A/N: The song is by Fall Out Boy its called 7 Minutes in Heaven
I watched him dancing with his wife at an annual benefit for all NYPD units. I traced the to tip of my beer and just watched. Maybe tonight I should forget about him and try to move on.I'm sleeping my way out of this one
With anyone who will lie down
I'll be stuck fixated on one star
When the world is crashing down
The other day after a case we were trying to close for long, I almost told him how I felt about him when we talked about the case. Of course I didn't, I keep telling myself that I shouldn't think like this but I never listen to myself. I walked over to a detective I met last time when we were at this benefit. He wasn't a bad man but he wasn't the one I loved.
I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking through blinds
Maybe I should just have fun and forget about him. At least try to forget about the love that kills me that I don't have. I drank my beer and the detective bought another one for me.
The only thing worse than not knowing
Is you thinking that I don't know
I'm having another episode
I just need a stronger dose
We stumbled into my apartment kissing. I need a release. Something to make me stop thinking of his blue eyes. The detective touched my face and I wanted to touch my partners face. A one night stand just to stop me from saying 'I love you Elliot'
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
'Cause I don't do too well on my own
