I wish I could have put more time into this. I'm at work and I'm supposed to be well… working. I had a few spare minutes between meetings and this is the result. Sorry it's not great as it was rushed but it's all the time I had. I'll try and write the second part during my lunch break if anyone wants me to continue.

Takes part after 615. Don't know why I wanted to write this, it's a bit dark and gloomy out today and well I was in the mood for a little angst. Not sure if I should continue with it. Let me know, if anyone wants me to finish it I will.

Lorelai is walking back to her house after leaving Luke at the diner.

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Lorelai walked home quickly. She felt the sooner she got home the better, it would make her feel, safe again, comfortable again. The weekend away had started out bad. She knew Luke didn't really want to go away and she knew he would go because she asked. Luke had spent the first day complaining about everything. Usually Lorelai loved Luke's rant, even encouraged them but this time it was different. So she snapped, she didn't mean to yell at him but she did, then he gave her a wonderful and expensive gift and she felt like more of an ass. AT least, she thought her sadness made them talk. She had really talked to Luke about the wedding that she thought would never happen and Luke had assured her he loved her and they would get married. They slept better then they had in months that night and in the morning they just sat and talked. Not about anything important but it was good to just be with each other and talk about anything. When they left Martha's Vineyard they continued to talk the whole drive home. They talked about the trip, the events of Mitchem turning up, they talked about Logan and Lorelai told Luke she knew how he felt. Luke agreed that Logan wasn't a bad kid. They talk briefly about the wedding-slash-elopement. When they arrived back in Starts Hollow and the diner Lorelai felt great. She finally felt like a weight had been lifted off her shoulders but then it all came crashing down again…doubled.

At the diner when Caesar had mentioned April, Lorelai's face fell but she quickly placed a smile back just for Luke. She told him she see him after April had gone and Luke didn't disagree. He didn't jump in and say 'why don't you come over at 3' or 'drop in while April's here' or ever 'I'll bring her with me to pick up her bike' nothing. She was being shut out again. She knew this was Luke, that he needed time on his own to process things but it didn't mean she had to like it.

When she walked into the house she let a small breathe of relief. She was home and safe. Then the loaded came down heavier, the messages, her mother, June 3rd.
Lorelai stood in her living room stunned. She couldn't move, she couldn't speak, she couldn't scream even though she wanted to. Why was this happening to her? Why? Her life had never been easy but she loved her life. She had a home and a job and friends. She loved her town and she had Rory. Rory was always there with her when things got bad and now even she had gone. Lorelai had Luke, her friend Luke who she could always talk to, cry to and joke with but now he was gone. Not officially gone, on paper he was closer to her than ever. They were engaged. But in reality he was further from her than ever. She couldn't run to him because she was feeling sad, because he was part of the problem, she couldn't cry to him about feeling lonely because he was part of the problem and she could joke with him about her life being well… a joke because there was nothing to joke about. She was meant to have everything she wanted. Her house was now renovated, she had her own business, her wonderful daughter was in college, she had fallen in love with her best friend and they were engaged. What went wrong?
Lorelai felt like everything was slipping away from her again. Just ten short minutes from when she arrived back in Starts Hollow to now standing in her living room … that's all it took for her world to fall apart again.

Lorelai had had enough, she grabbed the papers she had placed on the table and threw them against the wall. She picked up the answering machine and before she realized what she was doing she threw it through the living room when it fell on the floor with a thud. Tears started to run down her cheek, she was loosing it and she hated it.

She was so angry, so caught up in her rage she didn't hear the front door open. Luke stood there looking at the room covered in newspaper sheets and the answering machine on the floor behind the couch.
"Lorelai"

Lorelai turned around "What?"

"What happened?" Luke gestured to the living room

"Why are you here?"

"I brought your bags back, I thought you might need this one tonight. It has your glasses and toothbrush and…." Luke stopped when he saw her face. Tears streaming down it.

"Lorelai" He took a step towards her but she took two back.

"Just leave it on the floor, that's where everything goes tonight"

"Lore… what…. Are you okay?" Luke took another step forward, again she took two back.

"Just go please, I need to be by myself"

"What… we just… Don't shut me out" Luke said sincerely

That was enough for Lorelai, that's all she needed to release her anger, the emotions that had been stewing inside her since she found out about April

"Shut you out, shut you out.. oh Luke's that rich coming form you. Ha." Lorelai started to pace. Luke wanted to run, was he dreaming, he thought everything was fine, he kissed her not ten minutes ago, what happened?
"Shut you out" Lorelai repeated "Oh Luke, Luke, Luke…. Who didn't tell me about April for two months, who agreed to postpone our wedding, who renovated my house but won't move in here with me, who complained through our entire weekend away, who didn't ever get me a valentines day gift" Lorelai looked at Luke's face "What you think I'm that stupid I know..." She continued on her rant "Who doesn't want me to meet his daughter, again who didn't tell me for two months and only did because I discovered her in your diner, who is silently banning me from coming near you when she's around, who is shutting me out of his life, who is putting up barriers, who argh Luke, I can't do this any more" Lorelai couldn't see through her tears but she knew where it was. Her hands were shaking. She pulled the ring off her finger and dropped it on the floor.

Luke stood staring at her pacing back and forward, her face getting redder and redder. The tears pouring down her face and onto the floor. He didn't know what to say or what to do. He wasn't even really listening to her anymore. He was in shock, what had happened to make her snap. Then he saw the ring on the floor. When he snapped out of it she was halfway up the stairs.

"Lorelai" it was all he could say

Lorelai heard him, he sounded heart broken and a tiny peace of her loved it, a bigger piece of her wanted to let him run to her and hold her but the biggest piece didn't want to see him at all. "Go Luke, go home"

Luke watched her ascend the final stairs and disappear. Now he was getting angry "FINE" he yelled even though she was out of site. He wasn't sure why he was mad but mad he was. Probably easier to be mad than be heartbroken. He picked up the ring and stormed out of the house slamming the door behind him.

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