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Chapter 11 – A Better Version
"What do you want me to say? What do you want!"
"You." He said as he lowered his head and gave her a kiss. He wanted to show her much he wanted her, how much he needed her. The last thing on Hermione's mind was pushing him away. She put one hand through his hair and the other on his waist pulling him closer to her.
Severus leaned both hands on either side of her head. He had no idea why she was kissing him back. He would've thought she would have pushed him away once his lips touched hers. But here she was kissing him. He decided he would no longer think about it, and for once live in the moment. He wrapped his arms around her waist pulling her closer to him. She moaned softly as she got lost in him. The kiss got deeper and more fervent.
Hermione brought her other hand to his waist and began pulling his tee shirt and wife beater off. Severus broke the kiss and watched her as she eagerly pulled off his shirt. He smiled to himself when she finally got it off. He kissed her again, now his hands working off the buttons of her shirt. When he got it off her threw it aside and picked her up by her butt while she threw her legs around him.
He walked them to the bed while Hermione assaulted his neck. He laid her gently on the bed and he slowly made his way on top of her. He again kissed her on the lips and began to slowly make his way down. As he sucked and teased her neck making sure to leave mark later, he teased her breast with his hands.
Hermione tried unsuccessfully to suppress a moan. She couldn't believe how much she wanted this man. She could feel his hardness against her thigh. Caught up in the moment they barely heard Minerva's voice.
"Severus, are you still in bed?" She asked walking towards his quarters. Hermione broke the kiss.
"Severus?" Minerva said again.
Hermione wrenched herself out of under him and looked for her shirt. Severus followed her lead annoyed. He was disappointed that Minerva interrupted, but he didn't care if she knew. Hermione found her shirt and was fastening the last button.
"Severus?" Minerva knocked once and walked in. She froze at the door regarding them both. She could tell by their expressions and the disheveled appearances what they were doing.
"I'm sorry to interrupt." Minerva said trying to hide a smile about to walk out the door.
"Oh, you weren't interrupting anything. I just came up to check on Severus. But now that I see that he's doing well I'm leaving." Hermione said walking to the door.
"Hermione." Severus called.
"Yes, I will hopefully be seeing you well and rested at dinner." She said leaving. Severus sighed. She was probably sorry for what they just did. He didn't understand, it felt like she wanted him as much as he wanted her. He sat down at the edge of his bed and put his head in his hands.
"Why do I get the feeling that despite what Hermione said that I indeed interrupted something?" She asked.
"That is because you did." He said sliding his hands down his face.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know there was anything going on between you two." She said.
"There isn't." He said softly. She looked at him confused.
"I don't understand. I swear when I walked in here that you two were-. I'm losing my touch." She said seating herself in a chair next to him.
"You're not losing your touch; we were in the middle of something. She's just confused."
"About what?"
"I don't know." He said.
"Well it looks like you're feeling a lot better." She said.
"I'd advise you to go and find her, and clear up her confusion since it seems you are feeling better." She said standing up and walking towards the door. "And do make sure she takes the fever serum. Don't want her getting sick." She said walking out the door.
Severus didn't need to be told twice; he quickly got dressed and headed to her quarters. Only she wasn't there. Neither was she in her office, classroom, or apparently in the castle. He searched every nook and cranny of and he still could not find her. He decided to wait till dinner, but she wasn't there either. He decided to go to her quarters and wait for her there. On the way he literally bumped into Draco.
"In a hurry?" He asked. "Yes, actually I am." Severus said a little irritated. "Where are you off to?"
"To find Hermione. Have you seen her?" He asked.
"Yes, she was with Ginny, they're due back soon. I think they went into Hogsmeade. Did you guys have a lover's spat?" He asked jokingly.
"Something like that." He said taut.
"Here, why don't you tell me your situation? If there's anything I know better than Ancient Runes, its woman. And Ginny's best friends with Hermione, so I can help you out….As best as I can of course, you are Snape, and we are talking about the gorgeous Granger. Don't tell her I told you that though." He said.
Snape scowled. He didn't go around talking about his personal business to anyone. But when it came to Hermione, he needed all the help he could possibly get. He agreed and they headed down to the kitchen.
After Severus told him the situation he sat and waited for Draco's response. Draco ran his hand threw his hair and sighed. "It seems to me like she's attracted to you alright. She likes you a lot, but something's holding her back." He paused.
"It's a tricky thing when you fall in love with a woman who thought she already had her Prince Charming like Hermione and Ginny. It's something you have to be aware of. You might have to wait for her to be okay with the idea of being with someone else other then Ron. Just give her time. I'm sure she's not okay with the idea with opening herself up to someone who can possibly leave and hurt her like Ron did." He said.
Severus hadn't thought of this. Draco was right. She probably just needed some time to sort things out. And if that's what she needed, that's exactly what he was going to give her. He stood, "Thanks you for the talk." He said walking away.
Draco headed back to his quarters feeling good about himself. 'My good deed for the month, I hope it cancels out knicking Montague's PSP the other day in Hogsmeade, muggles can do good things when they put their small brains to work. If only I could enchant it to work in Hogwarts. He'd have to ask Hermione about that later.' He thought walking through his quarters. In his bedroom he heard voices. He went to his bedroom door and listened in.
"I don't know Gin, I'm just confused I guess." She said.
"Is it about Ron?" She asked.
"I don't know, it could be." She said.
"Didn't you have some trouble being with Draco after Harry died. I don't want to think of Severus as a second choice because Ron isn't here. If that's the case then I need him to be with someone who thinks of him as a first choice." Hermione added.
Draco scowled behind the door. He held his breath for Ginny's response. "Hermione, Draco was never my second choice. I loved Harry very much. But Draco, Draco's my soul mate. He's the one I'm suppose to spend the rest of my life with, have kids with, die with. Harry could've never been my Draco." She paused. "Hermione, maybe you were supposed to be with Ron as a teenage, so you know what love feels like, but as a woman, maybe you need to be loved by Severus because he's the one who can." She said.
"I'm going to sleep on it and talk to you lat-."
"Hermione, can you please leave so I can a have a word with my wife?" Draco asked after he walked into the room silently. Hermione stood there for a minute in surprise. "Now!" He shouted as she jetted out of there. Ginny rose a brow. Draco headed for her, wrapped her arms around her and kissed her hard. After a few minutes Ginny pushed him away a bit.
"You were listening to us weren't you?" She asked still in his tight embrace. "And what if I was?" He asked.
"Draco, I've always told you that you were my number one." She said a little upset.
"Yeah, I know. I'm sorry it took m this long to believe you. But I'll make I up to you, I promise. Starting now." He said as she giggled.
Over the next four days Severus barley saw Hermione at all. He actually wasn't sure he even saw her, just glimpses of her in the distance, which he could easily pass off as his imagination. He missed her terribly; there was an ache in his chest that just wouldn't subside. He knew he need to give her space, but did that mean not seeing her at all? Over the past four days without her, he became more callous and rude then ever. After he took eighty points from his own house
Severus headed toward his quarters. He hated himself when he was like this. By nature, he wasn't a nice person by no means, but he was the worst version of himself without her. But with her, he seemed to change into a better version of himself. Was this what it was going to be like when he left Hogwarts? He most likely wouldn't see her daily. And without her, he was becoming more and more like the evil deatheater everyone thought him to be.
Did he care what everyone thought? No, the only person whose opinion was of any consequence to him was Hermione. And if she wasn't going to be around any longer then how he acted carried no weight. It would be better if he'd just stop being friends with Hermione completely after he retired. To see her once in a while and not be able to hold her or touch her in the manner he wanted was a sick sordid torture he wanted no part of. He went into his quarters with every intention of taking a shower and heading to bed. But as he walked in he froze at the sight of Hermione standing there. She looked nervous, and anxious and somewhat vulnerable.
"I'm going to stop you right now from saying some smart remark about my employment of doors or manners. Give me your wand." She said. He rose a brow amused. "Excuse me?"
"We're going to play a game of Twenty Questions, so we're going to have to switch wands." She said taking out her wand. Severus's brow rose further. They haven't seen each other in days after almost making love on his bed and when they finally do meet she wants to play a game? "Hermion-."
"Give me your bloody wand Severus!" She said in a voice that left no room for argument. He did as he was told and took her wand, they tapped them together. "Now ask me who took me to the Yule Ball in my fifth year of Hogwarts, you know just to make sure it's working." She said. Utterly confused Severus rolled his eyes, but played along hoping they'd end up in his bedroom after and asked,
"Who took you to the Yule Ball in your fifth year at Hogwarts, Hermione?"
"Harry Potter." She was then shocked. "Bugger! Okay, now we know it's working, ask me what my favorite color is, it's changed." Still at a loss, he asked.
"What is your favorite color?"
"Burnt brown, the same color as your eyes. They're not black like I had originally thought, and when your gone, I find myself missing them immensely." She said taking a step forward. He stood with his mouth slightly agape in shock.
"Now ask me what my favorite sound is." She said. He had to swallow hard for lack of moisture in his throat.
"What is your favorite sound?" He asked.
"The sound of your whispering in my ear. Now ask me my favorite part of the day." She said taking another step towards him.
"What is the favorite part of your day?" He asked with effort. "When I'm laying in your lap while you're reading to me." She replied.
"Now ask me wh-who I miss the moment they walk away from me." She said glassy eyed. "Who do you miss the moment they walk away?"
"You, Severus." She said taking another step. "Ask me who my Lancelot is."
"Who is your Lancelot, Hermione?" He said huskily as she was close enough to kiss.
"You again, Severus." She said as a tear fell down her eye. He quickly cupped her check and whipped it away with his thumb.
"Now, Severus, ask me the question you wanted to know." She said.
"Why did you kiss me?" He whispered. "Because I want and need you, Severus." She said tears steadily falling. "I love you."
It was then he realized he had changed, and he was never going to go back. For the man he was could never have her love, and that was reason enough to not to go back. He didn't actually believe that she loved him, for there are many things she does not know. But he decided that he loved the fact that she thought he did. He gathered her to him and kissed her hard and passionately. After a few minutes he pulled away, both breathing heavily.
"And I you, Hermione." He said. She kissed him, a little more gently but with just as much passion, but as the kiss continued it became more frantic as both tongues fought for dominance. Severus began slowly walking them towards his room careful not to bump into anything.
He started to pull her fitted shirt over her head and discarded it on the floor, he went on to her bra and unfastened it, and moved to her snug jeans and panties, all the while making sure to keep eye contact with her. He wanted to see if she wanted him to do this, if she wanted him as bad as he did her. She stopped breathing as he stared at her. She was never the one to care about her body, but under Severus' gaze she felt extremely self conscience.
He was just staring at her nude form. She suddenly felt that she couldn't take anymore and folded her arms trying to cover her breast turning her gaze away from Severus. "No!" He said putting her hands to her side.. "You're beautiful, Hermione." He said as she smiled. "Now let's see that bloody brilliant body you hide so well." She said kissing him running her hands down his chest trying to unbutton his shirt.
She pulled back from his kissed and tried to concentrate on undoing the buttons. "Stupid bloody buttons." She said as Severus laughed. He pushed her hands away, and ripped his shirt open. She pulled it off and threw it on the floor finally realizing that they were in his room. She kissed him again while undoing his pants so he wouldn't see her blush. She dropped his pants to the floor. Severus' lips parted from her.
"Take off the boxers too." He whispered huskily. She blushed furiously, but she brought them down. He stepped out of them and laid her on his bed. He kissed her hard while rubbing her inner thigh. She moaned, his touch was driving her crazy. He broke from her lips and started kissing her neck down to her chest. He unfastened her bra and began assaulting her breast, teasing them with his hands and mouth.
After showing his appreciation to both her breast he started kissing her down her stomach. Hermione's body began to lightly shake as he continued. He stopped when he got to her inner thigh. He messaged her with his hand as he worked his way to her beautiful folds. He entered her with a finger at first and then gradually added another one pumping it inside of her.
She moaned and started grinding herself against his fingers. Her breathing became abrasive. "Oh, Severus." She said softly. He suddenly stopped. Hermione looked at him confused and upset he stopped. He realized that he wanted to be inside her when she did come. He made his way over to her and kissed her fiercely as he rubbed the length of him against her folds. He looked at her.
She had her eyes closed and her hands were on his hips. She looked beautiful under him, but he wanted to make sure she wanted to be there. "Hermione, look at me." He said. She opened her eyes and stared back at him. "Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked. She kissed him hard, "yes." She said into his lips. He pulled away. "Keep your eyes on me." He instructed as she merely nodded.
He slowly pushed his length into her, when he was in he paused giving her body time to adjust. After a minute he slowly pulled out and plunged deeper inside her he continued this at a steady pace continually going faster and faster all the while Hermione began to move her body according to his lead as if dancing. He swept down and kissed her trying not to moan. "You're so fucking tight." He whispered his thought out loud without realizing it. He kissed her hard plunging his tongue just as he plunged his length into her. His hands grasped and messaged her breast.
He pulled out almost to the tip and then plunged in deep, and hard. Hermione screamed in ecstasy. "Severus." She whispered closing her eyes. "Hermione." He whispered. "Open your eyes." He managed to get out slowly. She opened them slowly as her hands slid down to grab his ass. "Oh Merlin, Severus!" She said in a high pitched voice she didn't care to recognize as her own. Not too soon later she came and a little after, so did Severus. He held her close to him a few minutes afterwards. He then moved so that she was on top of him, and they slept away their exhaustion.
Severus was awakened by the sun in his face. This had never happened to him before, he looked at his clock, it was ten to ten. For the first time in a long time he actually slept the whole night. He grinned and looked down at the beautiful little witch laying on his chest. She was even looked stunning when she was sleeping. He couldn't imagine what he must look like. A thought then came to him. 'What if Hermione regretted what they had just done? What if she woke up disgusted with what just happened?' He felt sick.
This had happened to him on more then one occasion. But this time with Hermione it was different. He decided to leave before she awoke. He slowly tried to slide out of the bed without waking her. He then felt her grab him by his waist.
"Where are you going?" She asked sleepily.
"I'm just going to the bathroom." He said stunned and relieved.
"What time is it?" She asked sitting up with the sheets around her chest. "Ten to ten." He said sitting next to her.
"That late? Thank Merlin it's Saturday, I couldn't imagine teaching today." She said rubbing the sleep out of her eyes. She turned to him and crawled on top of him forcing him to lay down.
"You know we can stay in bed all day?" She smiled. He grinned.
"Yes, this I do know that. But what would poor Abby think?" He said. "Sod Abby, I could care less." She smiled.
"My dear Hermione, I do think I have rubbed off on you."
"If only you would rub up on me now.." She said feeling his slight arousal against her leg.
"That tongue of yours is going to get you in trouble."
"I'm hoping." She said kissing him. She found a scar on his shoulder and kissed it sucking it a little in the process. "How did you get that scar?" She asked. "Um, my dad hit me with a bottle when I was younger after he came home drunk." He whispered. She kissed it again. She found another one under his nipple.
"And this one?" She asked. "I got hurt during a raid, a muggle fought back and stabbed me with a knife." She kissed it twice again sucking it in the process. "And this one?" She asked pointing to one below his belly button. "I upset Narcissa one night after a death eater meeting." He said. She kissed it three times. "What about this one?" She asked rubbing her hand against another scar dangerously close to his erected length. "Another one due to Narcissa." He said with much effort.
She kissed it four times and started a trail up his inner thigh up the length of him to the tip of his head. Hermione had never gone down on anyone in her life. She always thought of it as something she never wanted to do. But at this moment she wanted to very badly.
She put her hands around the base and started licking the head and its ridge. He entangled his hand in her hair and gasped. She enclosed his penis in her mouth and began sucking it. After hitting a few spot that made Severus' grip tighter he came. After another performance of last night, they showered and headed to lunch.
"Hermione, just give it up, I'm not holding your hand. What would everyone think?"
"That we're together, that you're mine. What's so wrong with that?" She asked. He sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose.
"We are not discussing this in the hallway. We are not holding hands, end of conversation." He said. She looked at him incredulously. Then she put on a smile. "Fine, Snape, whatever you want." She said as they continued walking.
"I know that look Hermione. Don't even think about doing anything crazy." He warned.
"Crazy? I'm not thinking about doing anything, Snape." She smiled.
"Seriously, Hermione."
"Okay," she answered wearily. They walked side by side into the Great Hall and sat down next to each other. Nothing out of the ordinary, they talked and ate as usual. Lunch ended and most of the people stayed to chat.
Hermione stood to make her leave and Severus stood also, she was counting on this. She knew he would, he was a gentleman that way, he stood when any of the female professors stood at a table. She smirked, leaned towards and whispered in his ear,
"I'm going to Scrivenshaft's Quill Shop, I need some quills." Instead of pulling away she kissed him on the lips, smacked his ass and then walked away smiling. It seemed that all eyes were on him, the staff and students just sat there staring with mouths agape at what had just taken place.
a/n – So sorry I took so long to update, but I was having a really hard time writing the sex scenes. I know they probably suck, but this is my first fic, so I'm learning, so go easy on me (but not too easy). Sorry for the typos, I'm trying my best, if I have time I'm going to go back and fix them. Review, and tell me what you thought. Thanks to everyone who reviewed.
