Phoebe Halliwell sat at her desk in The Bay Mirror. She knew she should start working on her column but couldn't. All the bustling and noises that surrounded her were blocked by a wall of depression. Her eyes unintentionally flickered to a picture of her and Cole. Her eyes stayed transfixed on that picture for what felt like an eternity. Phoebe's eyes filled up and threatened to break.
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my hear open just to feel
Tears fell down her face as she remembered everything Cole had put her through and everything she had put him through. Those tears of sorrow and depression turned to tears of anger and violence. She remembered when she first met him up until the time she killed him, again. All of the emotions that she felt throughout those six years of being with Cole came rushing back in huge tidal waves. It was too much for her to handle. She held the picture close to her heart and cried. She cried for anger, sorrow, depression, hurt, and loss. When she finished crying her eyes bulged. She realized she still loved him.
I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
Phoebe blinked back the unshed tears. Placing the frame back where she found it she tried to focus on work but couldn't. She couldn't help the fact that her mind kept wandering Where was he? Is he alive? Is he okay? Does he still love me? That didn't matter anymore. She and Cole were officially finished. It didn't matter how much they wanted or needed each other. Prue had been right all along. Once a demon always a demon. Yet, she wasn't sure that was Cole. He proved himself time and time again he was good, but his evil side had been so persistent. Sighing in frustration she laid her head down on her arms.
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last dance
That's what she had to do. She had to move on for her sake, Cole's sake, The Charmed One's sake, and to keep her sane. Keeping all this in she knew was wrong, which probably explained her lack of power and imbalance because her emotions were off, but that was tomorrow's problem. Today, Phoebe's dilemma was just getting through it without breaking down or doing something irrational.
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
That's exactly what this is, she thought to herself. My scars are reminding me of where I have been and what love had done to me. She placed a kiss on the picture and smiled. "I will always love you Cole. For ever and ever."She got up from her desk and left her office to get a cup of coffee. She didn't know it but he had been watching her. He always would. "I also love you Phoebe. For ever and ever." His spirit whispered into the empty office. A wind that came out of nowhere rustled in her office as he left to return to purgatory where he awaits for Phoebe to come to him and to be with her. For ever and ever.
