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Previously

...I'm hopeing it isn't as bad as I think it's gonna be.

I was waken with the morning light shinning through my window. I can't say morning sun as it never shines in Forks. I turned on my phoned and let out a big sigh as I saw what day it was. It was Saturday, beach day. Without even thinking about I got up out of bed and got dressed. I decided to wear a long sleeved t-shirt and jeans. I put on a thick jumper over it as I knew it was going to be freezing. I also went of my eye with some more cover up that I had. It wasn't as good as Alice had done it but hopefully it would work. I didn't mention to Charlie about the beach trip when I got home so I decided to leave a note as I was leaving as he was at work. As I was locking the door I heard a car honk and I turned around. To my shook it was Mike. I was planning on driving my self to the beach but I guess now I don't have a choice. I sighed and then quickly relaced it was a smile as I walked up to his car and got in. He wasn't a gentleman like he Edward was I knew he wasn't going to open the door for. Once I got in I saw all the alchol on the back seat I could identify the strong smell of weed. This is starting of great, I thought sarcastically.

"Today when we are there you are not going to say a word to try and make out that something is wrong. Understand me", he said.

I simply nodded my head. Before I knew what was happening Mike's lips were on mine. I didn't like it. I froze. It felt rough. It felt like a lifetime when I was frozen before Mike pulled away. I held back my tears and looked out the window as Mike drove off.

"Your going to have to get better at that", he said as we drove off.

That was the last thing he said until to got the beach. Once we arrived we both got out the car and Mike ordered me to collect some bags from the back seats. He did the sameand then we made our to the beach. There were dark clouds over our heads and then I noticed I didn't pick up my jacket. Again. I am so forgetful. Once we made our way over we sat down on one of the large logs beside the others. We said our hellos and then that's when the drinking started. Mike cracked open a can of beer. He offered me one and I tried to refuse but he forced me anyway. He cracked it open and told me to drink. So I did. I had a little sip and felt like I wanted to puke. I hated it. Everytime Mike looked my way I would take a little sip each time. Almost everyone started to roll a joint apart from Angela and Ben. They were quite nice. I didn't talk to them much but from what I could see they were different than everyone else. I'm glad Mike never offered me to take a puff.

About twenty minuets later everyone that was smoke was stoned out of there head. Some were passed out. Including Mike. I thought this time would be ideal to go for a walk. The smell of weed was strong and will be sticking to me. I don't want Charlie to smell it when I get home. He probably will as he is a police officer. I quietly got up from my seat and walked towards a set of steps that went up to one of the cliffs where everyone went cliff diving. I've never done it and I don't think I every will. It looks to high. It took me about five minuets to walk up to the cliffs as I was starting to feel the bitter cold get to me everytime I climbed higher. Once I was finally up there I walked over to the edge and looked over. The height was making me dizzy so I took a seat on the edge letting my legs hang over. I looked out to sea thinking how I could jump in and end all the suffering from Mike but if I did Charlie and Renee would suffere. Was it worth it? Would only two people miss me?

"Your not thinking about jumping are you", a voice asked.

I thought my inner thoughts were talking to me but it wasn't I turned around and I shocked and happy at the same time. It was Edward. I looked at him. He must have seen my face. The sadness in my eyes.

"You are", he relised as he took a seat beside me.

"Not really", I said half telling the truth.

He gave me a look like he didn't believe me. He smirked crooked at me which made my heart flutter. Is this what I need to live for?

"Have you ever thought about it", I asked.

"At one point in my life. But not now. It's not worth it. I'll be hurting the people I leave behind".

He would be leaving a lot more people behind than I am.

"You have more people that care about you. I just have my mum and dad", I said.

"You have me. I care about you".

I smiled up at him. He did care about me. I could see it in his eyes he wasn't just saying it. He moved a touch and removed his jacket and drapped it over me. I thanked him. We sat chatting for what felt like half an hour until I turned my head and saw that everyone who was at the beach had now left. Even Mike was gone. I hadn't even noticed that it was dark.

"What time is it", I asked confused.

Edward took his phone out of his back pocked and unlocked it.

"It's ten o'clock".

"We've been sitting here for six hours", I asked shocked.

"Time flies when your having fun" , Edward said smiling.

I stood up and Edward followed. I started to feel a few spits of rain fall. That was our cue to leave. We started to walk back to the beaches parking lot and then I remembered Mike had drove me.

"Where is your truck", Edward asked.

"I got a lift today".

"Let me take you home", he said.

I nodded and we both got into hs car. It smelled a lot better than Mikes. I felt so much more comfortable in Edwards car. I took my hood down and as I did that I heard a gasps. I turned to Edward and he looked angry and sad.

"Who did this", he asked as he reached his hand up to my eye.

Shit the cover up must have washed away with the rain. How did I forget about that? What could I say. It would sound stupid to say I feel or ran into something as I knew he would clearly not believe me.

"I can't say", I said.

"Why not. Bella is someone hurting".

I looked down to the floor and felt tears well up in my eyes.

"I can't. They theartened people that I care about. Please just leave it alone. Just for now. I promise I will tell you but not now", I begged.

I could see Edward was going to try and fight me on this but nodded his head in agreement. Before he pulled of he reached his hand up to my face one more time and whipped any the tears that were falling.