Heyy everyone! So, how is everyone liking the story? I am soooo sorry that I haven't posted in FOREVER, but I just started a new fanfic that I have been editing and rereading and rewriting, and it's been really hard for me to come up with the rest of the story. I will not add another chapter until I get at least 6 reviews. I mean it. I do. I swear I won't. I am telling you, I will not add another LETTER until I get 6 reviews. Okay, I'll settle for 5. NO LESS! alright... you probably want me to say something funny, hmmmmmm...let me think... Chicken butt. Alright?
Beastboy blinked. Then he blinked again. Was what he thought was happening really happening? He pulled away from Raven, taking a deep calming breath. He needed to process what Raven just did. She wanted to kiss him, and he actually...liked it. Raven came a little closer to Beastboy. She reached up and gave him a kiss on the cheek. Then she began to kiss him on the lips again, and he kissed back. He felt, calm and happy. He had never felt so content in his life.
Raven suddenly reached out and grabbed a pillow. Then she started kissing it. Immediately, she threw it on the floor as though it had stung her. "Need to be alone." she said, running into her room. She needed to meditate. The other Titans looked at each other. This had happened once before, when BB and Cyborg had gone into her mirror. They began suspecting where BB might be. And, judging by the kissing, they began worrying what exactly was going on in Raven's own mind.
BB heard a coughing behind him. Then it got louder, and louder, and much louder. He turned around, to see Ransford, standing with his arms crossed and tapping his foot. There was a scowl on his face.
"Uh..." BB said, looking from him to Raven, who was in her arms. "This...erm...isn't what it looks like." he said, kinda stupidly. "How long have you...you know...been there?" he asked.
"Long enough." he replied. Slowly, he walked over to Beastboy. Raven looked at both of them, giggled, and disappeared. Ransford slitted his eyes. In a flash, Beastboy felt a fist collide with his cheek.
"What the-" Beastboy said, rubbing his cheek. "What the Hell was that for?" he asked angrilly.
"As if you don't know. Don't you get it? You had your chance. You didn't take her when it was your chance, and now it is too late." Ransford said with a smirk. BB took a moment to process this. And, finally realizing the truth, he discovered that he didn't want to just let Ransford go out with Raven. Not without a fight, at least.
"You seem cocky. How do you know what Raven wants?" BB asked.
"Don't you even try to fight back. Raven is mine now, and that's that." said Ransford smugly. BB raised his eyebrows.
"I wasn't aware that she could belong to anyone." he said with spite. Ransford slitted his eyes. Before BB knew what was happening, Ransford was using his telepathy to lift him into the air. He then smashed down, up again, and back down, and up once again, and back down...
"Cut it OUT!" yelled BB. Ransford dropped him onto the ground. BB then jumped up and tackled Ranford. He sat on his stomach and punched him again, and again, and again.
"WHAT THE HELL!" someone said behind him. BB felt himself being lifted up off Ransford. He was surrounded by Black Energy. He turned around to see the angriest looking Raven he had ever seen. "What the shit do you think you're doing?" she yelled.
"He started it!" cried Beastboy. Raven glared at him.
"Yeah RIGHT!" she yelled. She let him go and rushed over to Ransford, who was sporting a bloody lip and nose, and whose right eye was already turning black-and-blue. She put her hands on his chest, causing a huff from Beastboy. Slowly, Ransford began to heal.
"Hello? I'm hurt too you know!" said Beastboy with traces of jealousy in his voice. Raven replied by glaring daggers at him, causing him to slink back. Ransford got up.
"It's alright, I suppose it was my fault." Raven gave him a disbelieving look. Ransford cast Beastboy a nasty grin while Raven wasn't looking."Yes, you see, I ruined a somewhat tender moment for him." Beastboy's jaw dropped. He knew exactly what Ransford was going to say, and he couldn't let Raven hear it.
"Shut up you!" he yelled.Ransford only grinned.
"You see, Raven, he was kissing you quite passionately. I do believe I ruined somewhat of a dream for him." said Ransford. Raven's jaw dropped, and her eyes grew to be the size of tennis balls. She looked from BB to Ransford, back again, and back again. Ransford looked quite smug, while Beastboy was looking sheepishly at his feet. Raven emitted a small 'oh,' and in a flash she dissapeared.
"Look what you did!" yelled BEastboy.
"You started it!" said RAnsford angrilly. (A/N: would it be okay if I just skipped any battling with Trigon in this chapter, because it really has nothing to do with my story. So I'm just going to pretend that they could leave at like...anytime they wanted, so just imagine that all of a sudden, they are back in the Tower, kk? I'm sorry, I'm a terrible writer! BOOO HOOO! Okaaaaaaaaaaay theeeeeennnnn...)
Robin looked up from his newspaper. He heard someone slamming a door. Standing up, he walked down the hallway, and knocked on Raven's door. No one answered.
"Raven, are you in there?" he asked. Still no reply. "Raven?" he asked a little louder. He slid open the door slightly.
"GO AWAY!" yelled a voice. Robin looked in just in time to see a glass vase hurtling at him. With his martial art moves, he ducked it just in time, but it did smash against the wall.
"Raven?" he asked hesitantly. Bracing himself, he walked in. He saw Raven on her bed, with her back to him.
"What do you want?" she asked, her voice cracking slightly.
"Raven, are you alright?" he asked, urgency in his voice. She turned.
"Oh, Robin, it's you." she said, sitting up. Was it just a trick of the light, or did her eyes look puffy and red? He walked over to her bed and sat down.
"Raven, what's the matter?" he asked. TO his surprise and horror, her eyes filled with tears.
"I'm just so confused!" she howled, sobbing. She then burried her face into his chest, sobbing. (A/N: no, this will NOT be a Rae/Rob pairing. Don't get your hopes up if you're a fan of that pairing. He is like a brother to her in this fic, okay? YOU wouldn't date your brother, WOULD YOU! lol. Anyway, she is just confiding in him because she trusts him and loves him like a brother. Get it? Good. On with the story) Robin stroked her back in a brotherly way.
"It's okay." he cooed. "Just tell me what's wrong."
"It's just... I really like Ransford, but I just found out that Beastboy likes me too. And I don't know why, but I'm having trouble deciding which one I like more. I didn't even know that I like BEastboy! I mean, why could n't I have figured it out before RAnsford came, so I wouldn't have to decide? Why didn't Beastboy tell me he liked me before Ransford came? I just hate this whole thing!" she said furiously. A light behind her exploded.
"It's alright Raven." replied Robin. "You don't need to choose just yet. I'll tell them to give you some time, okay?" said Robin. Raven smiled.
"Yes, thank you." she said. Robin stood up and walked out of the room, only to see a strange sight. Beastboy and Ransford were pushing eachother out of the way, trying to get to Raven's room.
"What were you doing in there!" RAnsford asked, since he didn't know that Robin was like a brother to raven, since he had just gotten here.
"I was comforting her. You two really made her sad." he said accusatorely. (A/N: is that a word? LoL) Beastboy looked down at his feet shiftelly, (is that not a word too?) And Ransford pouted slightly.
"I'll go talk to her." he said.
"OH NO YOU WON'T!" yelled BEastboy. "IF ANYONE'S GOING TO GO TALK TO HER, IT'LL BE ME!" Robin sighed.
"She doesn't want to see either of you, at least not yet." he said. "She told me to tell you two not to try to talk to her yet." Ransford looked angry, and Beastboy pouted. Then they quickly broke apart and Beastboy went to his room, while Ransford went to the roof.
Of course he couldn't just wait for her to decide. What if she chose RAnsford? BEastboy thought worriedly. He would have to visit her, even if she didn't know it was him. He morphed into a cat, and dyed his hair yet again. He flew onto her ledge as a bird, morphed back into a cat, and began clawing at her screen. Raven opened it immediately after seeing it to be Shadow, not cough cough Ransford or Beastboy cough cough yeah right not Beastboy cough She carried him gingerly into his room. He saw her puffy eyes, and also noticed a journal open at her feet.
"Hi Shadow." she said lovingly, stroking his back. He purred a little too loudly. She gave him a hesitant smile. He sat next to her, and (although she didn't know) began to read Raven's journal while she wrote:
I can't believe this! I can't choose! I can't believe that I'm really in
this situation. I mean, I can't choose either without the other getting angry with me. I would always have figured I would
like Ransford more, but Beastboy is just so...I don't know... I guess he just makes me happy, like I can always be happy around him, even though I don't tell him. I can't tell him! But still, I guess I feel like he really cares. But I guess it couldn't work with Beastboy. He doesn't understand me. He thinks I'm…. creepy.
Beastboy looked up as a tear hit the page. Did she really think he thought she was creepy? I mean, sure, she was kinda creepy, but he had only said it that ONE time, and he had just been really mad. Did she really take him that seriously? Beastboy stopped thinking when he saw Raven had continued writing.
But if he thinks I'm creepy, then why did he kiss me? WHY did he have to kiss me? I can't stand this! I really can't! Why do I all of a sudden have two guys who like me? Why can't I just have a normal relationship where one guy likes me, and makes me happy, and everyone accepts it? Why does it have to be a huge soap opera! I mean, this is why I didn't want to join this team in the first place! I can't cope with all of this drama. Maybe I should just leave the team. I always do better by myself anyway. I mean, sure friends are nice, but I don't need them. They're only trouble.
Raven sighed. This whole thing was so stressing. She wanted herbal tea so badly, but she was afraid that she would meet Beastboy or Ransford, and she just wasn't ready for that. She turned on her stereo instead. Beastboy was astounded to hear a soft ballad. He thought she only listened to Heavy Metal.
Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion
Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You've always known your heart was on its own
So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to Be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone
Learn to be lonely
Life can be lived life can be loved alone
Beastboy curled up into a ball next to Raven. She soon fell asleep. However, Beastboy lay awake, thinking. Why was it that she needed to be the way she was? And could they ever really be together?
Okay, it was longer than the others, right? Not too long, but longer. Okay, i won't post the next chapter until i get... 6 more reviews. By the way, if you are reading this, LEAVE A REVIEW! PLZ DO NOT JUST READ IT AND LEAVE NO REVIEW! OTHERWISE I WILL NEVER FINISH THIS STORY! OKAY? oh, and by the way, for anyone who likes the book Artemis Fowl, please read my newest Fanfic 'Artemis Fowl and Far Too Many Crossovers.' it even has some Teen Titans in it. Plz read it! I need more reviews. If you don't want to read it, can u just leave a review anyone, b/c that's the only reason i write these stories. Anyway, next chappie coming soon!
