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Chapter 6

Grissom had a terrible feeling in his stomach. With words like "what is best" and "hope you understand" coming from Sara, he knew there was something gravely wrong. Sara had for the most part been honest with him and he realized she was about to be conclusively honest.

Sara began to speak, "Grissom, I know it was a shock for you to see me, and then be told you have a son. But I don't think that has devastated you too much. I know how much you have wanted a son, and I believe you may even be happy at this moment."

"Well, yes, yes I am, and he seems like a fine boy thanks to you…. and Jim." Grissom replied.

"Griss", Sara said, "I have over 10,000 acres of farm land here that I have tended to. I've started a good business and I've worked hard to make this place a home. I own all of this land and I wanted to give Jared a solid place to live."

"It is a great place", Grissom commented.

"Yes it is, and I want it to remain." Sara said with emphasis.

She turned to Brass and with and gestured with her eyes she needed help to stand. Brass stepped over to the chair and took her hand to help. "Grissom, there's just one problem." She said.

"You're scaring me Sara, what's wrong?" Grissom said firmly.

Sara gazed into the fire, "I'm dying, Grissom…I…"

"What? When did you find this out" Grissom said, jumping to his feet.

Brass stepped toward his friend in attempts to calm him down, "just take it easy Gil" Brass said.

"I've only known it for about 6 months, and the doctor said I had about a year back then."

"Why the hell did you wait until now to tell me?" Grissom said. His heart began to pound and he felt like he was losing control of himself.

Sara moved to the rocking chair to sit. Grissom saw that the stress of the conversation was taking a lot out of her so he made himself sit back down.

" I asked Brass to bring you here so I could explain what was going on. That I couldn't take care of Jared much longer, my health won't let me. Brass wanted to take the boy with him and raise him. I wouldn't allow it. I felt that you had the right to be with your son and raise him as you saw fit, if I wasn't going to be here to do it." Sara said.

"Does Jared know?" Grissom inquired.

"Yes Jared knows what the doctor said, but he thinks I will live forever. I believe he is starting to realize that something is going to happen because you are here. He's a smart boy Griss, he probably has this whole thing figured out." Sara said.

"I wish I did." Grissom said, taking a drink.

Sara paused for a moment collecting her thoughts. "I want you to come here and live with us, I want you to get to know your son. I need someone to continue with this farm and keep Jared's life on the right track. I know I am asking a lot from you and I couldn't blame you if you said no. You have a life, you…"

"I HAD a life until you left me, then you took that away!" Grissom said sternly as he rose to his feet again.

Brass walked across the room to Grissom and laid his hand on his shoulder. "Just calm down Gil, we're not here to hash out the past."

Grissom pushed his hand away, "Then what the hell ARE we doing here!" He said.

Sara stood up, raising her voice, "We're here because there's nobody else for us, I mean, you love me and I love you, and you can't change that Grissom. You can get mad because of what I did to you and you can hold the past against me, but you can NEVER stop loving me, and I can't stop loving you. What counts is what we do from here on out!"

They both stood silently looking at each other. "I'm sorry." Grissom said with tears in his eyes. "I'm sorry for yelling. I guess I'm surprised and confused. What you're telling me is that I just found you and now I'm going to lose you again, I don't want that."

Grissom walked up to her and put his hands on each side of her face. "I do love you, and I always have loved you. This just scares me and I guess I got frustrated because I don't want to lose you."