember it right now.
But then she answered for him, "Died?" He nodded. She closed her eyes and then opened them after a while when he continued.
"Not just that, Cagalli you are the most beautiful person I have ever seen. The way you move so gracefully..." Athrun sat up slowly and held both of her hands on her lap. "Cagalli, I... I love you..." Cagalli blushed. Her eyes went wide, even though she knew it. To hear it from his own silent voice made her shiver. He continued. "I love the way you always seem to be so happy when the days are silent. I love the way you have own, unique way of making people smile. Even though you may sometimes get angry and not think about it, you always seem to sort it out, make things go right. Most of all, you have a strong, big heart. You have a soft spot for those that are close to you and... that's why I love you. Because of you, Cagalli, I now have hope. Hope that I may start this over and be happy again. Someday."
Athrun let go of her hands and embraced her. Tears going down his face. "If I lost you... I would've died. Please, will you stay with me? So that I may be able to protect you?" Cagalli laughed thruogh her tears of joy.
"I love you too Athrun. I promise, I'll stay with you."The two stayed like that for a while, not wanting to let go. When they finally did, they got up and went to get their things to leave to Cagalli's Gundam. The rouge.
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The young captain sat in her chair. With her first tears since Thomas had died. Her fiance'. "Why?" she sobbed. "Why does this always happen? It's my fault... I'm so sorry, Mu. I love you." She thought back, back to the memories of him. The way he always seemed to smile even though things were worse than she thought possible, Mu always, always smiled. His heart, so strong. He was always there. He always came back to her. Never leaving her side. Why? Why did he have to die? Why wasn't it her that had saved him. Not the other way around. She was supposed to be the one to die. Not him. Yet, she saw him die, right before her eyes, and he smiled to the very end. Smiling for her. Smiling because he was with her.He loved her too. He loved her enough to die for her. But why...? Why did he have to die? Why wasn't she able to save herself for once. Just when she had found him, she wasn't able to prove to him that she was strong enough to take care of herself. After everything. Loving him. Seeing so much of his kindness.
She wanted to be with him so they could share this happy ending together. So they could be happy. How was she ever going to love again? How? After Mu... there was no one in the world that could be for her. No one. No one to love her. Her mother and father both dead from the war. Both her two little sisters murdered in her own house. Her own family, all of them. Gone. Everything she had and loved. Gone. Even her friend, Lutenent Bageral. She was the only one alive. One of the men from the ship walked up to her. One of her closest friends. He handed her some tea. the rest of them walked in. These were her friends that she had been with through it all. She smiled at them all and wiped her tears. "I'm sorry, Maru." She smiled at them.
"We made it, we survived through it all. We did it. I'm so proud to have been your captain. I'm speaking complete and endless truth rite now. I'm very, very proud of you all." She took a drink from her coffee and put it in her hands for heat. They all nodded.
"Yet, this war is still not over. It will never end. Ever. After all that, we are to expect that this war was only the begining. Us humans are unstapable in the things we believe in. And some of those people down there, on earth, believe with all their hearts in this war. If only we could learn not to be like this, our world would be so peaceful." Everyone looked over adn thoguht to themselves. He was all too right.
Maru nodded. "But, at least for not, let the children rest. They need it more than you can think of. In fact, you should all rest."
"What about you? You look tired.I'll take your place while you sleep. ok?" Everyone else agreed.Maru smiled adn thanked them all, heading to her room. Falling into a sleep unown.
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Everyone seemed so peaceful, sleeping in their sad little dreams. They needed their rest. Then, after that, they would goright backwhere they stared from. War.But until then, they would sleep, healing their wounds slowly.
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. well then, there goes for my first chap, hope you guys liked it. :)! I'm going to continue onto the next chap, but im going to take it slowly from now on, so i dont rush it. Thank-you pplz for reading it, though. I hope you liked it, if you did i would really like it if you reviewed. So i know if its worth my time and effort. Cause if not, i'll stop. well then, see you laters :D WhiteLily xoxo
