Sweet Nothings
In the Common Room
9:00 pm
It rained today. I was quiet all day. I didn't really talk to anyone. I have nothing else to say.
Oh. I hate Christopher. Just so you know.
Lily
In the Common Room
9:00 pm (two weeks later)
I haven't written in a while. Haven't felt like it. I don't even feel like it now. I didn't realize how much I was living for Christopher until I came back to Hogwarts. I loved being his girlfriend. He would look at me, smile at me, hold my hand, and kiss me on the cheek and the neck, and sometimes a tiny peck on the lips, nothing big. He would do just enough to make me feel good. Just enough.
I hate Christopher.
Lily
In the Common Room
3:00 am
I keep having nightmares of men coming after me. Then suddenly I hear Christopher saying, "It's Okay Lily, just stay right there." in a sly sounding sneer of a voice. Then he grabs me and did what he did in that alley. I always wake up crying. I just wish in the dreams James would come and save me again.
I feel like I'm all alone.
Lily
In Potions
3:30pm
Professor Slughorn was the first teacher to notice that something was wrong. He took me aside before he started class. I told him I was feeling a bit sick but I was well enough to come to class. He gave me a reproachful look and sent me back to my seat.
James kept staring at me with concern on his face. I saw him scribble something on a piece of parchment then he folded it up and sent it at me. I screamed and tried to dodge it. But it still managed to hit me square in the forehead. Everyone but James and me laughed. I was so embarrassed. James looked really sorry. Professor Slughorn gave me the oddest look and continued to teach.
I picked up the note and it read:
Dear Lily Flower
Do you mind that I call you "My Lily Flower" still? I hope not, because that is what you are. You are My Lily Flower, so I hope you don't mind. I was just writing to tell you that I can tell you are very sad, and if you need to talk to someone without telling them what happened I am here.
I Love You.
James
Aww How sweet. But I don't want to talk to anyone I just want to shrivel up and die.
Lily
In The Common Room
9:00pm
I wrote James back. Told him that I thought that was sweet and all but I didn't need to talk to anyone. I wish people would leave me alone. I am fine. Nothing is wrong with me. No one understands.
Lily
In the Girl's Dormitories
2:00 am
I had another nightmare. It was like the others only this time the older boy, the one I saw with him at Diagon Alley, was coming at me with a knife. It was terrifying. I woke up screaming. So now everyone else is back asleep. But I can't. Oh, Diary what do I do?
Lily
In The Great hall
Lunch
Lily
No Lily, I know that something is wrong, you are very sad and you are not being yourself. I saw what happened in that alley and I know you are broken and scarred from it. I love it when you smile and laugh. It is so beautiful. Please talk to someone, even if it isn't me. I want to see you even get angry with me if it means you are yourself again! Please Lily! I am begging you!
I love you
James
He doesn't understand either. I just can't! I am afraid to tell Professor McGonagall, and I am afraid to tell my friends. I am not telling a stupid childish boy how I feel! Especially James Potter.
Lily
In the Common Room
9:00pm
He wrote back again. I am not pasting it in here. It is just about a line so I will write them here on my own.
Or I will get help for you. I love you and that is why I care.
Man he is so sweet. I wish he were doing it under different circumstances.
Lily
In the Girl's Dormitories
7:00 am
I had another nightmare. I am not going to describe it. It was worse than the others. But now I realize how much I do care for James. He went and told Dumbledore. Christopher was expelled from Hogwarts, and all the other magical schools were warned. I am so happy. I won't see him in the halls and get flooding memories. But I still don't want to talk to James. And getting Christopher kicked out won't change the past.
You know James notes are like sweet nothings that a boy whispers in your ear. Sweet little things that make your heart soar and things that make you feel truly in love. I like James, but isn't it early for sweet nothings?
No. It's not.
Lily
