I was walking back from a battle on the path from where Hagrid's house used to be, angrily chastising myself that I let a death eater get away. 'What would Harry think?' I stopped short having just entered the Great Hall. Noticing Fred laying still on a bed sheet and the world went quiet hearing nothing but my heartbeat, and a scream from somewhere. When suddenly I was found being held by Hermione as she did hours ago when I thought the man I loved had died and only now realizing that the screams were coming from me, my legs gave out and I hit the floor and cried as Hermione held me with Ron crying into her shoulders. If Hermione had not been there, I would have fallen to pieces, that is when I thought of him.
Harry I looked around in a panic and found him standing at the entrance to the great hall my eyes still stinging. Now filling with tears of happy news but seeing the blank expression he now had he was looking around the great hall. She saw him look at Tonks and Lupin as I stood up to go to him and hold him his eye found Fred, then mine then suddenly disapparated, my heart sank like it did back at Dumbledore's funeral.
Hours later, back at the burrow, everyone was quiet with sobs filling the house. My brother Fred laid on a blanket on a table I stepped outside something told he would come back looking at the now setting sun over the pond her and Harry had spent some time the summer from 2 years ago wondering where he might be. Did he hate me for being there the only thing Hermione had called my name snapping me out of my thoughts. "Ginny, you need to take a shower Harry will be back." I turned eyes stinging from fresh tears "but what if he doesn't what if he" "Ginny" Hermione look deep into my eyes looking between them wiping the tears away "he will, and I know that cause he talks in his sleep!" feeling better I walked up to my room got a fresh change of clothes and got into the bathroom putting my clothes on the sink. Turning on the show I began to strip finally realizing I had a cut on my cheek and bruises dotted my body. I checked if there were any cut anywhere else finding a gash on my ankle. Sighing and deciding I really could use a shower I stood up and got into the shower. The water stinging the cuts I had received earlier in the day dreading the soap I was about to use after letting the water run through my hair and down my body. I realized I needed to get clean the part I needed to so I would feel clean and begin to wash myself feeling the sting from the soap wasn't as bad as I thought, but still painful and once again found herself in deep thought. Does he want me still, what did he go though as well as what did Hermione mean by, he talk in his sleep when I heard commotion from downstairs in the living room hearing Hermione say no! She is here harry you need to go to her I threw caution to the wind and ran out the bathroom down the stairs and hadn't realized someone were coming up the stairs it was Harry they stopped. Harry's eyes that were once hazy, but are now back to his emerald, green normal piercing eyes wide and staring up and
down my body suddenly realizing I was bare to the world, I asked did I finally catch you eye spun around and ran into the bathroom face burning and my heart beating furiously I rushed to get dressed. I started to beat myself up 'crap crap shit I can't believe he saw me naked what will he think now' harry had reached the door and knocked making me jump "are you ok in their honey I want to talk with you if you want to listen" she stopped did I just hear harry right I hear a solid with a loud thump outside the door and what sounded like a body hitting the floor I had finally gotten dressed and flung the door open harry was passed out on the floor head on the bathroom doorway. I pulled out my wand "wingardium leviosa." I began to move him to my bed just up one floor. I proceed to take off his shoes which had gaping holes in the sides and removing his socks I noticed blisters all over his feet pulling his shirt off and see he had gotten a hard muscled core with a cut on the side and a scrape on his face I thought about what mom might have to clean wondering then I remembered she had dittany and that it would be useful. "Accio dittany" I whisper, and a murky brown bottle came to my hand I thought he could use some sleep, but his cuts were still bleeding accio bandage a bandage then flew to my hand and pulled his pants that had been tattered and torn off and laid him back and start to clean his wounds and began to wrap his head. He would shift occasionally, I sat up and thought mom might kill me I should tell her. I began to stand up then I heard "Ginny!" In a soft but harsh cry. And he had grabbed my hand. I turned around.
my heart feeling like it would jump out of my chest at any moment when I finally got what Hermione.
was saying I sat down next to Harry not noticing he had a stubble on his chin and his hair was long and
mangled I felt sad not knowing all he went through then I saw a book that had fallen to the floor it was.
leather and bound with a lock and inscription on the side I thought to myself 'read it later. Crook shanks came up to me and I bent down and said, "get Hermione for me ok" and with that crook shanks disappeared into the hallway I turned, and study harry more holding his hand and think he seems like he was 5 years older than when he left the burrow last summer and then I began to think we all had grown up. I heard the steps of feet and crook shanks had returned with Hermione and as well as my mom in toe. "Ginevra" my mom began but before I'd let her finish mom could finish, I motioned for her to be quiet and pointed to harry and whisper, "listen please then you can berate me" and proceed to tell Hermione and my mom what had happened. "My well he sure does need sleep as we all could" my mom smiling and with a twinkle in her eyes turned and said "I'll tell you dad I am ok with it, so he doesn't stop you I think you're the only one Harry feels safe with" I could feel my face turning red again could that mean that mom knew Harry still loved her. The light went out and I climbed carefully over him to his other side and
held him close looking at the man she had fallen in love with that was a boy last year and fell asleep looking into his eyes.
I had just defeated Lord Voldemort I had seen the death eaters dispparated in Column of black smoke.
was it real I had just repaired my wand and snapped the elder in two and thrown it over the side of the bridge feeling a sharp pain in my body I began a hard long limp back to the great hall excited to tell Lupin and have fire whiskey with the Weasleys now it was over Hermione and Ron were ahead of me and had disappeared behind the rubble as I approached, I heard a blood curdling scream of not my dream of being happy suddenly dashed away remembering the Lupin was dad as I had seen house before seeing Fred on a sheet still eyes looking into oblivion a smile across his face I remembered the comment he had made earlier before I left for the forest "if I die it'll be on my own terms, they well get a Weasley welcome." And I could feel my heart ache as I passed over the body of Colin McCreery thinking about, he came out of hiding to join me on the battlefield and how his brothers and parents would now have to bury them
own son I kept looking the something told me not to and laying on two sheet next to one another were Tonks and Lupin holding hands they had gone out hoping for a better world for their son Teddy full of love I remembered when I had been asked by Lupin to be Teddy's godfather just the week prior, they seemed blissful and happy I had known Lupin was gone thank to the resurrection stone but not Tonks and now my heart felt like it had been blown up wishing he had been there instead so Teddy would have his parents I heard a sniffle and a slight shift I turned and saw Ginny standing up she had a cut on her left ankle and above her right eye as well as long scrape along the side of her shirt and her hair as fiery as ever it was then I thought she hates me her brother died for me, and it isn't fair I could only think of one place and dispparated number 12 Grimmauld place I was there standing in the ruins of my god fathers house remembering the time we'd talk about how it would be when it's all over I limped upstairs to the bathroom and look in the cabinet where I were sure there was to my disappointment none I walked back to where I had slept six month ago stopping briefly by the bedroom where we had found the fake
horcrux locket I noticed a book laying in the corner. I hadn't seen before I went over to it and picked it.
up it looked like my journal I had been writing on the run I wanted to open it as it wouldn't budge with alohomora, I began to look around the room and found a picture hidden in a desk of my parents and Sirius looking happy I felt selfish but turned it over to remove the picture when I had removed the back holding the picture, I noticed that it had been hiding writing on the back.
To harry my godson if you've found this then it means that either I gave it to you, or you have found it sometime after all this is over and I am not there to give you this I have many regrets from this life among them is not seeing you grow to the man I know you'll be to stand next to you on the aisle at the day of your wedding you might have already found it in that special red head, but I digress, I have words of wisdom. If you've found this that means they didn't get my book Harry it like the one you have to open it say I am here.
Your godfather, Sirius Black
Tears were burning and overflowing as I turned the book on the stand over and said "I am here" the lock clicked and the book snapped open there was on the opened front of the book was a picture of all of us together the year before he died, I turned the page finding it hard to look at it much on the following page it said.
Harry, I have enchanted this book to write what was on my mind and depending on what happened to me how and who would be able to read it only you and Ginny will be able to so in a way you can think this book as an extension of me I know in some way it's tough and hard you've survived a war and that is not an easy thing it will haunt you like it did me, but you've got ones who care about you, and I am sure that red head is waiting for you to come home, and you should I think she will take care of you and when your read there are two things I want you to do one is to sit with Ginny and read it together two is when your ready go to Gringotts and show them this books they'll know what it means.
Sirius
I snapped the book shut and locked it and put it in my bag as my eyes begin to bury and I started to cry. Had Sirius known what was or could happen how many passages did he write I stood up and it hit me, Ginny wasn't crying tears of anger and did not shout at me just then a brown barn owl tapped on the window making me jump with my wand out on its leg was a letter he opened the window and it peck him in the head and stuck its foot out he opened it and read,
Harry its Hermione we all are wondering where you went were all worried and Ginny, well Ginny thinks.
you do not want to see her or anything she torn up about it Harry you need to come back she needs you and you need her.
P.s Ron says that if you do not, he will come find you stupid git.
I gave the owls some owl seed and crumbs stood up and he flew out I shut the window and thought.
'Does she really want to see me' and with that I shook my head and disapparated to the burrow with a loud pop I had landed in the living room Hermione and Ron rushed and hugged me I could hear showering upstairs and I asked to a bit loudly "where is she" Hermione tears in her eyes pointed upstairs and I ran for the staircase not feeling pain just wanting to see her and tell her everything and not lose her and there she was her first hair dripping wet wait what wet? Looking down her body realizing she had run out naked she had noticed I was looking and asked what some part of me finally caught your eyes she turned around her face red and all I saw was her naked butt disappear into the bathroom. I walked up the stairs "are you ok love" weird I hadn't thought to say that but for a fleeting moment I could feel my face heat up it just felt right "I want to tell you everything if you'll listen" I could hear her breathing on the other side of the door I couldn't tell if I had done something wrong but if I had I'd make it up to her and then I felt it all hit me at once the tiredness for not sleeping for the last five days to the pain on my leg and the pain of dying and coming back to life and the last thing I remember is hearing the door open then I was weightless if I had known what I'd see when my eyes fluttered closed, I would have.
caught to fall asleep all I saw was people dying around me and explosions then Fred's smile and Tonks lying next to Lupin looking happy but saying in unison "why harry why did we have to die harry" and then turn to see Ginny cry and out of instinct I called for her, my next morning would be a tough one. I wish I could just wake up and put this all behind me, but it would be hard to hide from.
