To all those who thought Seras was Occ I'd like to say that there is reasoning in my madness.(maybe a little)

Chapter 5: Protruding thoughts

When I got back from the walk with Alucard I fell into a deep sleep in my coffin bed. I awoke and thought about last night what exactally happened I remember the monster, Alucard making me a free vampire, and then we were going to walk. Other than that my brain hurt to much to think. I tried to send the blood bag up to my hand but surprisingly I wasn't thirsty. So I poked all over figiditing with folding the bed, my hair, and my skirt somehow I felt twitchy.

A knock was on my door. I stuck my head through the door.

"Yes Walter." he looked taken back by me going threw the door but then turned into the almost expressionless Walter.

"Sir Integra wishes to speak with you." I nodded and got dressed. 'What a bother I have to walk all the 3rd floor.' I imagened the scene Integra smoking a cigar then yelling at my wrong doings. I felt quezzy like I was going to throw up a blackness swept under my feet. I was sucked threw it and was surounded by darkness my eyes closed automatically. When I opened them Integra was staring at me from her chair shocked. I was not on the ground I was on the ceiling staring down above her. I lost my balance but quickly regained it and landed softly on her lamp and glided down to the floor.

"Sir Integra Seras Victoria reporting for duty." Integra examined me.

"So what Alucard said was true. I have another undead monster to deal with."

"I am not a monster!" Integra slammed her hands down on her desk.

"After the display you put on last night!" Integra then slid a file to me I glanced at it."Open it!" I did as she bid me to do inside were photographs of girls and guys alike that were brutally ripped apart. I threw it to the ground.

"Whats this got to do with me?"

"Everything! Leave," I turned,"But take it with you maybe it'll jog your memory!" I thought of my room and the darkness cloud engulfed me I was in my room. I set down the file on my desk and tried not to think about it. But there was nothing else to think about. I thought hard to remember what happened last night but...something held me back.

'Seras why are you thinking so hard.' a misterious voice sounded in my head.

"Who are you!" I demanded then instantly the same figure I fought the same one that invaded my dream appeared before me. He wore a dark black hood.

"I am I."

"Don't play stupid what is your name!" The figure didn't answer me I took a protective stance ready to put off whatever attack he might attack me with.

"I would not hurt my own."

"I am not your kind freak."

"I am not freak."

"Then what are you?"

"If one looks dead is one, If one is dead should one look dead?"

"What the hell is that supposed to mean." my eyes narrowed he speaking in riddles.

"You were not always vampire." I snorted then took his words into consideration. A thought threw the back of my mind sailed into my every thought 'I once was human?' It didn't seem possible my memory was failing me again but I could remember what I was. Or if the figure was lieing to me my mind was all mixed up. Then I saw them die. All of them in the pictures.'I killed them I killed them all!' Their deaths plagued my every thought. Flashes appeared like I was watching a sick horror film. A girl screaming and wriggleing in my grasp I snaped her neck and bit into her thoart sucking the blood out of her being. And another I chased down somehow in this view I was looking down at my vitcum I appeared right in front of them and the victum was also sucked of blood. Then the visions got worse I hunted someone down and killed them with a mere thought their blood splattered at me but then I didn't care. I was screaming. Integra's words came to my head. "I have another undead monster to deal with."

"I am a monster," tears fell from my eyes what have I done I lost control,"I am a monster!"

"The monster is not you." I suddenly remembered the figure that was now above me."They are the monsters in human skin they are there only to feed us and to become more of us."

"Your mad."

"No you are no judge of what is mad or sane. I was you and you had a time of time killing those humans."

"I'll ask you again who are you!?"

"Van Hellsing." he bowed.

Tomiie789: To be continued...