So I'm in a mood which is the only explanation I have for writing this. I'm warning you right now that this is sad and there is no happy ending. Did I debate having a happy one where someone like Seb or Sam or Adam come and rescue Kurt? Yes I did but I decided against it because that's just so predictable for me and we know that not every story has a happy ending. So once again I'm warning you that THIS IS NOT A HAPPY STORY and THERE WILL NOT BE A HAPPY ENDING! So I don't want any hate, I mean you can complain if you want to but no hating or fighting with me. Also this is not friendly to Blaine, the glee club or Burt as you can see in the tags but I feel like I should say it anyway. It's really only friendly to Kurt, Sam and Finn because I feel like Sam and Finn would be the only nice ones in this situation. But I promise that after I'm done with this that I will write some happy, fluffy stuff for you guys that like fluff but this is for my friends that like angst like me! And I'll eventually get around to updating my other two fics that are currently in progress, sometime
I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love
I loved the most
"Kurt Hummel, my wonderful friend, will you marry me?"
"No," That's what Kurt wanted to say. "No, I will not marry you, no I will not marry someone that I just got back together with, no I will not marry you when you cheated on me when I was only gone for two weeks, I won't do it,"
"Yes," Is what came out instead.
Of course Blaine proposed in front of all their friends, family and teachers, of course Blaine was so sneaky and manipulative that he proposed in front of everyone because he knew that Kurt would say yes because he wouldn't want to seem like a jerk. But as soon as that one little word, that could change his life for the worst, slipped out of his mouth he knew there was no turning back.
The room broke out into applause, cheering and whistling while Blaine brought him in close and kissed him, slipping the engagement ring onto his finger. Only Kurt didn't see that ring as a symbol of engagement, a symbol of love. No, it was a symbol of ownership and property. He knew that if he married Blaine then he would forever be known as Blaine's husband, his trophy and that people would never get to know him for him. Blaine would graduate high school and then he would move to New York and would go to NYADA and he would hold Kurt back. He would make sure that he was the star just like he had been at Dalton and McKinley and Kurt would never get a chance. Blaine would go onto Broadway and would win awards while he sat in the background and supported him. He had no future with Blaine.
Everyone in the building thought that his tears were brought on by joy and happiness but they were actually tears of sadness, dread and fear. He felt like he was going to throw up or faint and fall down the stairs. He was shaking, not from excitement like everyone else thought he was, but because he had just been manipulated once again into giving Blaine what he wanted.
He was sad and scared and angry and he wanted to go back in time. So he could say no and then he could go back to New York like he had planned to. When his dad was driving him he said to himself that he was going to say no, why didn't he say no?
But he didn't have a time machine so he could erase his mistake so he wanted to scream. He wanted to yell at everyone to shut up and to stop cheering for them. He wanted to turn to Blaine and he wanted to tell him that he was not going to marry him and he wanted to throw the ring at him before running away and getting back on with his life.
He didn't have time to get married, he had a job and had NYADA, he had just gotten out of high school for god's sake. And Blaine was still in high school. How could they be engaged while he was in New York and Blaine was still in Lima when they couldn't even stay boyfriends like that without Blaine cheating on him? He had read somewhere that almost all cheaters cheat more than once and he was 99% sure that Blaine was one of those cheaters.
He wouldn't be able to take it if Blaine cheated on him again. Not because he loved him because at this point there was no love left in his heart for Blaine but because that would just confirm his suspicions that there would always be someone out there that was better than him, that Blaine preferred more. It wasn't like he cared that Blaine liked someone more than him, it was just in general. He knew that there would always be someone out there that was above him but he just didn't like being reminded of that, it destroyed his confidence.
He had to get out of this, he couldn't have his heart broken again, especially because of someone that he didn't even love.
The hallway started to clear as Vocal Adrenaline, the deaf school choir and the Warblers started leaving the building, leaving the glee club, Santana, Rachel, Mercedes, Mr. Schue and his dad. And of course Blaine. He made his way down the stairs where he was greeted with hugs and more cheers. Blaine stood on the bottom step, beaming like he had just won a prize. And he had just won a prize, he had won Kurt and that's all he viewed him as, something to be won.
He felt like he was suffocating as everyone crowded around him and congratulated him.
"Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god," Rachel yelled, jumping up and down. "Kurt, I'm so happy for you, you guys are high school sweethearts. You're so lucky to have Blaine,"
"Congratulations honey," Mercedes told him, taking his hands. "I'm gonna look fabulous in a bridesmaids gown,"
"Kurt, this is so good for you," Tina said. "You and Blaine were meant for each other,"
"Soulmates," Artie added.
"Umm...thanks?" Kurt shrugged, trying to keep the smile on his face. He hadn't meant for it to come out sounding like a question, he was trying to act happy but it was so hard when he felt so miserable inside.
"And let's give it up for Blaine," Sam shouted, turning the attention away from Kurt and onto Blaine. Kurt looked over to Sam and saw him give him a little smile before nodding his head towards one of the hallways. Sam must've read his mind and he was grateful that Sam noticed how uncomfortable he was. Everyone started clapping while Blaine took it all in and Kurt took it as his opportunity to escape. He slipped through the crowd and managed to leave without being seen. He walked down the empty Dalton hallway and tried to keep himself together.
"You're so lucky to have Blaine,"
"Yeah I'm so lucky to have someone that is so self-centered and obnoxious, so selfish and childish that he blames everything that he's ever done wrong on me and who never admits to being wrong. I'm so lucky to have someone that almost raped me in the back of my car when he was drunk when just ten minutes earlier he had been dancing with another guy. I'm so lucky to have someone who accused me of cheating when I was just being friendly. I'm so lucky to have a cheater as a finance, I'm so fucking lucky to have Blaine."
"You and Blaine were meant for each other,"
"Soulmates,"
"We really are soulmates, we really were meant for each other. If I'm meant to spend the rest of my life as a housewife while my husband gets to live his dreams. We sure are soulmates if Blaine gets everything he's ever wanted, fame and success while I get the leftovers, the bits and pieces that he doesn't want.
"And let's give it up for Blaine,"
"Yes, let's all cheer and clap for the man who successfully manipulated me yet again into giving him what he wanted. Let's tell him that he deserves me like I'm not even a person and let's encourage him to act like the snooty, douchebag he is and let's encourage him to take everything from me. So yes, let's give it up for Blaine fucking Anderson,"
The first of soon to be many tears rolled down his face when he heard someone call his name from behind him. He quickly wiped at the tear and turned around to see no one other than the devil himself, grinning maniacally from ear to ear.
"Hey baby, what are you doing out here?" Blaine asked him, coming towards him and kissing him on the lips before he could answer.
"Oh hey Blaine, I just came out here because I think that if I'm around you for one more second that I'm either going to scream or cry because you make me so unhappy."
"Oh me? I'm just…" Kurt blinked back his tears and swallowed. "...umm you know, getting some air. That was… that was a lot to take in,"
"Oh well you know me," Blaine bragged. " Always going full out and what not. I just really wanted you to say yes and well you did,"
"I did," Kurt laughed nervously.
"I really said yes,"
"So I was thinking that we could go out for dinner tonight and talk about wedding plans and stuff. You look kinda sick though so maybe you should just go home and freshen up before I take you out,"
"Oh well I'd love to do that Blaine but I have a flight to get to, I'm already running late and I really need to get back to New York," Kurt told him.
"Oh you don't have to worry about that sweetie. I already had your dad cancel your flight so you could stay in Lima for a few days with me,"
"Look, while that was super sweet of you to do Blaine, I really wish you would've talked to me about that first," Kurt said through gritted teeth. "I've already been in Lima for three weeks, I stayed for my dad's tests results and then for Regionals and now this. I have school Blaine,"
"Look honey, you don't have to worry about any of that anymore," Blaine laughed. "You let me worry about everything from now on, you don't need NYADA or Vogue, all you need is love, all you need is me,"
"And so it begins,"
"You know what Blaine, I think you're right. I'm starting to get really tired, your little ceremony back there must've worn me out so I think I'm just going to go home and take a nap and then maybe we can get dinner around 9 so we can… talk?"
"Oh, around 9?" Blaine asked, rubbing the back of his neck. "I kind of had plans around that time with the guys, they were throwing me some kind of party. I guess I can just reschedule…"
"No, no Blaine you don't have to do that," Kurt assured him. "Really I want you to go out with your friends. Don't worry about me, we'll talk soon,"
"Okay," Blaine smiled. "Well you go get your beauty sleep, I can't have an ugly fiancé now can I?"
"No, you certainly can not," Kurt said, passive aggressively.
"And we'll go out a different day and we can talk tomorrow. I love you," Blaine leaned in to give him another kiss but Kurt backed away so he would miss and instead pulled him into a hug. One more kiss from Blaine and he would probably puke all over him.
When Blaine pulled away from the hug he gave Kurt a puzzled look but then quickly shook his head and smiled again. His stupid, crazy, evil smile.
"Bye-bye now," Kurt waved at him before turning away and walking out the school doors.
He was about to walk over to his dad's car so he could wait for him to come and take him home since his fucking flight had been cancelled but he was upset with him too. For driving him there even though he knew that they had just got back together after Blaine had cheated on him. For bringing Blaine with him when he went to visit him at Christmas time so Blaine could work his manipulative magic. For cancelling his flight back to New York after not consulting with him but with Blaine. It's like his dad thought Blaine was his son and he wasn't. It wasn't that much of a surprise seeing as everyone seemed to prefer Blaine over him but it still hurt that his dad seemed to like Blaine better than him.
So he decided to call an Uber to come and pick him up and while he waited he walked away from Dalton and to a little shopping center nearby. He ducked behind an alleyway and broke down. He slid down against the wall and brought his knees into his chest as he started to cry.
He was trapped. If he broke off the engagement then he would lose everyone and they would all take Blaine's say. It wasn't even fair though, they had been his friends first but then as soon as they met Blaine they had become his number one fans and they had pushed him to the side. He didn't have any friends in New York besides Santana and Rachel except for Adam but he was sure that Adam wouldn't want to continue their friendship once he learned he was engaged. They had only gone out a couple of times, Kurt wouldn't consider them to be in a serious relationship but he knew that it would still hurt Adam once he learned he had gotten back together with his ex.
Technically Blaine and him weren't even back together yet because Kurt told him he needed to sign a no cheating contract from Oprah's website (it wasn't a joke) but he wondered why he had even agreed to get back together with him in the first place. While they had been broken up he had realized he deserved better than Blaine but whenever he had gone back to Lima whether it was to see Grease or for the Wonder-week or just whenever he saw or spoke to Blaine like at Sectionals or at Christmas time, he felt himself gravitating towards him again and he desperately wanted to stop that feeling.
He really meant it when he said he wanted to be over Blaine and he was now but maybe if he would've been over him just a few days earlier then he would've said that they weren't getting back together. At least at the picnic he wasn't surrounded by everyone and he wouldn't have seemed like a douche for saying no.
Maybe he just needed to think. He just needed to take a breath and calm down some, he needed to sleep and get some rest and just put the whole day behind him. He could think of a way to fix the problem he was in and then he would be on his way. It made sense that if everyone took Blaine's side and not his that they weren't his real friends, he debuted they had ever been his real friends but he didn't like the idea of being alone. He had been alone for such a long time in his life and he couldn't go back to feeling that way. If he hadn't joined the glee club then he would be dead at this point. But he also would've never met Blaine and then he wouldn't be stuck in his current situation.
And to think that he just had to say no.
So there's that, I don't have much to say about this except for that it gets worse but Kurt does break off the engagement with Blaine so there's that for the people who don't like Klaine/ Blaine. I hope I don't make anyone to upset with this one, I'm really worried about upsetting people but I've had this idea for awhile and you can pretty much tell from the tags whether you'll like this or not so don't read if you don't like
On a side note today was my first official week of online school which is boo but I think I'll start being able to post/ update everyday or every two days since I'm on a better schedule
So until I see you next time don't forget to comment down below with any feedback or questions (please come talk to me I'm lonely lol ) and have a great day/night!
