All This Time You've been Hiding in My Heart
Author: Pokari, Pokkangel@yahoo.com
Disclaimer: you know it's not mine
Summary: Severus is pregnant for the last 18 years, and he isn't a Death Eater. Lucius is a spy for the light and Sirius had a big problem here.
Rate: R
Category: Romance, drama
Pairings: Sirius/Severus
Spoiler: book 1 to 5
Warnings: male pregnancy.
Time: 5th year at Hogwarts.
Note: Unbeta-ed
Chapter Three
Again, Severus found himself sitting in the Headmaster's office. He was not in the mood to talk to the old wizard but he knew that there was no other choice.
Severus took a deep breath. Three days ago he was happy to find his morning sickness was worsen, proof that his baby was growing again. But now he felt miserable.
'If he doesn't speak right now, I'll just throw up in his table.'
"It's about Harry."
Severus kept silence.
"Minerva found him trying to enter the Shrieking Shack last night." Dumbledore sighed sadly. "Hagrid found him trying to enter the Forbidden Forest just three days ago."
"He's fool."
"I don't think he believe me when I told him that Sirius
wasn't at both place. I'm afraid that he would try something that will hurt
himself."
Severus didn't even bother to say 'I've told you so'.
"I think letting Harry meet Sirius is the only solution."
"You don't need my permission." Severus wore a blank face. "It's Lucius' place."
"Still I have to tell you."
"Well, if that's all." Severus carefully stood up. "I have a class to teach."
"There's something else, actually." Dumbledore was hesitated for a moment. "About your classes."
Severus sat again. "I never neglect my classes so don't tell me you got complaints about me."
"No, of course not." Dumbledore smiled. "I just think you might want to furlough until your baby is born. Potions and the smoke aren't really good for pregnant people."
"I'll consider it." Severus said softly before he took his leave. 'Didn't have to attend to classes for the next few months was really attempting,' he thought. Not to mention the time he could spend with Sirius. If only the baby would come out now, that would be perfect.
It was again the fifth year Slytherin and Gryffindor class, he was ten minutes late but his students were silently sit with their usual partner, which meant Draco was again sitting with Harry.
He noticed how frustrated Draco was and how distant Harry was, completely and thoroughly ignoring his partner.
'Albus was right, I don't like the fume.' Severus sat, thinking for a moment and decided that once again he'll let his students made some essay. He tried not to think about the stack of parchments he had yet to grade.
'I might as well take the offer and let the kind old man deal with seven years worth of essays.'
"Er… Professor." Severus looked half amusedly when Hermione Granger lifted her hand to catch his attention.
"Yes." 'Little Granger, never learn to keep your mouth shut, didn't you.'
"Well, Sir, you said we will test our Potion today."
"Well, Mirss Granger, if you want to test your potion that badly, you may keep your parchment back." Severus smirked. "Make it another three feet long essay."
The students groaned and sending evil glares at the young witch.
Severus frowned when Harry disturbingly didn't reacted. 'Not that I care about him.'
~Ö~
"Hey, your little friend just put us through another essay hell." Draco whispered.
"Shut up." Harry pouted. "I can use that Potions anyway since you give me unstopped headache."
"My honour." Draco smirked. "And if you're lucky it will help you forget everything."
"Your poisoned our potion?" Harry gave him a look.
"Like I would." Draco exhaled. "Your incompetence is enough danger."
And before Harry said something, he went to get their vial.
~Ö~
Severus watched with little amusement when his students took the potion and showed variety affects. He wasn't surprised that Neville Longbottom' potion work since he worked with Pansy Parkinson.
He took pity of Dean Thomas and Seamus Finnegan who had to go to the Infirmary along with their partners, Vincent Crabbe and Gregory Goyle.
Severus told his students that class was over and they better started doing their essay. He was tempted to yell at them to run off so that he could pack and leave the school.
"Professor." Harry looked a little scared but determine.
"Potter, I heard that you've earn detentions enough to keep you busy for two weeks." Severus said slowly. "You should waste the little time you have on something more important, like doing your essay, not wasting my times."
"Sorry, Professor." Harry blushed.
"You should."
"But, Professor." Harry pleaded. "I feel that Sirius is in deep danger."
"And what do you think you can do to save him?" 'Great, now I sound like Dumbledore.'
"Nothing." Harry bowed his head. "But I'm worried."
"He is save now."
"Really?" Harry smiled, the anxious almost left his young eyes. "Can I see him?"
"I'm afraid not." Severus leant back on his stiff chair. "I shouldn't even tell you this much."
"But I'm his godson, I have my rights to know." Harry frowned.
"Just stay out of trouble, Potter. And I promise that I might owl you." Severus told him in an end-of-discussion tone.
"Don't worry, Professor, I'll watch him." Draco grinned, he put his hand around Harry's shoulder, but the Gryffindor was too distracted to push him.
"Yeah, I can count on you." Severus smiled sourly. "Now, you two just go to lunch. I need to pack."
"Are you leaving, Professor?" Harry looked sad.
"I'm staying at Draco's place."
"Is Sirius there?" Harry whispered.
"I would absolutely deny it if you go ask Headmaster." Severus said, emotionlessly.
"Nah, Potter, don't be so sad." Draco slapped his shoulder. "If you be nice to me, I might invite you for Christmas."
"Promise?" Harry looked at the Slytherin.
"Yes."
"Okay." Harry smiled hesitantly.
Severus allowed them to follow him until he reached his quarter.
"Where do you think you two are going to?"
"I just want to help packing." Draco said innocently.
"Me two."
Severus glared. "Thank you, I can handle that myself. Just go to lunch." Severus watched them taking their leave. "One more thing, Harry. If you break one more rule, any rule, I will make you spent your Christmas at school."
"I won't, Professor."
~Ö~
Severus went to his friends' place after he finished packing. Ten minutes to seal his fifteen years of life teaching. It was the end of his teaching carrier. He didn't feel bad for that. He was about to start his life.
He arrived at his friends' place, just in time for lunch, and then went to rest on his room. Sirius hadn't made any changes.
At the evening Narcissa waked him.
"Madame Pomrey is here. She wanted to check on Sirius."
"Oh, okay." Severus automatically went to the bathroom. When he came back, the mediwitch had finished checking on Sirius.
"How is he?"
"Well, nothing had change, only now he was stable and we can induce potions to help him." She looked unsure.
"Something you didn't tell me?"
"It's just my guess, I just don't think it's the Crusiatus. Don't worry too much, he will conscious soon."
"Are you sure?"
"I met someone crazy before, and I think he still sane, though I need him to be awake to be sure. When you're waiting for him, I want you to talk to him."
"You still have one patient." Narcissa told her before she took her leave.
"I'm fine." Severus didn't want to leave Sirius.
"Don't you want to know if your baby is fine?"
"Your baby?" Madame Pomfrey smiled. "It's nice to hear that, Mr. Snape."
"I think so too." Severus let himself be dragged and pushed on the bed beside Sirius.
"And when are you planning to check yourself?" She frowned her disapproval.
"When I need it."
"He means when the baby's born." Narcissa teased him.
"Your baby is healthy, and very active I should say."
"Active?"
"I can't be sure when you'll labour. Could be in five months, or two months. Just came to my office, anytime."
"I'm not teaching anymore." Severus wanted to laugh at her look. "I'll owl Dumbledore my resignation."
"I can understand." She old witch nodded. "Well, your baby is the most important."
Severus nodded and watched the witch left.
"Did you hear that, Sirius?" Severus gently rubbed his face. "It's just another five months or two. You better be awake by that time."
"Maybe you should say 'if you didn't wake up in two months, I'll hex you." Narcissa giggled.
"I… I want to stay with him." Severus glanced at her with the corner of his eyes. "Do you think it will be alright if I portkey him to my house?"
"We are family, Sev." Narcissa held his hand. "Just stay with us. Here is one of the safest places. Just stay, I promise I would charge on you."
"Thank you, again. For everything."
"You're welcome. Beside, he's my cousin."
"Oh, there's something that I think you'll be interested to know. You might need to be prepare."
"What?"
"Draco plan to invite Potter for Christmas if he be nice to him."
"Really?" Narcissa smiled gleefully. "Well, I should be prepared then."
~Ö~
The next two weeks Severus spent it on bed, talking to Sirius.
"Pomfrey came again yesterday." Severus was playing with Sirius' fingers. "She said she needed to check on me. Must be old headmaster wants me back."
"She said our baby is doing okay. If he grows this constantly, we would have him around Christmas. Maybe earlier. But I don't mind. As long as he's healthy that would be enough for me."
Severus had a bite of his cracker. "Draco wrote to me yesterday. He said Harry was nice to him. Though I doubt what this 'nice' mean."
Severus noticed that Sirius' fingers moved a little. Very weak movement but he knew that his eyes wasn't fool him.
"Harry is so worried about you." Severus whispered, waiting anxiously. "He wrote to me too, telling me that he didn't break any rules."
He wasn't mistaken, Sirius reacted to him. "I had owled him this morning. Just like I've promised him. Sirius, can you hear me? Please open your eyes, please."
Severus ringed the bell to call Narcissa. His friend came in a halt. "Something happen, Severus?"
"Yes," Severus whispered, "I think he's awake. He's trying to open his eyes."
Sirius heard the voice. The voice he loved so much. It talked to him in a loving tone. And the hands, it always there, caressing him.
The voice was so far. He tried to run faster, to get near the voice again. He couldn't lose him.
He reached the light. There was a face, just a glance, but he would recognize
him anywhere. 'Severus, wait for me. Don't leave again.'
The face faded again. 'No, Severus, don't leave me. I love you. The ring. Where is my ring? Ah, yes, I asked Remus to keep it for me. Remus, where are you. I want my ring back.'
"Remussss…"
Severus' body stiffen. It was soft but he could hear him. "He wants Lupin." He told Narcissa bitterly.
~*~
14 February 04, 5:14 pm
To all that reviewed, thank you.
snape_the_moon_priestess: there, he almost make it. (But it still kinda sad, don't you think)
Miss Shadow Prowl: Well, I think Narcissa was a little fond of Harry, so I say they could be together in this one. Harry has to be nice to Draco, right.
Prongs1: Thank you.
chrisanimefan: hope this is now enough ^_-
