What I've Been Waiting For
In the Common Room
8:00 am
The nightmares have stopped some. They are less often and if I have them, (now I am blushing). James saves me in the end. I am falling in love with dream James. Maybe it is because he is so sweet to me in his Sweet Nothings. I don't know. Christopher got accepted into Durmstrang. I was a bit unhappy for a while, but then I decided that as long as he wasn't around me I was fine for the time being. I just hope that no one befalls his seductive ways.
I have been at Hogwarts now for 3 months, and James hasn't asked me to be his girlfriend once. I guess he's just being sensitive to my feelings. But I guess it made me feel special. I don't know. I sort of miss it.
Lily
In the Common Room
9:00 am
It is a Saturday and I have no homework! So now I am at a loss about what to do. The next Hogsmede weekend is in a month and I don't know if I am even going to go. Maybe I could get a good book to read. I don't know. I hate Christopher. He killed me on the inside.
Lily
In the Girl's Bathroom (second Floor)
9:00 pm
I know I am in here after curfew, but I had to get away. So I am in moaning Myrtle's bathroom. She keeps talking to me. Doesn't she see that I want to be alone? Ghosts are so insensitive. She thinks that I am possessed because I start crying randomly, but it is not my fault! I haven't had a good cry in such a long time! Not since I hid in the barn at Kathleen's ranch after Aubrey left. I have heard it is good to cry to get my feelings out.
The only reason that I even go in the stupid bathroom is because I know no one in their right mind would go in there. But I have decided to talk about James. He is being so, not normal to me. He hasn't even asked me out yet! I miss it! Why wont he? Come on James! What if I actually said yes? It may help me to feel loved by another boy, I don't know. But I wouldn't mind being James's Girlfriend now!
But why James, of all people?
Lily
In The Common Room
9:00 pm
It's seems that I can only write at nine o clock! Look at the entries! Most of them are at nine! Am I really so pathetic? I am too predictable. Oh well. I could care less at the moment. It's almost November. I haven't been inspired to write in a while, so I will catch you up.
Everyone seems to have gotten used to my new closed up self. My more frequent mood swings still annoy my friends, but I can't really help it. There was a seventh year boy who asked me to be his girlfriend, I was so close to just going with it because I want to feel loved, but that wouldn't be true to the poor guy, and I couldn't do that to him. So I explained to him that I would in a heartbeat if I thought that we would go anywhere, and that if there is another dance or banquet I would go as a date with him (if he was the FIRST to ask), but I couldn't commit to a relationship. I wanted to let him down easy. (He was also not so easy to look at, he needs teeth straightened and eyebrows plucked in the least. He could also do with a diet and acne treatment.) So I hope we don't have a dance or banquet any time soon.
James still hasn't even asked me to go with him to Hogsmede! Oh I miss it like crazy! Hurry up James! He still tells me that he thinks I am the most beautiful thing in the world though. I think that asking me out would follow right after that you know?
The only other new thing is that Aubrey is convinced I need new hair again. I do not agree. She is not getting me with her dyes and scissors again! No way! Last time I got a haircut like that, I got Christopher. I am not going to risk it! Okay, I know that my hair was not the reason I got Christopher, but I just would feel awkward.
Lily
In the Common Room
7:00pm
It's been about two weeks, and nothing has happened. Kathleen has decided that she won't make a list she will just see how many guys she can date before she turns 17. She will not give up! Her fascination with boys is kind of disturbing! What if she gets a guy like Christopher? Oh I can't take it! Now every guy I see is a possible rapist! I hate Christopher. It's like a poison that once it reaches one part of you, every part is affected. He got me innocence now my life follows. Oh man. I want to kill him.
James has still not asked me. I miss it so much! I took advantage of his affection. And now that it is gone I don't know what I am going to do!
Lily
In The Girl's Dormitories
5:00 am
I decided that I needed a long relaxing bath so I got up extra early so I could take as long as I wanted. I am waiting for the water to fill the tub now. I have heard about the prefect's bathroom and I wish I could use that one, but this plain bath with one option of bubbles will do.
So James wrote me a letter
My Lily Flower
You still look so sad! I hurts me when you hurt! I was wondering if you would like to go with me to the next Hogsmede outing. We could do some Christmas shopping (less than a month until that blessed Holiday already!) get some butterbeer and do whatever else, as long as a lengthy stop at Zonkos is on the to do list.
Tell me your answer via owl. I just cannot contain my excitement! Answer me quickly! Don't make me wait!
I love you!
James
Just what I have been waiting for! Kill me now, just in case I am never this happy again!
Lily
