MasterFranny: it's one in the morning, I don't think I'll do a very good work with this one, but I can always rewrite it... I wish you will continue reading this, because reviews make me really happy. For a fic-writer, reviews are like water for a thirsty man in the desert... but still I have a beta. A Beta I have to thanks a lot.

Hm, I have a question. I was thinking on writing a InuYasha/BeyBlade crossover, but different from the others. I was thinking on making a crossover YAOI with the pairing InuYasha/Kai and Sesshomaru/I-know-who-you-not. I wanna know if it can be interesting or it's better to just drop the idea. Please, I want you to answer... thanks.

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Frosst: gosh, Frosst reading my fic! okay, I'm happy! I read your fic too, but since you discontinued it, I felt really sad. I mean gone in a flash... butI love you reviewed, hope you will review from now on!

Shady Gurl: I know what you mean. Since my dad's working on the MAC I had to wait till one AM to go to internet, and I'm out cold... but at least I go to bed realy happy.

Reiven: mmmh... I didn't said before what color are Tala's eyes? That's fine, he was alone and Kai was not. I haven't the chance to make someone look at him while... okay, don't spoiler. I will put that up soon, now bear with this one okay?

LA-Tiger: hear it or not, it's never too much to hear someone liked your fic ya know. For me it's really helpful to know I'm writing something that someone likes, since every chapter didn't fulfill me enough.

Inulover28: not in rooms, I think they're guards for the whole hospital, I was surprised too when I found out. May have no guards in all hospitals, but here they have... shruggs thanks, keep reading!

Phyrefly: well, that line... was too accurate for my liking. Okay, keep reading seventh will be sent soon.

Babymar-mar: oh, okay. Think my parents calls me Chicca... thoug my name is Francesca... sigh. I think you answered yourself pretty well ya know. Don't spoiler, wait for explanation in future chapters! Besides, you reviewed twice the same thing! .

Wah-Keetcha: well, you will be surprised by this one though I repeated a lot that they're not side chara this time.

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RATING: still R...

DISCLAIMER: me no own, you no sue

"talking"
'thinking'
" talking into other languages "
beatbeast language
""""""dreams sequences, flashbacks, memories""""""

BREATH OF LIGHT

CHAPTER 06= A Better Place

Whispers of discontent are running in my head,
Words of defeat lingering through my mind:
Is this really the peace I was longing for?
Is this really what my heart was searching?
Hollow voices in the background,
Only shadows of my soul,
Deep tainted from the inside
And I just can't open my eyes,
Afraid I could never see the light again.

As the day passed by, the sun hidden by clouds coming back out as a cold wind blew down the streets the city remained unfazed, like all the stuff of the Tournament had never happened. The people resumed their normal life in a blink of an eye and the entire city continued its goings on without problems. The streets were full of busy men and women going to and returning from work, of kids playing and battling with their BeyBlades, a nice picture of normality.

A flash of dark colours was zooming down the street, causing many passers-by to curse in his direction at his lack of attention. Then the boy bumped hard into a distinct looking man, who fell ungracefully to the ground with a loud humpf'.

Look where you are going, boy!

But the man was talking to no one: the boy who had bumped into him was already gone. He shrugged and stood up again, collecting his fallen things, mumbling about disrespectful youths.

Kai closed his eyes, completely unaware of having bumped into someone. His body was asking him to run even faster, to push until his limits and then even further. His blood pumping through his veins, he felt really alive.

Above him the sun was shining, the wind was blowing softly against his frame while he ran, and his mind shut down, leaving him with only his need to feel.

He was eager to feel everything around him, to feel the warmth of the sunshine, the cold of the wind, to hear people chatting and birds singing, to hear the noises of the life that were here, like a blind and deaf man who suddenly found both hearing and sight returned.

It was like all around him was new to his eyes, he was looking at the snow, at the trees, at the houses and at the people like they were wonders of the World, like something he'd never seen.

He always had been an observer of the human race, liking to notice all details of anyone in sight, but now, it was like a new door had been opened and he had the sensation that he had never really seen anything.

The tingle was spreading again from his back, reaching his fingers, his neck, his legs, as if it was asking him to do something but he didn't know what.

Finally he stopped. He wasn't out of breath even if he had ran at least two miles at top speed, but the tingling sensation was stronger than ever and Kai didn't know what he was supposed to do now. It was so strong that it hurt, and with it the sensation that something was still missing, he was supposed to do something more to calm down all his euphoria.

Deep inside he knew he did something stupid, leaving the hospital like this. But back then, all that counted was running away. Nothing else had been important but the urge to feel he was alive.

Kai blinked twice and lifted one hand to his forehead: he was still burning from some kind of fever but it was slowly disappearing due to his run. He felt each inch of disease vanish from his body, and with it his insane trail of thoughts.

It took him only one second to realize what he had done. He had been sunk down in his euphoria and he had left the hospital; okay, Bruce and Mr. Dickinson were annoying, but they were also worried for him. Once his usual coolness was back to him, he realized his behaviour was not only strange, but absolutely wrong: both the adults and the BladeBreakers had seen him almost dead and a second later completely healthy.

What the Heck happened? He lost all his sanity, almost like he was not a human but a caged animal. The massive desire to just find an open place, instead of the walls that were causing him claustrophobia just blocked out his rational mind.

Blinking again, one more time, as his eyes hurt, he decided he had to return to the hotel. He was so deep into his thoughts that he didn't even notice that his eyes had dimmed out a little, together with all his senses.

The slate haired blader walked slowly back towards the hotel, ready to face everything Mr. Dickinson would want to throw at him.

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Footsteps echoed loudly on the stone floor as three shapes walked slowly in the dark corridors towards the director's office; each shape had shaking hands and a slight tremor, almost invisible if no one was looking but quite obvious if one was searching for it.

Each shape had shining eyes in the dark, a whirling fight of colours deep down, but the three of them didn't care as they reached his office and opened the door, stepping in and looking right up at their owner', hatred passing through their features in a rush but quickly hid by emotionless masks.

This wasn't the time.

Boris was sitting on his chair with his back to the three and was talking with someone on the phone, but as he heard the door open he shut down the call and turned to them.

The mask he wore gave away the impression of a human shaped demon as an insane smirk appeared on the director's face while observing them.

All three of them knew what he was smirking for: the slight redness that lingered on their faces due to the disease they were all experiencing, the internal fight deep inside their eyes, their uneasiness concealed by the small room they were in.

All signs that the effect was slowly but surely taking off.

Finally Boris spoke, breaking the awkward silence with his sickening voice. As you may know, the thing is losing its effect. But they're taking it worse than any of you he looked at them, somewhat pleased by their sickness.

The three tensed, each one wanting deeply to jump on the director and cut his throat, but they remained still, suppressing the urge.

The smallest of the three boys stepped forwards, looking at Boris with clear red eyes mixed with bronze, his big nose standing in the way. That's because we couldn't give it to neither of them since one wasn't with us anymore and the other rejected it then he added, as if in an afterthought, Sir .

Spencer stepped near his friend and fellow Ian, his face showing nothing of his internal disease except for the slight flush on his cheeks.

And we know both of them forgot it he said in a low voice, then adding with a sneer Sir .

Boris was completely aware of the disrespect the three teens were showing to him, but this was not the time to punish them: he needed them to recollect his experiment number one before the thing got worse.

As you may also know he continued, voice strained to not let them know they pissed him off we don't want his childish team mates finding out what he is, right? That would be pretty hurtful for your friend. So your next mission is to go and take him back: this night .

This time it was Bryan's turn to step forwards and nod; on his face appeared a flash of worry when he spoke What about Tala, sir? the sneer was however present.

Boris sneered. Don't worry about him, he will be... mmh... fine. I will send him to his room when Kai's back with us .

Bryan growled almost soundlessly and the three bowed slightly, walking away and closing the door.

On Boris' face appeared an angered expression, his eyes shining with hate.

You will pay for your disrespect, stupid fools, once I get Experiment One back .

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As the door opened, revealing the slate haired teen, Mr. Dickinson and Bruce stood up from their seats, worry still clear in their eyes.

After Kai disappeared out of the hospital, scaring the hell out of them, they had decided to return to the hotel since Kai had said he would see them here. Two hours passed, and the young teen still wasn't back. Now, finally, Kai returned and the worried men lunged to him.

Bruce ran towards the teen, grabbing his shoulders tightly to prevent him from going away again. We were worried! Why did you run away?

Kai growled slightly but nonetheless he didn't remove Bruce's hands. For how much he hated the touch, he knew Bruce wanted to know he was fine.

Mr. Dickinson approached, he too grabbing Kai by his shoulder, turning him to look at the chairman whose eyes were full of sadness and worry.

Kai blinked and releasing himself from the touch of the two he sat down on the nearest chair, waiting for what had to come.

Bruce and Mr. Dickinson calmed down, breathing deeply and placing themselves before Kai; Bruce nodded towards Stanley Dickinson, motioning him to talk first since he knew Kai better.

Young Kai, I don't know what made you run that way back in the hospital, but I'm pretty sure you were not in the conditions to do such a thing. We took you there, we saw you fighting a huge fever, how can you explain that you are completely healthy now?

Kai sighed. He didn't know himself. Besides, since he never had any sickness in the past -not as far as he remembered, that is- he could only think it was something concerning the Abbey. But it was out of question telling this to the chairman of the BBA.

So he opted for a shrug.

I don't know he finally spoke, deciding to switch on his leave-me-alone mode'. I think I'm a fast healer, who cares?

Bruce grimaced, then in a swift move he grabbed Kai by his arm and he took away his armguard, revealing his arm.

How do you explain these? he asked triumphantly.

Kai blinked and looked down at his arm. It was rid of all the scars and injuries; the only thing that lingered still on the flesh was a dark shade of red where the bruises were.

Explain... what? he asked, slight amusement flashing in his voice.

He didn't know where the injuries went, and this was starting to scare him a lot -since when did bruises and lifelong scars disappear in few hours?- but he remained emotionless on the outside, even if on the inside he wanted to scream.

This was a point for him, and he was determined to use it to his advantage.

Besides, a part of him, deep down, was expecting this to happen somehow.

Bruce's eyes, as well as Mr. Dickinson's, widened in shock. What the fuck?



Kai stood up.

I'm sorry if I made you worry he said in a cold voice But I think you're overreacting... seeing invisible injuries.

Then he walked towards the door of his room and opened it, stepping inside and leaving the two men completely astonished.

If Kai was hoping to find peace inside to think, he had to be disappointed: the room was full of his team mates, all with worried looks that mimicked Mr. Dickinson's, even if the teens had not seen his bruises. When Ray heard the door open he turned and screamed in joy seeing his friend and captain enter their room.

You're back! he yelled, running towards him.

Max, Tyson and Kenny stood up as well and ran at him- really happy he was back.

Tyson grabbed his shoulders much like Mr. Dickinson did before and looked into Kai's eyes, he wanted to see if his sight had betrayed him before, and was relieved to see they were crimson with no trace of other colours in them.

Kai, for his part, was rather annoyed since it was the second physical contact he received in few seconds, and since it was no adult who was doing it he was happy to shove Tyson off with a low growl.

Back off he growled.

Tyson complied, and led Kai to a seat. The Phoenix followed him, already knowing what they wanted to do now.

Please Kai, we don't want to bug you but you're our friend Ray seated himself near Kai as the others did too. And you're upset, we can see it. We want to help you so why, just for once, don't you open up to us?

Kai felt again like a caged animal but this time it was a very different feeling, and he had to admit to himself he owed them some sort of explanation.

He wasn't in the mood to stay there and tell them all his pitying life with his grandfather, or the little things he remembered from his past at the Abbey, but they claimed to be his friends more than once and maybe, just maybe, he could open up to them.

Just a little.

You have to was the quiet opinion of Dranzer.

The huge Phoenix Beast entered Kai's mind easily now, knowing he was finally back to himself. It was a mere second in which Kai and Dranzer remained still, one before the other in the deep of the young boy's mind, their eyes meeting: the crimson ones of the human and the golden ones of the Phoenix Spirit.

Dranzer knew Kai was about to face many dangers, and she knew it wouldn't be easy for him to remember his past and the thing but she also knew that he needed friends.

And the BladeBreakers could be what he needed to feel normal, something he never ever felt before.

Kai blinked, the short connection lasted only mere milliseconds, and looked at the four boys before him. His heart was asking him to surrender to them while some other part of his mind was ordering him not to let them come into his business.

But then he remembered that his coldness was part of Boris' training, and if the sadistic man wanted him to stay alone all his life, the best thing Kai could do was show him he had friends.

Ray saw in Kai's eyes that there was a furious battle going on between the cold part and the one who was seeking friendship and he felt his heart jump when Kai's eyes became warmer, his face relaxing into a somewhat calm expression.

The adults couldn't break his shield, but the Bladebreakers were finally managing to.

He sighed in defeat as he mumbled against fucking Beasts and teammates.

What do you want to know? he growled.

Tyson, Max, Ray and Kenny beamed happily as they looked at the now pissed off, but ready to answer, Kai.

First, how did you manage to get rid of the fever in such a short time? asked Ray.

Kai glanced down, knowing they would start with something like this.

Really, I don't know he raised his hands in defence seeing the disappointed faces of his teammates. No, really, I do not know; I always knew I had a fast metabolism, but I never got sick so I never experienced such thing before.

It was really strange, to answer like this when all his life he avoided similar questions, but he felt somewhat better after he stopped. He realized how much he needed to talk now, even if it wasn't as easy as he thought since he wasn't used to do it.

Max exchanged a look with Tyson. Then can you tell us why you kept sending us away? And why now you're answering us?

This was a better question, and it wasn't hard to answer it. Kai grimaced slightly and looked away.

Boris taught me never to trust, he said quietly. That's why I'm talking now.

A confused expression appeared on the teens' faces. Then Kenny nodded, understanding.

Since you hate him and he told you not to open up you're doing it just to go against him, am I right?

Kai cocked an eyebrow; the brainiac was a faster thinker than he first thought.

His reaction told Kenny he was right.

This is a very Kai-like thing! Max laughed out. Just to unnerve him.

There was more than that underneath the surface, but Kai decided not to tell. He still wasn't ready to open up completely when he himself didn't remember all his past in first place.

I think I'm done, he said, standing up. I'm going to my room now.

Though the BladeBreakers were disappointed, they knew it had to be a hard thing for him to tell them just few things instead of his usual nh, stay away of my business', so they dropped it. There was plenty of time to make him open up fully.

But as Kai walked away towards the door that linked Tyson, Kenny and Max's room with Ray and Kai's own, Tyson couldn't stop himself as he stood up, the question that lingered in his mind so much flooded out of his mouth in a hurry.

Why did your eyes changed colour before?

Kai stopped dead in his tracks, his body completely frozen in the act of turning the handle. What had that meant? His eyes changed colour?

In a flash the dream he had when he first fainted in the hallway returned to his mind, together with the sensation that something was missing.

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His eyes faltered when the crimson overpowered the golden colour, shifting back to their normal conformation. He blinked a few times, shaking his head slightly when his hearing diminished too. He hated that.

Okay, now he was... normal. On the outside, anyway.

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He had thought it was just a dream. Something mixed in-between his missing memories and fantasy. And after the faintings he put the dream away in another part of his mind, to deal with it later, and soon he forgot it. But now Tyson's words made the dream return, completely vivid as if it had happened ten minutes before.

His eyes changing colour. From Gold to red... but that couldn't be possible. Eyes don't change colour by the snap of fingers. It was virtually impossible. Maybe Tyson was just seeing things, maybe the dream was just that... a dream.

But he needed to know.

What colour were they? he urged, looking at Tyson with narrowed eyes.

Tyson eeped at the sudden change in mood of his captain. The other BladeBreakers, who looked positively confused by Tyson's strange question and had been sneering at him, turned to Kai, shocked.

Tyson swallowed under the fierce gaze and answered Gold, almost totally gold.

Kai was taken aback by these words. So it wasn't just a dream. It was a memory. Tyson had proved it by saying the exact colour of his dream.

He felt his head lighten and he rested his hand on the wall as support. What was happening? Scars disappearing, eyes changing colour, strange urges...

Something happened in the Abbey, and he was determined to find out what.

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MasterFranny: so this was the sixth chapter. What the three D-Boys know? What are they hiding? Where the fuck are Kai's scars? Review and stay with me and you will know!