WARNING serious babbling in the whole thing, before and after the chapter. LOOOONG ending note. You don't have to read it though, I care if you review however!
MasterFranny: well, you know what? I thought this chapter was already done instead I never wrote a line of this, and I noticed it at 11 PM, and I freaked out since I had to send it to my nice BETA (cheers to Phyrefly) the morning after. And I was only in the middle of the ending note! . so that week I couldn't update. And then my dad went to Barcellona WITHOUT ME, 'cause I got Pneumonia and I had to remain in bed for all the week. It ended the day after I had to go back to school. My last year at the high school. I had a horrible week. My dad sent me a horrible post card of two strange built rooftops, with the writing "Hola, Pikachu's gone, Bruno" without any thing like "kisses, dad"; Then he did not wrote in the address my mother's name so she freaked out saying she was angry with him (but I thought she would be even freakier if he wrote "greetings, Bruno and Nives", who's his actual girlfriend). Then my pneumonia kept me in bed without TV programs, books (my eyes hurt) and internet. I corrupted my uncle and he made me use his laptop but it was a PC and not a MAC so I couldn't find anything to convert the chapters. Then my mail was full again, my eyes were watering like two cascades, I reviewed something stupid to a great authoress, miscatching a brother for one another in her fic, and couldn't fix the error since my uncle negate me all use of his laptop for one week since he's out working. When yesterday I could go to internet, my uncle disabled something so the windows in liks couldn't open and I didn't review anything. I bet I will be killed in the next two days.
The only thing I can say lifted my mood, besides having hot Kai on my recorded tape I saw when out of school, is that the greatest authoress ever reviewed this fic. That was one of my dreams you see. That she would see my fic and review it. And when I thought she would never do that, she did. I got an heart attack when the review alert with her name on it beeped on my mail.
WATCH OUT! I FINALLY UPDATED "I AM NOTHING"!!!! CHEERS FOR ME!
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PhyreFly: great one, thank you for all you're doing for me!
Elves Of The Moon: don't worry. To say the truth, I was worried. I thought you didn't like my fic anymore... You can't understand how happy I was when reading your review!
Boys-on-boysenberry: great. OO I can't believe it, my dream came true. The best Tala/Kai writer reviewed my little ficcie. I'm devoted to Tala/Kai things, all my 4 fics are about that couple (except one that will be Ozuma/Kai). I feel honoured you reviewed me. That is a great day for a writer like myself, when one of your greatness says my fic is cute. Sniff, I'm really happy... ;;
Renanimeangel: thank you, sugar girl! I read Baka Vacation, I found it good. Try please "Last Standing" one-shot in my favs. It's really sad and in a strange POV but it meant a lot to me... well, that was exageration, but still.
Kammyh: well, I really want to know why you reviewed in english... glad you found out Really wonderful site ne? Thank you. What ugly pairing, mind to tell me? èé huge mass of people angry throws knives at Kammyh however, glad you joined us. In english you can not only have more feedback (reviewes) but also more choice. In italian sites fics are... ugly... no offence to anyone but still. I'm happy I'm working in this site. Put some BIO on your BIO page. No Dragon Ball, for god's sake! Supernatural, not insane! OO
Werewolf of Fire: if I told you, then I would spoil the story :P and ruin all my attepts to confuse you... hope you all like Kiya-kun.
Babymar-mar: well, Chicca... you pronunce the 'ch' like 'k', the 'i' like in 'ignorance', the 'cc' like 'kk' and the 'a' like in 'ancient'. Wow, difficult. the english pronunce is so different from ours sometimes...
Vampyre Neko: grrrrr. don't try to think at the possible explainings! I want you all to be confused! .
Elves of the Moon: I love your reviews. The longer the better. however, no one is gonna die. -ouch spoiler! . - But it will still end bad. Don't forget the sequel. when I'm near end I will ask readers to send me ideas on how to continue, better in mails and reviewes. Hope you like my OC...
Reiven: no monster. Kai considers himself a monster, but that doesn't mean he is... not entirely... uhm... another spoiler... uff...
RedLefty: you're Max, aren't you? I know! So stop pretending to be a reader! okay, no kidding, thanks. You surely lift up my mood...
Wah-Keetcha: OO MasterFranny starts to back away slowly okay... just don't attack me... MF runs away really scared. MF pops up from behind a corner just kidding, thank you and update you too!
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RATING: still R... just wait...
DISCLAIMER: sigh. Just look back to prev chaps.
"talking"
'thinking'
" talking into other languages "
beatbeast language
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BREATH OF LIGHT
CHAPTER 07 Coming Back "Home"
What happened to the real me?
What happened to my soul?
I'm still waiting there, why don't you come?
My memories flooding my consciousness,
I need to calm down,
Your touch is the only thing that counts
Just come and let me rest...
It was past midnight and the streets were empty. A few lamps were here and there, sending their light on the sidewalk, but the light wasn't that strong and the shadows were claiming it all back.
In the night, the city changed its appearance completely: it was as if a common agreement ran through all the people, preventing them from walking down the streets at night.
It was all silent, a silence that lingered lurking in the shadows, a silence that was heavier than words.
Then...
Up on a building's roof- a shadow, darker than the others. It was small and impossible to notice if you didn't look for it, and it was moving in a snake-like way from roof to roof without a sound.
It was followed by two other shadows, each one darker than the darkness and both larger than the first one. No sound or noise reached the ground, as if they were mere ghosts.
The three shapes were heading towards the centre of the city, their steps sure and determined, knowing where to go and what to do. They were finally satisfied with moving on their own, enjoying simply being out and happy to finally be free from the deepest part of themselves, knowing in such late hour no one could ever see them.
They stopped for one second, almost in midair, and then they shifted towards the building that was a hotel. They had a mission, and were determined to do it well. The shorter shape opened his mouth slightly, like he was savouring the air, and pointed towards one window on their left.
Here .
The window was closed but no curtains hid the inside, and the three shapes could see the two forms lying asleep on the mattresses.
Dark bronze eyes meet equally dark auburn ones in a silent agreement, and with a swift movement they opened the window silently.
Luckily for them, their prey was the one nearer to the window, since the other one was afraid of heights. Blue hair, darker on the back- lighter on the front, eyes closed as he was deep in sleep, slight movements of his face showing that he was dreaming, eyes that were crimson but that could turn gold.
With rapid, swift actions the shadows entered the room, their eyes accustoming to the dark with ease as they turned back to their normal colour. The shorter shape huffed.
" Watch out " were Bryan's words, whispered so the other two could hardly hear him. " Light sleeper ".
Ian grimaced as he approached Kai's bed, pulling out a needle from his jacket. Opposite to his show, he wasn't that cold hearted. He hated what they were doing. Spencer shrugged at his friend's antics and went near him for help.
Bryan, like a hawk, watched the other shape who was still sleeping: for how much Ray was a Neko-jinn, if the D-Boys wanted to be soundless, they were soundless.
But in the exact moment the needle touched Kai's skin, and the serum entered his veins, the teen's eyes shot open in a flash and tried to focus on the dark shapes around him.
The serum was taking effect quickly, and Kai's already confused mind started to slide in and out of focus.
He felt an irrational fear as he tried to shove the shapes off him; fear of something he himself didn't know, and as his sight became more and more blurred he tried to call for help but his voice couldn't come out of his throat, due to the irrational fear. It was as if the entire thing had happened once and he couldn't remember. His heartbeat went wild and his breath stopped in his lungs as he started to hyperventilate.
Spencer saw the fear flicker into the red orbs, knowing exactly what Kai was going through, but he didn't know what to do. He didn't want to hurt his friend and he felt really guilty because he wasn't remembering anything and he was afraid -being half asleep when attacked- because that had happened already...
Then something came back into Spencer's mind. Last time Kai was afraid like this he helped him, soothed him. He went first, challenging Boris' orders for the sake of helping his friend.
Nothing was worse than nightmares coming true. Spencer knew this.
So he leaned slightly over Kai's shuddering form, now knowing what to do.
" Calm down, Suzaku... " he whispered. " Nothing's wrong, we're here to take you home, brother... "
Kai froze, as he stopped his fighting against the serum; the words were all too familiar to him, but he didn't know who had said them. The words had the power to calm him down, as he felt a wave of reassurance run into him.
" Ki... ya? " he whispered, not knowing who Kiya was, and why that name came into his mind, before he fell into the darkness.
Spencer sighed, deeply hurt by the mention of that name, but it was partially his fault. He was sure Kai still couldn't remember, but the words had helped him greatly, calming him down.
That, however, couldn't stop a wave of guilt from dawning on him.
Just the name recalled a wave of pain inside each D-Boy's heart, and for a moment they remained still, mourning the person that owned the name Kiya. How much he'd tried to help them, how much he'd lost for doing so.
" Come on " Bryan urged.
It wasn't the time to hang on to tragic past events, they had to get back as soon as they could, they didn't want to be caught.
Spencer nodded curtly, picking up Kai's sleeping body bridal style before heading towards the window, readying himself to jump out.
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Something was wrong.
In his sleep, Ray frowned. Noises? No, something different. Not noises, but mere presences. He had the feeling that there were presences around him, and it wasn't a dream.
Someone was in his room.
Trying to shove away the sleep the Neko-Jinn opened his eyes, blinking as his sight registered three shapes around Kai's bed. The sleep disappeared from his mind and he straightened on the mattress, eyes widening as he recognized the shapes as the three Demolition Boys- Spencer, Ian and Bryan.
The blond one, Spencer, was holding Kai's body in his arms with care, and the others were just moving towards the window, the shortest one putting a needle away in his jacket.
They were kidnapping Kai.
As the truth clicked in Ray's mind he opened his mouth to yell but Bryan was already near him, pulling him back onto the mattress with one hand over the Chinese boy's mouth and the other blocking his arms above his head.
"Hush, Kitten," he whispered in a confident way. "Don't even think to call for help".
Ray was now trembling slightly, as he could do nothing to help his captain, and was overwhelmed by fear. This was the one who had hurt him so much he'd sent him to the hospital. And he was here, in his room, kidnapping one of his friends.
Spencer turned his head towards them and cocked an eyebrow. Then, seeing what was happening, he nodded and jumped out of the window.
Ian sighed in defeat as he approached Bryan and Ray.
"I'm sorry, Kitten" the lilac haired blader grimaced. "But Kai must come back with us. He has no other home; he has no other family but us. He's better off with us".
Ray was caught in surprise by the sorrow and the hurt in Bryan's eyes. When they fought at the tournament he looked furious and completely insane. Ray would never have thought he could experience feelings, much less show them.
And here he was, eyes full of pain, sorrow, sadness, any unhappy feeling Ray could recognise. It scared him immensely, and at the same he felt a stab in his heart.
What had he meant with the words 'he has no family but us'?
The shock was doubled when the hand was replaced by Bryan's own lips, as the falcon kissed the tiger slightly.
Ray felt a wet trickle on his cheek, and he was completely dumbfounded when he saw Bryan's eyes full of unshed tears, one of them managing to fall right on him.
So much sadness in his face, like he knew no one would ever understand, like he knew they were alone and he had no hope to be freed. It hurt, seeing that expression in Bryan's face, since one vaguely similar was on Kai's own face when he was thinking about his forgotten memories.
Bryan pulled away, leaving Ray speechless.
"Why did you do that?" Ian's voice was full of sadness too, for Bryan this time. He didn't even notice he was talking in English like Bryan did with Ray. "You know it could never be possible for you..."
Bryan locked his eyes with Ian's.
"I know," he replied grimly. "I know".
Ian felt tears sting his eyes but he forced himself to look at the tiger, meeting the shocked Chinese boy's eyes.
Ian's red eyes mixed with bronze in a circling spiral, each colour fighting to gain dominance, and Ray was caught in the middle, as if the bronze and the red were circling his own mind. The two colours became larger and larger, as if they were trying to fill the space around him, and continued to shift and move in spirals.
He felt his eyelids grow heavier and heavier as sleep threatened to catch him. Still looking at the magnetic and hypnotic eyes, he fell asleep, his head hanging low before falling back on the pillow.
Staring at the now sleeping form, Ian forced his eyes to change into complete Bronze as he sighed.
It was going downhill for them all. It was not meant to be this hard. If only that day Kai hadn't been forced to go again to the Lab, if Kiya hadn't changed just to help him, if B Dranzer didn't stand on their way...
Maybe then things would have been different. They would still be together, maybe they would even had found a way to free themselves from Boris and Voltaire. Not from what they were, not from the thing, but maybe from the tormentors.
Now Kai and Tala were blind to what really happened, to what they were, Bryan had developed an impossible feeling for the Chinese member of the BladeBreakers, and they were bound to remain slaves of the two demons known as director and owner of the Abbey, forever.
With that trail of hopeless thoughts Ian shifted towards the window, his shoulders hanging low, and sneaked out of the hotel room followed shortly by Bryan.
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" Look out, Yuri, it's snowing! "
He frowned. Yuri? His name wasn't Yuri: he was Tala.
Where the heck was he?
Looking around he could recognise that he was in his room at the Abbey, but he was somehow in a different room: it was divided in two equal parts and had two beds.
He did not remember sharing a room with someone in his past. His past was unknown to him since when he woke up in his room and didn't remember a thing about who he was before, finding only three boys who claimed to be his teammates, and a strange sensation of loneliness deep inside his heart.
So what was that... dream? Was it something related to the time he did not remember?
But his name wasn't Yuri.
Focusing on the voice of the one who had called him, he found a kid some feet away, but he was so stuffed into clothes he wasn't in the least bit recognizable. He was wearing one coat, a lot bigger than him, gloves, two scarves, and a hat.
" We can go outside for a bit, I'm positive Boris will not find out " the other kid rambled on, a voice that Tala found strangely familiar. " Besides, for you it will be quite normal, considering your state ".
He was about to ask the other who he was but his mouth spoke by itself, like in some pre-ordered movie, and he had no control over his body: if it was a dream then he was living it but not able to interact with it.
" Sure you'll be safe out there? " his voice said, and Tala was surprised to hear slight worry in it.
Why would he feel worry about someone? That couldn't be a memory, he decided; it was just a dream. A very strange dream, but still.
" Don't worry Yuri, I'm quite comfortable out there. You'll see, I won't freeze " the boy replied happily, showing his clothes, and again Tala found his voice familiar.
He felt himself nod before he followed the other kid outside his room and down the corridor, passing through the abbey maze without thinking, and then he was out.
A strange sense of longing hit Tala deeply, feeling on his exposed skin the coldness of the snow, comfortable and nice. He wasn't cold, and the touch of the snow seemed so real it was scary.
Around him the courtyard was white; the ground, the trees, the rooftops of the houses in the distance, the mountains so far away, it was all covered in snow and it was so damn beautiful.
His head was spinning, the dream seemed unreal but at the same time it was familiar and he was confused. He heard the boy talk while running around enjoying the snowflakes, and he could vaguely hear his own voice, much younger, reply while moving around in unison with him. At the same time he was still and mentally shook his head. Why couldn't he escape? Why was the dream was still playing? Why did everything look like some forgotten memory, when he knew it wasn't?
Then he was slammed back into the dream with force as his eyes focused on the shape of his companion, lying fallen in the snow. He heard himself giggle, he had thrown a snowball against the other's head and he thought it was funny; but deep inside Tala, the older one, knew there was something wrong with the other boy.
" Come on, stand up " he heard himself say. " We can play a little ".
He was aware of the fact that he had never, ever played before, but he was too concentrated on the dream to pay attention to it. The other boy, a few feet away, wasn't moving.
" Hey? " now his younger self was worried. " Don't scare me, come on... "
But the other did not move. He remained still on the ground, snowflakes now falling on him.
Tala felt a deep sense of fear wash over him. Fear for the boy he didn't even know, who was lying there motionless. It was wrong, how could a simple snowball hit him so hard?
He ran towards the fallen boy and hugged him, both Tala and his younger version worried and astonished when he felt how cold he was, even with all the clothes he was wearing. His breath came out in ragged gasps, like he found difficult to breathe the air into his lungs.
" No, not again! " he heard his younger self yell. " It's my fault, I should have known better! "
Again.
So this had happened already?
Tala snickered to himself, he was thinking of the dream like it was something that really happened, but it wasn't.
And he suppressed the small turn of his stomach while looking down at the freezing body. It never happened. It was just a strange dream that was playing with his mind.
" YURI! "
He turned and saw a shape running towards them, partially covered in snow. It was a boy, maybe older than the version of himself in the dream, and he had green hair that hung high at each side of his head, with bangs that fell on his face. His violet eyes were full of worry and fear.
The picture hit Tala hard. He knew that boy.
He barely heard his young self yell the shape's name, but the name remained in his mind, burning like a fire. A name he recognised, a name he knew.
" Kiya! Please, he fainted! "
Despair in his younger part's voice.
Tala wanted to back away, he wanted the dream to end, he willed himself to just wake up. He knew that if he awoke Boris would be here punishing him but the mental pain he was feeling right then overwhelmed the fear for the physical torture.
And still, the dream did not falter.
He was crying now.
Well, his younger self was crying, and the despair was going in between him and his older self, causing Tala to feel it doubled.
The fear, the pain, the desperation, it was all for the young boy he held in his arms.
How could that be possible?!
How could...
" Please, Kiya, help him... "
" I will, young Tala " the older boy replied. " I swear Kai will be okay ".
Tala froze.
Kai?
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MasterFranny: that was the end. And this one I'm sure will make you think. Who's Kiya? Okay, little bit I can tell you: he's an OC. Don't leave, please, I swear he will be lovely. Kiya is my own OC, and I created him for my stories on my notebook.
Here, if you care, how he is born.
Kiya was born for a Vampire fic I wrote on my notebook, the first fic I ever wrote, named "Only One Choice" (I am actually rewriting it), to be a Vampire who seduced Kai to the Dark side. Meant to be bad, because I needed one bad chara much younger than Boris (don't count the two hundred years the vampire had on his back... --U). But he was called Elijah instead.
I liked him though he was just a side chara and he got killed on the last chapters, and I decided to use him in other stories.
But Elijah wasn't a Japanese name so it became Kiya. The newly named character was perfect for my other story "Deep Inside Me" to be still a bad character who lusted over Kai (this was a Tala/Kai fic), and at the end fell in love for him, but he was killed too at the end (I nearly cried at that scene, not because I written it but because it was really sad), since it really WAS a Tala/Kai.
Now perplexed due to the sad destiny my OC has gotten into every time, but liking it though, I used Kiya in another story named "The Return of the Snake" in which he was a... mmh... now I remember from which story I pulled out "Breath of Light". But in "TRotS" Kiya was still bad and in the end, guess, he got killed. Okay, I wasn't that good on my way to get rid of bad people, so don't sue me. Sigh... ;;U
Even more perplexed by Kiya's fate, and even more guilty about it (because he was killed in every story and because he was always the unwanted one) I decided to turn him into a good chara for my fic "Angel Of Darkness", in which he gets paired up with Kai totally. Kai/OC Yaoi. I claim the first one, but it's on my notebook --U... and this one was normal! And he didn't get killed or harmed.
Now that Kiya was good and healty, I decided to use him only as a good character, since I was starting to love him.
So "Memory Board" was born. Another Kai/OC Yaoi, in which Kai looses his memory so he joins another team called Sacred Beasts.
This one was the first in a trilogy, sequel was "Phoenix Fire" which was Supernatural and at the end there was "Old Friends" still supernatural, in which I put finally a good ending.
And Kiya became my lovely chara. In "Feeling So Faithless" he was Kai's older brother, in "Ashes" he was his unknown older cousin.
About "Breath of Light", to the ones who read all this stuff and are bored to hell, Kiya will be a side chara, no principal, and he was a good person. Seems like I can't change totally...
