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File #5 – Pain and Suffering


Asuka Langley Sohryu: Second Child, Pilot of Evangelion Unit-02. It is agreed that she gives the term 'bitch' a whole new meaning. Abusive verbally and physically, it is considered to be wise to stay out of her way and ignore whatever retorts she throws at you.

The entity known as the G-Man disliked her, because she hindered his promise to his friend and colleague Yui Ikari of not allowing harm to come to her son Shinji, and that Asuka took great pleasure in tormenting him and putting him down.

The G-Man, knowing that even though she is ineffective as a pilot and that her defeat at the hands of the 15th Angel Arael justified her inability to handle the mental stresses of piloting a weapon like the Evangelion. When Arael penetrated her mind, he broke down Asuka's mental blocks and allowed the G-Man deeper into her psyche, where after the battle and she was rendered in a coma, he put into her a series of terrifying nightmares than what Arael gave her.

And it all centred on the future events of Earth, herself, her pride and ignorance…as well as her mother Kyoko Zeppelin Sohryu. Whom Asuka found, when she around 6 years old, hanging from her neck in her room at a mental hospital, along with the doll she considered to be her daughter.


The teenage girl eyes opened groggily, them trying to adjust to the darkness in the room, presumably her room. She rubbed the sides of her head slightly, feeling a headache coming along.

'Ah,' she thought, 'I must be coming down with something. Must be Misato or baka-Shinji's cooking again!'

She pulled back the blankets and moved to step out of bed, wanting to get a couple of aspirin when…

"AHH!"

He feet didn't touch floor, only air. She quickly got back on the bed, her heart beating fast.

"What the hell?" she cried.

She looked own and gasped. The bed was directly above a bottomless pit. Her eyes widened before closing them shut.

'This must be a dream,' she thought frantically, 'This is a dream.'

She opened her eyes…

"Wha…?"

The room was back to normal. She saw her few belongings scattered around the room. She shook her head slightly, rubbing her eyes.

'I must be delirious,' Asuka thought, 'That has got to be it. Pushing myself too hard lately.'

She then cautiously put her feet on the ground, still thinking she might fall of her bed and into a chasm. Her feet were firmly on the ground and she sighed. She went up to her sliding door and opened it. Silence and a dark hallway greeted her.

She wondered how she was back in Misato's apartment. The last thing she remembered was the Angel Arael penetrating her mind, then that horrifying nightmare of her mother. Everything after that became hazy.

She stepped into the hallway and thought she heard an eerie sound, like a wind. Her heart began to pound against her chest in fear.

'Probably the draft in this house,' Asuka thought.

She walked to the kitchen, got herself a glass of water from the tap, and opened the pantry, noticing the outside through the kitchen window. It was pitch black.

"Wha…?"

There was no source of light outside. From either stars or streetlights, there were no lights. She then turned to the pantry. It was empty.

"What is this?" she queried out loud.

She then closed the pantry, where suddenly…

"AHHHH!"

She dropped her glass, where it shattered on the floor.

There was blood on the pantry door, which spelt out her name. Then suddenly she heard a eerie whisper.

"Asuka…"

She recognised that voice…

"Mama?" she said.

Suddenly, she heard crashing outside, then voices over a radio.

Say again, over! she heard it say.

She then quickly ran up the hallway towards Misato's room, where she threw open the door.

"MISATO!" she begun, loudly, "THERE'S SOMEONE OUT….ARGHHH!"

There was Misato, her guardian, lying in a pool of blood on her bed. Her clothes were torn and her neck was sliced. Asuka backed away slowly, eyes wide open.

"No!" she cried.

She then ran to Shinji's room, where she practically broke down the door.

"BAKA!" she cried, "BAKA SHIN…OH GOD!"

There was also Shinji, also dead and mutilated. His eyes and mouth open in a silent scream.

She then heard a voice, not of her mother, but a raspy sinister one…

"Incompetent! Lousy! Cannot save those around her! She is practically a murderer!"

She then smelt like LCL, and LCL always smells like blood. She then looked down at herself, and backed up against the wall.

"OH GOD NO!" she screamed, "WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?"

She then noticed she was holding something: A blood stained combat knife. She cried out and tried to drop it, but couldn't. She tried prying her hand off it.

"LET GO!" she screamed, tears welling in her eyes, "FOR GOD'S SAKE…"

She then heard a radioed voice…

We need to hit the place now, it said, Sohryu's in there!

Suddenly, there was banging on the front door, followed by shouting. She ran up to it.

"ASUKA LANGLEY SOHRYU!" she heard a man, in a high-pitched authoritative voice cry, "THIS IS THE MARINES! SURRENDER YOURSELF!"

Suddenly, the door gave way and in stepped a bunch of men in mask, helmets and Powered Combat Vests, armed with M4 Carbines. One of them wore a black beret, obviously the commanding officer. Their guns were trained on her…and the knife she had.

"Oh my God," she heard one of them say, noting her clothes were stained in blood.

"Drop the knife, Sohryu!" the beret ordered, "Don't make us shoot you?"

"I can't," Asuka replied, softly.

The beret's finger tightened on the rifle.

"I SAID DROP IT, SECOND CHILD!" he exclaimed.

"I can't!" Asuka exclaimed, "My finger's are…"

"For God's sake," another one of the Marine's cried, "She's a godd#$# killer. Take her down!"

"RIGHT!" the beret cried, "SHOOT TO KILL!"

Asuka screamed and ran for the balcony, before feeling several bullets go through her. She went over the railing and plummeted into darkness. She could feel pain shoot through her whole body, before passing out.

Deep in her conscious, she continued to fall. She released she was unclothed and falling through what looked like lava, like when she went down that volcano. Only that she wasn't being burned. She heard childish laughter in the background, before the words.

"Mama!"

"Come to me, darling."

"Mama! NOOOOO!"

She remembered that last sentence. What she cried out when she saw her mother hanging from her neck in her room at the hospital. She then heard faint beeping, which grew louder every passing second, before she was shifted back into what she thought was reality.

"Wha…" she moaned softly.

She was lying in a hospital bed, with several mechanical devices attached to her arms and that her naked chest was bandaged up. She had no idea how she managed to survive military excessive force.

"Sh...Shinji?" she cried out, distressed, "Misato? Anybody?"

He then heard someone clear his throat. She looked straight at the doorway and found some man in a suit looking at her, smiling and holding a suitcase. He then brushed his suit and walked off.

"Hey!" she cried.

She then tore the medical devices off herself and attempted to get out of bed, before paining caused her to drop onto the floor. She cried out in pain, just like the day she broke her leg when she was so young.

She gritted her teeth and got up, half-naked with only bandages around her chest. She tore into a cabinet and put on a hospital gown. She then stepped out of the room and found the suit walking down a hallway, where moonlight shone through the window, illuminating the partially darkened hallway.

'This has to be a dream,' she thought, 'Then why am I feeling pain?'

The suit stopped and looked at her, before staring into her soul…

This is the pain you are feeling in your soul, Second Child, the raspy voice spoke to her, Pain over your past and the pain you will feel in the future.

Asuka shook her head.

"Who or what are you?" she asked.

The suit smiled.

You'll have to find out for yourself.

Asuka smiled, "I'll beat it out of you."

She then begun running down the hallway, as if in slow motion. She then noticed the area around her grow red, and that her clothing instantly became her plugsuit.

"I'll ask again," Asuka cried, "Who or what are you?"

Who am I is not important? the suit spoke to her.

She then caught up to him, where she instantly slammed into a invisible wall around the suit, falling onto the red ground.

The suit then spoke to her directly.

"It's who you are," he said, "The ultimate failure!"

Asuka's eyes widened, before picking herself up from the floor, "What did you say?"

"You are incapable of piloting Unit-02," the suit said, "Your pride, ignorance and intolerance of those around you hinders your ability to control the Evanagelion. And now look where it has landed you."

The suit then looked at her, frowning.

"Do you remember how you got here?"

Asuka then gritted her teeth, being insulted by this insurance-company guy.

"Why you…?"

The suit smiled, "Or do you require a recap of events?"

The suit up ahead behind Asuka, which made her spin round to find that the hospital hallway was tearing itself apart. Asuka's eyes widened.

"What's going on?" she cried, turning back to…thin air.

The suit disappeared, Asuka quickly looked back, stepping back slowly. Bright light shone on her, causing her to put her hands over her eyes.

"Ah!" she cried, "What's happening?"

She put her hands down to find…Arael. He was at what remained at the hallway, with his wings spread out. Asuka's eyes widened…

"No," she cried, "NO!"

She could her the voices again, echoing from the Angel.

Come to me, darling.

The Angel then transformed into energy, before rushing towards her.

"NOOOOOOO!" she screamed, "PLEASE DON'T!"

She then passed out, falling back into darkness.

"Why are you doing this to me?" Asuka asked softly to no one in particular.

Suddenly, the man in the suit appeared before her.

"Because you made me break my promise to an old friend to keep her son out of harms way," he said, frowning down at her, "I demand satisfaction and to get that, I will exploit your deepest, disturbing memories and turn them onto you."

"You mean," she begun, eyes widened, "Baka-Shinji?"

The G-Man nodded, "He is your species last hope and you have hindered him mentally and even physically. And now, as long as you are in this state of inactivity because of being beaten by Arael, I will make you suffer in more ways than one!"

Asuka, taking a stand, cried angrily, "By what? Torturing me? Intimidating me?"

The G-Man smiled, "No. THIS is intimidation!"

A flash of green light blinded her, causing her to shield her eyes. She opened her eyes…

And screamed.

She saw her: Her mother. Hanging herself from the rafters in her room at the hospital, as well as the doll. And this was the day that she would come to visit her. She saw the door open, and standing behind it was her…only younger.

"Oh God no!" the older Asuka moaned, sliding to the ground against the wall.


Asuka continued experiencing these continuous nightmares brought on by the G-Man, not just to torment her, but to numb her against the thoughts of her mother and her untimely death. Afterwards, during the NERV Incident the G-Man brought her out of her coma and begun evaluating her, seeing if she could handle an Evangelion and be enticed into working for him and his employers.

She passed…