Chapter 14: Inside, I'm Screaming, I Love You

Nathan, Brooke, Lucas and Peyton were similarly waiting again in the waiting room for doctor's to tell them something about Haley. Nathan was a nervous wreck and he couldn't stand the thought of loosing Haley or his unborn child. What made him worry the most was the blood that he felt on his hands when Haley was in his arms. He knew the blood was definitely not a good sign, and all he could think about was what he would do if he lost this baby. His sister must've been able to tell what he was thinking, and grabbed his hand. He looked down at his sister and saw the once perky, bubbly sister was nervous about the result.

"You'll get through this," Brooke whispered.

Nathan nodded silently, and felt a déjà vu when the Scotts and James' ran in the hospital asking about Haley.

Nathan shook his head, tears threatening to spill about these last few months. Haley has been through way too much, he thought. But he couldn't think of a time he'd loved her more.

"She's pregnant," Nathan whispered, "Or was or whatever."

"What?" Lydia James gasped. "Chris?" she asked.

Everyone looked towards Nathan, who whispered, "No. Me."

"You!" Deb gasped. "What?"

"We aren't together," Nathan told his parents and best friend's parents, "We got caught up in the moment," Nathan said. "She just found out and told me. Brooke and I were gonna switch apartments, and Haley and I were gonna raise the baby together." Nathan took a shaky breath, "Excuse me," Nathan said walking to the chapel.


"Nathan and Haley?" Dan asked his daughter who watched her brother leave the room.

"The two of them are way too stupid, to be honest," Brooke told her parents, Peyton and Lucas nodding their heads in agreement.

"They're in love," Peyton said, "It's as simple as that, but the two of them are making it so difficult."

"I knew this would end up happening with the two of them," Jimmy James said sitting down.

"I just hope it ends up working out," Lydia whispered sitting next to her husband.


Nathan sat down in the chapel, thinking of all the times he and Haley had shared.

Flashback

Nathan and Haley were sitting in his room, doing their homework when Haley looked up at Nathan.

"You think it's weird we're best friends?" Haley said sitting up to look at Nathan.

"No, why?" Nathan asked.

"Cause I'm a girl and you're a guy?" Haley said.

Nathan laughed, "So."

"You know when we're older we're gonna get annoyed about this stuff. People are going to be like, 'oh…Haley and Nathan are secretly dating.'" A very intelligent 15-year old Haley said.

"Hales, they already do," Nathan reminded her.

"It's kind of annoying," Haley admitted.

Nathan smiled at his best friend, "It's funny."

End Flashback

Nathan smiled back to the time where he and Haley laughed at what other people thought.

Flashback

"When we're older, will you be my baby's godfather?" Haley asked a 16 year old Nathan.

"Hales, you aren't having kids," Nathan said to his best friend plopping on her bed next to her.

"Oh yes I am," Haley said.

"I won't let you," Nathan laughed.

"Damn, Nate…No fair," Haley giggled.

"Okay, let's make a pact. If we don't have kids and aren't married by the time we're 34, we'll have a baby," Nathan said.

"Us?" Haley questioned, stifling a giggle.

"Yeah," Nathan said noticing Haley's face, "Hey-why are you laughing!"

"'Cause the day we have kids is the day dogs will rule the world," Haley laughed.

End Flashback

Nathan sadly realized how true this would be, if only Haley came out alright.


The doctor's were rushing and working on Haley. The sound of the monitor went still, when the doctor said,

"Oh no."


Nathan sat in the chapel, with his hands in his lap.

"God," Nathan started, "I know I don't pray a lot. But, the thing is, I need something. Haley's in the hospital again. But this time, she has my baby with her. I just found out she was pregnant. Today. I was so excited. I think out of anyone in the world to have kids with, Haley is the only one I ever saw myself doing so with. I think it's because. No, I know it's because I'm in love with her. God, please let her be okay. And please my baby be okay."


Nathan walked into the waiting room, to meet the faces of his parents, his best friend's parents, his friends and his sister.

"Did they tell you anything?" Nathan was able to croak out.

"No, sweetie," Deb said.

Nathan looked towards to the parents who were like another set to him his whole life, and immediately went to them.

"Lydia, Jimmy…I promise, I didn't take advantage of her, and I really…I really am going to be there for the baby, if there is still one…but I promise I will be," Nathan said worried about what they thought of him.

"Nate…you've always been there for Haley-bub," Lydia started, "I know that no matter what, you'll still be there. And to be honest, I'm not happy that she's not married and pregnant, but I know you, Nate…And I know you'd never let anything hurt Hales."

Nathan nodded, "I'm in love with her."

Everyone's head whipped up at Nathan's confession and smiled.

"Then you know everything will be okay, sweetie," Deb told her son.


Nathan sat as far away from anyone possible waiting for the answers to his questions. He couldn't even remember a time where he was any more nervous, besides the time when Haley had alcohol poisoning. But all Nathan could think about was that this time, there's two people at risk. One he's finally admitted to that he's in love with, and the other who he just found out about, but couldn't love more.

"Mr. and Mrs. James?" the doctor came out asking.

Nathan jumped up, "What's going on with Haley?"

"Excuse me, sir. Let me please talk to her parents," the doctor told Nathan.

"But it's my baby!" Nathan screamed.

"Nate, just….sit down," Brooke advised her brother.

"It's my baby!" Nathan screamed again.

"Nate-sit," Lydia told him silently promising to tell him everything.

Nathan sat down, clearly angry over what was going on. He watched the facial expressions of Lydia, Jimmy and the doctor and started dreading what they were going to come tell him.

Lydia and Jimmy started walking towards Nathan and Nathan immediately ran to them.

"What…what's going on?" Nathan questioned.

"Nathan," Jimmy started, "Sit down."

"No, just…Tell me. Tell me now, Jimmy," Nathan demanded.

"Nate…" Jimmy started, "She's fine. She's resting right now," Jimmy told him.

"And the baby?" Nathan asked fear in his voice.

"The baby didn't make it," Lydia told Nathan.

Nathan stared at Lydia, and hearing everyone's gasps of sympathy made Nathan crazy. Nathan kept on replaying those words in his head "The baby didn't make it…" All Nathan wanted to do was go to Haley, but all he could do was drop in the chair and throw his head in his hands, ignoring the hugging of his sister and the cries of Haley's parents.