I am in a bad mood and feel like rambling on like an idiot...well, not really like an idiot...but if you dont want to read my ramblings, I wont care...but if you do...thanks for reading! if not, just skip down to the story and ENJOY!
Hey all…I was going to leave it just at that last chapter, but I might write more…X's revenge type of thing! But be where, this chappie is sad…I was close to tears while I wrote it...but that might have to do with the fact that I am overly tired and a little sick… I never went through what Nightblade had to go through, but I can imagine that happening…I can't believe some boyfriends can be such jerks. When you loose a child, it is like a hole is stabbed in your heart that you can never fill again. sigh… my mom went through two miss carriages, one after and one before me…she has told me a lot about this stuff…But I just wanted to say that if you are a boyfriend who forced your girl through an abortion, I hate you, if you are a teenage girl who has gone through one, I am so sorry, and my heart cries for you! If you are a teenage girl who has gotten pregnant and went through with it all, keeping the child, I salute you and you are so brave. If you gave the baby up for adoption, I am proud, if that ever happened to me, I know adoption is the choice I would choose…It would be hard any way, you have doubts, regrets, anyway you end up choosing… wow, weird topic… but I want those girls who have gone through it to know, I salute you! And those guys who stuck with their girl through the whole time, holding her hand! Wow…that is all I have to say and ON WITH THE STORY!
sorry to ramble on like that…if you did read my rambling, thanks, but if you didn't, and just skip to the story, I really don't care, I'm not hurt…I just felt like rambling on and on just now…cause…well…I did…hahahaha! I'm weird…let's get on with the story now…
Chapter 13: I am Ready…
"I believe I am ready now, if you wish to speak to me again…" Starfire walked into the room, her eyes cast at the floor. She wore a baggy t-shirt and some shorts. Her feet were bare and her hair was tied back.
"Hey Star." Cyborg said, giving her a soft hug. "We'll listen." He led her to the couch where she sat while Robin walked inside behind her.
"How about I make you some tea?" Raven asked.
"Tea would be nice, thank you." Starfire looked up at Raven, smiling.
"SOOOOOO!" Beastboy urged, sitting down on the couch a little bit away from her, "How do we know this isn't just some trick."
"I never wish to go back to those two…especially not Red X." Starfire shivered.
"What happened?" Cyborg asked.
Starfire sighed, then started her long story, "I wanted to leave, I really did. I couldn't though. I talked to Robin just yesterday, told him why. I wanted to leave so very much. Slade did abuse me, but X was sweet, seductive, and we, well, did things together on our nights off." She said, shyly, "Soon enough, I was pregnant with his child…" Raven handed her a mug full of steaming herbal tea. "Thank you Raven."
"Anyway, I actually told Robin, yesterday, he promised not to tell anyone because X never really even knew. Neither did Slade. Yesterday I told him. I had to take a shower, because I felt dirty…it was after the fight with Robin and Cyborg. By the way, Cyborg, I never did want to kill you. This is why I never did. I purposely missed with the starbolts, same for you, Robin, but I had to make it believable to Slade and X. Anyways, he came into the shower, asked me what was wrong and we talked. He explained that he was staying with Slade only because I was. He told me that if he really wanted all that pay, he would've just stolen it himself, but he didn't want to leave me. He figured that I loved Robin more than him when I told him I had been wanting to leave also. I finally told him that he was going to be a father…" Starfire choked back tears and took another sip of her tea, sighed, and continued,
"He dragged me out of the shower, to the hospital, forced the nurse to take the baby right then and there. She knew of X, she did exactly what she was told, put me in front of all the dying people, in front of the other girl who was there for the same reason as me, but at least she had an appointment. He forced me through an abortion, didn't even hold my hand, just stood there, cursing under his breath. After everything was through and we were heading back, I finally found myself furious at him. I threw a starbolt at him, flew away, cursing, he was too. I didn't know where else to go…it's gone…the baby. I wanted it…him or her, I wanted that joy, I was okay with it. I wanted the baby…" she cried, the mug caught her salty tears.
"Star…" Cyborg pulled her into a hug, letting her cry on his shoulder. He was and always will be her big brother…the big sibling she never had.
"Starfire" Raven said, "I can't say I know how you feel, because I don't. But I am so terribly sorry."
"I get it now!" Beastboy yelled, "That's why you wouldn't let us hurt her, because you knew she loved you. That's why you threatened to kill us if we touched her stomach!"
"Yeah, Beastboy, I didn't know he would force her through an abortion." Robin sighed.
"I am tired, do you mind if I go back to bed?" Starfire asked, her eyes were bloodshot and overflowing with tears that wouldn't stop.
"Sure Star, rest up, come back out whenever." Cyborg said.
"I'll walk you back." Robin smiled.
"And when you get up, I want a rematch!" Beastboy smiled.
"What?" Starfire asked.
"Video games…I want a rematch!"
"Okay." She let out a tiny giggle. He always did know how to make you laugh, "But I would practice in the meantime because you were very bad the last time I played." Robin picked her up and took her back to her room.
"Would you mind if I stayed with you, today?" Starfire asked sweetly.
"Why?"
"Because I feel safer in your room. I love my room, but when I'm with you, I feel safe, like nothing can harm me." She gave him a smile.
"I love you too." He said, walking inside his room and laying her down on his bed. She pulled the clip out of her hair, allowing her long hair to fall on the pillow. She stared up at him after he tucked her in. Her eyes looked like they were pleading for something, he didn't know what.
"Want me to stay with you?" she smiled large and nodded. In response, Robin walked into the bathroom, changing into more comfortable clothes, a shirt and shorts. When he had walked back out, she was on her side, her eyes wide open, she wouldn't be able to sleep for a long time, the horror she had been through.
Robin climbed into bed next to her, and wrapped his arm around her waist, placing a hand on her stomach. "I'm sorry you had to loose him." Robin whispered.
"I wish I could've gone back in time, so far to that first day. I wish I never went for that walk. I wish I never felt left out, I wish I never went after Slade all by myself that day."
"It wasn't your fault, I shouldn't have gone after Raven…" he sighed, "Because I loved you, I still do."
"I know." She turned over so she was staring at his mask. Tears filled her eyes as she thought about everything.
"Star…"
"Yeah?"
"Don't cry, okay? If you hadn't run away, if you hadn't gotten pregnant, if you hadn't been forced into that abortion, we wouldn't be like this, right here, together. We wouldn't be this close, we wouldn't have this moment." Starfire thought about what he said as his hand brushed against her cheek, pushing her loose hair behind her ear.
"We wouldn't be doing this…" he whispered as he reached in, kissing her gently on the lips.
Starfire responded by wrapping her arms around his neck, kissing him harder, getting more into it. She hadn't done this in a long time, she hadn't had this in a long time…being able to enjoy a kiss, this feeling, this love, in a long time.
After kissing for about five minutes, Robin let his hand once again, roam up and down her body. He kept the other hand on her cheek the whole time. When his hand reached her lower stomach, he drew tiny circles on it with his fingertips. Starfire smiled a little as she jumped a little. "You ticklish there?" he whispered.
"Maybe…" she smiled, sighing into his mouth when his hand brushed her breast. She had wanted this moment for so long and she was going to have it. She didn't care about anything, not the baby, not anything anymore. She loved this man and she loved this moment.
"I love you Starfire." He whispered again as he massaged her breast with his hand. He loved this, especially the tiny moans she was letting out into his mouth.
Robin let his hand roam back down to the rim of her shirt. He looked up into her eyes as if asking…when she nodded, he let his hand under her large shirt, tracing his fingers up and down her long stomach, and back up again to her firm, hard, breasts. He kept his lips against hers as his other hand left her cheek to roam her body. When his hand let her go, he moved fast, moving on top of her, bring the other hand under and to her other breast. He let his hands slide around the sides of her chest to the center of her back where he unhooked her strapless bra, pulling it off and out of under her shirt. He pressed hard with both hands, almost using them to balance as he kissed her harder.
He sent tiny jolts of pleasure through the girl's body. He looked into her eyes once more, he saw pain, but it was good pain. He could tell that it would never go away, the pain she held inside her, but it would minimize, and he would help. He also saw pure love. She only felt love for him while with X she just felt lust. Starfire's eyes closed as she kissed him deeper.
Starfire reached up behind her, grabbing the bedposts instinctively, letting him work his magic. But when she realized that she could move her hands as well, she brought them back down, pulling off his shirt. She let her hands slide under his shorts to feel his very hard dick.
She let her fingers run up and down it several times, tracing little circles on his skin. She felt his balls underneath and held them, gently massaging them and he moaned lightly into her. Finally, he couldn't stand it anymore, he let his hands slide off her shorts then his. She hooked her thumb around the elastic of his boxers, sliding them off too.
She never was able to do this, she was making it all up off the top of her head, with X, she did nothing, but with Robin, she could do more. She brushed her lips against his again, pushing her hips into his. His dick just able to skim her soft underwear. He brought his hand down to her thong where he let his fingers run against the wet material.
He hooked his thumbs around her underwear, bringing it down and all the way off. Afterwards, he wrapped his arms around her neck, once more, and kissed her lips again. This time, he guided himself into her like a pro and held himself there for a minute before pulsing in and out of her. She brought her hips up and down at a motions equal to his and within them, they found themselves moaning in unison. He pulsed harder and faster in and out and in and out of her pussy.
"Robin…" she sighed.
"Star…" was all he could say before she started to scream, reaching her climax. He put his lips over her mouth, muffling her screams a little bit and he released himself inside her, and then pulled out of her, laying down next to her beautiful body.
"Robin, I love you so much." She sighed, pulling herself close to him, and resting her head on his bare and muscular chest, trying to catch her breath.
They closed their eyes and fell asleep.
Little did she know that someone was watching…just outside the window the entire time.
