Chapter 7: Loseing oneself

'Because I wouldn't let him' Van Hellsing answered. My eyes grew wide. I tried to scream to Alucard to help me. But I could utter no words they were trapped inside my chest crying for release. I couldn't move slowly tears gathered into pools of water escapeing my body. Alucard turned to face me and then glared at Van Hellsing. Integra was intensively it appeared she was looking for answers and flaws to Van Hellsing. I tried to move but I was still frozen. 'Don't they see! Can't they see theres something wrong with me!' Van Hellsing continued talking soon they walked past the room and shut a door. I could no longer hear what was being said. I tried to pull my body but nothing appeared to move. 'I forgot how!' A voice from the police force rang into my ears.

"'Upid Kitten messed up this time you 'id." I felt like I was sinking into quicksand my body felt limp. 'Seras,' Van Hellsing's voice chimed into my head,'Do not try to escape...I do not want anything unfortunate to happen to you.'

'Why are you doing this? Are you not Integra's ancestor? Didn't you sware to bring all vampires to enternal damnation!'

'I made no such declaration.' Van Hellsing stated simply. My body was hot I felt sweat fall down like candle wax.'Desist Seras you will only lose.' To Hot! To Hot! I was able to move my hand. I glared down upoun it my fingers were dissolving. 'What the hell is this!' The dissolveing went up into my arms then to my shoulders. My legs started to dissappear. I felt light as air. Then I felt a pain inside of my back a ripping sensation emerged. 'What the Fuck!' Something was happening to me! I had gotten my voice back and screamed I felt my voice bounce back at me to sound shrill. 'What is this!?' I found a mirror in the corner of the room. I gazed upoun it to see nothing. The door opened and Van Hellsing walked out first. I screamed staring at the mirror I had no hands or finger nails. I soon realized I had wings.

'What were you expecting?' was Van Hellsings snide remark.

'What is this?'he sighed.

"I warned you not to fight me if you would have complied...well." He shrugged his shoulders. Integra walked from behind the door and stared with shock I looked right back at her.

"What is the meaning of this!" She shrieked when it hit my ears I was sent flying into the wall. Van Hellsing caught me before I hit the wall.

"Maybe it would do well to keep your voice down." he said softly he held my wings and beagain to stroke my neck. I struggled to no avail.

"What in gods name is that bat doing in here!" Alucard then stepped out he had a grin on his face which turned into a tight expression a growl emerged from his lips. With my bat self struggling I kept trying to get free. He approuched us and then barred his teeth at Van Hellsing.

"Is something the matter Alucard?" He answered smuggly. Alucard stood in front of us for a long time. A moan appeared as Alucard flicked a canine at Van Hellsing."Good." 'He just walked away! Alucard come back!' I shreeched. Alucard faded into the wall. 'How do I change back!'

"If you want to change back think about what you are. You are a creature of the night no more than that you are the undead that walks upoun the Earth." I squirmed free."Yes go! I have no use for you now." I transported myself threw darkness and landed in my room still a bat. Blood lay in a medical pack. I tried scooping it into my small claws. But it kept slipping so I left it I do not want to make a mess. I gently flew to the coffinbed. My wings didn't at all feel strange or foreign they were like arms I felt like I was walking it was so easy. I snuggled my nose into the cushion. It felt like oatmeal and I disappeared into the pillow when I layed on it. I sat on it with great difficultly. I was thinking of another way to sleep. 'I could hang upsidedown.' I desided to try it felt odd the floor felt like the ceiling and the ceiling the floor.

"SERAS VICTORIA!" Integra belled out into my ear. I jumped up suprised I was in my human form. She held out the same file that contained the photos of the dead people only it seemed thicker.

"What happend?" I wryly gulped the lump in my throat.

"You were out again weren't you!?" Behind Integra was a vague scent of blood. I leaned toward my table to find the blood bag ripped open but no contence on the table. She lifted the bag and squeezed it in her left hand to relieve some fustration."Answer the question!"

"I...eh...I..." I stuttered then I thought why should I bow before her. "I don't know!" Integra narrowed her eyes at me then left. A vision submerged into my eyelids. I saw a damp alley from above in the sky. Suddenly I was zoomed into the alley I saw myself surround a human into a corner. A glisten fluttered from his hand it pierced my skin then he pulled it out the gourge faded. I disappeared then reappeared behind the man. I seized my arms around his neck and ripped a chunk off like a animal. I was watching my horific deed like a spectator observing a movie. 'This is not me I could'nt have...' Van Hellsing appeared in the vision lapping up the same mans blood. I snapped out of my vision. He was in my room. "You could and you did." he smirked."Didn't Alucard ever tell you not to go to bed hungry?"

"Tell me the truth..." He interuppted.

"Why would I lie to you?" his very presence disgusted me.

"What before were you saying about Alucard in the one room?" He didn't heistate he abruptly said.....

tomiie789: To be continued. Yes I am cruel but that just the way it is until next chap k? Man it took forever to update! Was on nice vacation but I am back to reek havoc with a cliff. Not that this is a very special one. Next chap is gonna reveil the secret link between the night where they had to leave dinner quickly and what it had to do with Alucard. I think I made this chap two darn short.