Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or it's characters that would be JKR, I am just borrowing them for a while to have my way with them, then return them to JKR in one piece.
Summary: Hermione Granger is on a mission of conquest and her target is one Harry Potter. Just some nice smut for you folks, HP/HG
Wow, I am SO sorry for the delay people! I cannot believe that it has been that long since I updated! Please forgive me!
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"It is a full moon tonight. Professor Lupin must be having fun." Commented Harry when it was obvious that Hermione was not going to answer him.
Hermione heard what Harry was saying and realized that he was trying to defuse the situation and not talk about 'them'.
"Harry, I feel bad about Professor Lupin, but you know what I want to talk about."
"Oh, right. That"
"Oh yes, that."
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And then there was silence. It was painfully obvious that neither one of them knew what to say next. They had not even looked at one another since the other night so having a full conversation seamed impossible. The silence was deafening and so very awkward. After what seamed like an eternity Hermione was the first to speak.
"Well, don't you have anything to say?"
"What do you want from me Mione, you are the one that rushed up here to talk to me, so you talk."
"Honestly Harry that is so childish! It takes two people to have a conversation and I do believe that you are the one that has some explaining to do here, not me."
"I do not want to explain anything Mione, I never should have done what I did last night and I am sorry about that."
"You should not say that you are sorry for it Harry because we both know that you did it for a reason and you are not sorry for it."
"Yes I am sorry, I never should have let my feelings control me like that. I got carried away and I let things get too personal."
"Too personal? How do things get too personal? Nothing is too personal Harry, it is just called living. When you interact with people you get involved with them and their lives, even before last night we were personal with one another"
"You know what I meant."
"No I don't. I have no idea what you mean. You say that you let your emotions get the better of you last night? Well that is called being human Harry, we are all driven by our emotions. You cannot close yourself off Harry."
"Hermione, stop with the lecturing already."
"I will not, especially when you are acting like a little boy."
"I am not acting like a little boy, I am acting like a person that does not want to talk to you."
With that said, Harry got up and walked over to the edge of the tower and looked down at the castle grounds. The full moon was illuminating the land and he could clearly see Hagrid digging in his garden. Harry guessed he was digging up slugs for Professor Sprots Herbology class in the morning. Harry was trying to make it clear that his conversation with Hermione was over, but he evidently was not doing a good job of that. He heard her sigh and stand up and could feel her eyes watching him as she walked over to him and joined him on the ledge.
Hermione had no idea what was going on. It was remarkably obvious that Harry was trying to push her away by saying mean things to her but she had no idea why. Normally Hermione would have given up here and let Harry have his space, but things were now different. She loved him and she knew that he loved her. If she gave him space right now, she just might loose him forever and that was not going to happen. She decided to get past all of his rude behavior and push him some more. When ever things got too heated, Harry would back off and not let his true emotions show. Maybe if she just pushed him hard enough, he would finally push back and show his emotions. With a sigh she stood up and looked at Harry. He was looking down over the grounds and was obviously trying to ignore her. He was doing a bad job of it. She saw him react as she walked over to him and stood next to him looking at Hagrid digging. His posture had stiffened and he made no attempt to acknowledge her presence even though it was obvious that he knew she was there. She took a deep breath and realized that this maybe the end of them all together. If she pushed too hard he may snap and that would ruin not only their relationship but also their friendship. She had to be very careful about how she proceeded. She had to get him mad enough to show his real feelings, but not too mad so that he would get furious. Taking another deep breath she decided to venture out into unknown territory: Harry's feelings.
"Harry, look I know that you do not want to talk to me but I need to talk to you. Even if you do not want to get into a relationship with me, you are still my friend and as a friend, you owe me some answers."
"I know I do Hermione but I do not think that I can answer them. I have no idea where to start."
"Neither do I Harry, this is unfamiliar topic for me too. So with you permission lets start off slow."
"Okay."
"Alright. Well lets start about what happen just a moment ago. Why did you say those things to me."
"I do not know Hermione."
"Harry, in order for us to move forward you have to actually answer some questions. Open up Harry, it is just me here, no one else is going to hear you."
"I am sorry Hermione, I am not used to showing any deep emotions. At the Dursely's I would get punished if I allowed myself to get wrapped up in my feelings. I suppose I just learned to shut myself off form the world. A defensive mechanism I suppose."
"Well, you have just taken the first step of progress. You have realized that you have a problem and you have admitted it to someone. That is very important Harry."
"Are you sure that you want to get into this with me? I am an emotionally cut off person, I do not know if I can do this."
"Yes you can Harry. You just have to open up and stop being so defensive. So, back to my first question, why did you say those things to me?"
"I guess I was trying to push you away."
"Why would you do that?"
"Well look at my life Hermione, I ave never had anyone to comfort me. No one has ever cared about my feelings like you do and I guess..."
Harry's voice became softer and softer as he spoke and Hermione could not hear his last few words.
"Harry, you have to speak louder."
"I said that I guess I got scared."
"Scared, scared of what?"
"You, everything."
"Of me? Why in the world would you be scared of me?"
"I do not know. I am not scared of you I suppose but I am scared of us."
"Okay, you are not making my sense here."
"I am not scared of you as a person Mione but I am scared of us, us being in a relationship. I cannot get involved with someone, especially not you and I just want to forget it ever happened."
"What? Well thanks for making me feel like nothing! I know that you will not forget it happened and neither will I! It was spectacular, I have never felt like that before."
"Well I cannot that again okay! We just cannot go there again."
"Why, do you think that it will end poorly?"
"Yes."
"What, how can you say that? Do you not think that I love you, do you not love me? I cannot believe that you could think such a thing! Have some faith Harry!"
And they were back to yelling at one another.
"Faith? You want me to have faith? How can I have faith Hermione? Name one moment in my life that has worked out! My parents were marked for death because of me. I was a burden on my Aunt and Uncle and they let that be known every day of my life. I have been hunted by a madman for the past seven years and I am forced to watch the world around me crumble because I cannot do what I have to do. I was fated for this life before I was even born. I have the whole world on my shoulders and I have to be strong for everyone. I am everyones last hope and I have no idea what I am doing! So tell me Hermione how am I supposed to show my faith, my feelings, when everyone around me is looking to me for answers and hope? I have to be strong for everyone else! I cannot show weakness!"
Hermione had no idea what to say, She was speechless. Harry had actually opened up to her and poured out his emotions, but this was not the professing of love that she was hoping for. This was Harry sharing his life story. A story of reject and fear. He basically told her that he had never been loved or nurtured before. She knew his home life with the Dursley's was terrible but she never really thought about the full impact that would have on a small child. He had never been loved before, he had no idea what that looked like so of course he did not have faith because he had grown up with people who hated him. Then he was thrust into a world where everyone depended on him. He went from being a boy shoved in a cupboard to a boy shoved up onto a pedestal. He went from one extreme from another but in both cases, no one really cared about him. Everyone that should have loved him had left or betrayed him.
She looked over at him and saw him starring out into nothingness and he was trembling. Without giving it a second thought, she reached over and pulled him into a hug. He dropped his head onto her shoulder and wrapped his arms around her tightly like she was going to disappear.
"Hermione, I am sorry. I am sorry that I hurt you but do you see why? If I let you get too close I am going to lose you and I would rather have you as a friend than nothing at all."
"I would never leave you Harry."
"Well that is the pattern of my life, those people that love me are killed and everyone else just hates me."
"Is that why you pushed me away and said that we would never work as a couple, because you think that I am going to be killed?"
"Yes."
"Oh Harry."
Hermione hugged him tighter and began to cry. She wept for this man that she held who had grown up without love and she wept for the unjust situation that was plunged upon him.
"Harry, I realize what you your track record is with people that love you. You have suffered so much in you short life but you cannot shut yourself off. These thoughts that you are having, these feelings that you have having make you human. They make you who you are. You have to express yourself or else you will loose everything in your life. If you do not speak up about those things that you care about, they are going to disappear."
"No Hermione, if I do tell them that I care about them they will disappear."
"What do you mean?"
With a sigh Harry released Hermione and took a step back. When Hermione looked into his eyes she was shocked at how much emotion was there. His eyes were darker than she had ever seen them and they were wet with tears.
"If I let it be known to the world what my weaknesses are, they will be used against me by Voldemort. If he knew how much I cared about you, he would use that to his advantage and probably kill you. So you see, you are safer if we do not get involved. If we did, you would end up being killed."
"Harry you cannot think like that, you do not know what the future holds, no one can predict what will happen."
"Why not, Trelawney did when she had her premonition."
"Honestly, that was a once in a life time event Harry."
"She has made two predictions that have come true."
"Okay, okay. So she can predict the future once in a great while, not all the time I remind you, but you cannot. There have been no predictions about my fate or our fate as a couple. You cannot live your life in fear of what may happen because anything can happen. I could die tomorrow from bad food or I may die in a hundred years, noone knows."
"That is funny, Ron said about the same thing to me this morning before breakfast."
"Did he?"
"Yeah, he said that noone knew when anyone would die. He said that Malfoy may die toady from a hex or next week from a hex."
"Ha, that is Ron for you."
"Yeah."
They then fell silent, just looking at one another. They stayed that way for a few moments and Harry was the first to break the silence this time.
"Are you sure that you want to do this with me Hermione. It is not always going to be easy, in fact it may get down right impossible."
"Harry I am used to impossible missions."
Harry gave her a puzzled look.
"Well getting to you express your feeling was no easy task mister. You were insulting me left and right and you were pushing me away at every available moment."
"But you never left me."
"No I didn't."
"Why not? Most people would have."
"Well I am not most people Harry. I did not leave you because I love you more than anything. Every moment, of every day I think about you, hell I even dream about you. Stop smirking, it was not like that! But I am being serious Harry, I love you and I need you. Please do not push me away again."
"I am so sorry Hermione, I never wanted to hurt you I was just trying to keep you safe. I do not want you in danger. I wanted you to have a full life and I just did not think that you could have that with me."
"Harry, I could not have a full life unless you were with me."
"I cannot believe that you have such faith in me, I mean the real me, not the one that gets paraded around on the cover of the Daily Profit ."
"Well you have shown me that you are more than that man. You have quirks, weird habits, fears, and problems. Thank you for opening up to me Harry, thank you for trusting me."
"No, thank you Hermione. Thank you for pushing me into admitting how I feel about you."
Harry took a step closer to Hermione so that their bodies were almost touching. He raised his hands and cradled her cheeks brushing away her drying tears. Hermione sighed, closed her eyes and reached up to grab his forearms. When she opened up her eyes she gazed up into his. There was that look again, that look that she now knew was love. Harry had to suppress a gasp when he saw her eyes. He was shocked to see love radiating out of her eyes and that it was directed at him. He had seen peoples loving looks to one another before, but this look had never been aimed at him. The silence was broken with a tentative whisper.
"How do you feel about me Harry?"
"I love you Hermione and I have for the longest time."
"Oh Harry, I love you too."
With that said, he tilted her head up towards his and he bent down. When their lips met they could both feel the magic radiating off of one another. The magic flowed through them both and surrounded them in a sphere of yellow light but neither one noticed as their kiss deepened.
Harry ran his tongue across Hermione's lips and she gladly allowed him entrance. She sighed as he ran one of his hands down her back and the other one tangled in her hair gently pulling her closer. Because there was such a height difference between the two, she stood on her tip toes and threw her arms over his shoulders to get better leverage. Harry faintly realized what she was doing and his impulse was to lift her up higher but he did not think about the position that it would put them in. He moved his hands down her back and rested on her butt and he gently picked her up. Hermione was not thinking about what she was doing either and just acted on impulse as well. When Harry picked her up she swung her legs up and wrapped them around his waist and ground into him. Harry groaned at the contact and pulled her body closer with the hands that were still resting on her butt. This action caused Hermione to gasp in pleasure and deepen their kiss. She tangled her hands in his hair and tightened her legs around Harry.
Their kiss was intense and very passionate with both people fighting for dominance. This was not like their first kiss that was sweeter. This kiss was passionate, aggressive and full of love and lust. It was two people finally coming together and expressing their repressed love for one another. As their kiss grew more passionate, the ball of magic and light that surrounded them grew and yet they still did not notice.
When they finally broke apart some time later, they were both breathless. Harry rested his forehead against Hermione's and looked at her eyes waiting for her to open them. When Hermione finally opened her eyes and looked at Harry she noticed that they were once again filled with unfallen tears. Concerned, she put her hand on his check.
"Harry, what is the matter?"
"Nothing is. For the first time everything is okay. For the first time I am happy. For the first time I am loved and for the first time I love someone. I love you Hermione and I never want to be with out you."
"Harry, you will never have to be alone again, I will always be there, right beside you. I love you Harry."
This declaration of love caused Harry to finally shed those tears that had never fallen before. Hermione smiled and gently wiped away his tears.
"I love you too Hermione."
And Harry pulled her tighter in his arms and hugged her.
At that moment, the magical field that surrounded them exploded outward. The yellow light engulfed them and blasted its way through the night, lighting up everything in its path. The magical light burst in all directions for dozens of feet. It looked like a great ball of yellow energy surrounding the top of the Astronomy Tower.
As fast as the light had exploded, it was gone leaving no traces that it was ever there. The couple, who never noticed the pulsating light finally parted. Harry gently lowered Hermione and took her hand. They picked up the map and the cloak and made their way down the tower steps and headed back to their dormitories. They gave each other several kisses good night and as they laid in their own beds that night they were comforted in the fact that no matter what happened next, they would always have one another.
The happy couple had no idea that they had created a glowing sphere of pulsating magic. They had no idea of the long term consequences of their actions that night. The glowing ball of light was a sign, a sign of things to come. Some could perceive this as a bad omen, some could perceive it as a good omen.
Since the couple was at the very top of the tower and they were all alone, noone could have noticed this radiating light. Well, almost noone.
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Well, it is that time again. All of the people that I love...
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Well Ladies and Gentleman, here is chapter 4, I hope that you all enjoyed it. I just wanted to prepare you that the next chapter may be the last chapter. Actually this chapter was supposed to be the last, but I kept of thinking of more things to do, so there will be at least one more chapter coming soon, and I promise I will not doddle around this time!
