DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN HARRY POTTER (SIGH IF ONLY!)

Ok I still can't find my notebook...oh well I think I remember most of it. Well here goes nothing.

Chapter 9: Emotional Whirlwind

'Yesterday must have been just a dream.' Lily thought. 'That could never happen! Never!'

To put it simply Lily was in Denile. Let's face it, there's no better name for it. Sighing, Lily commensed with the task at hand; Banging her head on the head board of her bed. This was all she had done for quite come time.

It was about two or three o'clock in the morning. Lily didn't know exactly she haden't looked at the clock for at least a good hour and a half. Finally she laid back on her bad and tried to go back to sleep. This took her another 25 minutes, because of her wrestless mind.


When Lily awoke the only 1 hour later. Lily was under the impression that she was still in her dream. No way this could be real. She didn't remember anything about last night until she stepped into the common room. James was the only one there. He was sitting on a reclining chair in front of the fire place. This must be a dream.

Lily turned to go back into the girl's common room when she heard James make an unrecognizable sound. Lily stopped and looked back at the chair James was in. She heard the sound again. It sounded to her like a...sob. 'No it's not possible, what reason would James Potter have to cry? Yup, this is definately a dream.' Lily thought.

Lily crept toward James's chair slowly trying not to make a sound to attract his attention.

When Lily reached the half way mark she looked at his reflection in the mirror in front of him.His black hair covered his face, but she could see a tear slipping down his cheek under his hair. He was crying. James Potter was crying. 'Nope.' Lily thought, ' No matter how you say it, it still sounds strange.

Lily tried to move closer and accidentally stepped on a discarded paper. James turned to her. When he saw Lily he just stood up and left.Lily got up all of her courage to catch him before he left, "Why-"

"Don't worry about it Evans." James managed to choked out before he left.

Lily was worried. He'd never acted like this before. Lily suddenly remembered the paper she had stepped on. No use in leaving it on the floor.

Lily picked it up and opened it. A gasp escaped her lips. The letter read:

Dear Mr. Potter,

I am truely sorry to report to you that your parents met with an unfortunate accident. Also neither Mr. or Mrs. Potter survived. If you wish to contact us for more information we would be glad to give you more information. You are also required to attend the reading of their will.

Signed; Mr. Corneilus Fudge

Lily read the paper again, and wondered how someone could be so heartless as to make it sound like a business letter. This must be a nightmare to James.

Lily really didn't feel like talking to James, but felt like she had no choice. Lily stood up and headed out of the portrait hole, going to the place she thought James would be.

She ran up the stone steps hoping to catch some sort of clue as to where James had turned. She was almost sure he would be here. After all this was a dream, anywhere she looked he would be, right?


Lily opened the door to the astronomy tower. She stepped out of the stair well and looked around. There was James. He was standing on the edge of the tower, his head lowered. He appeared not to notice she was there. Lily walked up and put her hand on his shoulder.

James looked up in suprise. Their eyes met.

James looked at Lily. She was breathing harder than usual, probably from the run up the steps. Also the run had turned her cheeks turn a shade of pink. James blushed and looked away.

"A-are you ok" Lily panted.

"I don't want to talk about it." James said emotionlessly. This suprised Lily, but not as much as what he said next. "Lily..." James said as if asking her permission to speak with her. Lily nodded for him to continue. "I'm sorry."

If Lily wasn't confused earlier she was now. "Why?"

"I...forced you to go on a date with me...I shouldn't have."

This was turning out to be a strange dream. Oh well if it was a dream she might as well speak her mind. "You don't need to appologize." Now it was James's turn to be suprised. "I had fun." She smiled at him.

"Really?" He asked.

"Of course." Lily looked out at the sky of stars. She decided their was no reason not to go on. It's not like he would really hear her. "I had a great time. I...guess I just didn't want to have a good time, because I thought it would mean I was wrong about you all this time."

James was confused had he heard her right? Did Lily Evans just admit she was wrong?

"Don't get me wrong though James," Lily said using his first name. "I still don't know if I like you...you know like that."

James smiled. She's coming around. James's thoughts were interrupted by a gasp of pain from Lily. She had been bitten by a misquito'...wait...' Lily thought, ' You can't get hurt in dreams can you?' It was then that it dawned on her, This was NOT a dream. She had just told James Potter that she MAY like him, and she had used his first name.

James was a little preoccupied at the moment to notice her change in additude. The gasp had brought him back to reality. His parents were dead and he had to deal with it on his own. He couldn't turn to Sirius because he was like a brother to him, and he couldn't break it to anyone until he could at least believe it himself.

Lily also remembered the letter. After all it was the reason she was here. "I know about your...parents."

James eyes widened. Of course it's not like he didn't expect her to figure it out eventually, but this was a record even for her.

"Just remember James," Lily whispered, "I'll always be here if you ever need some one to talk to."

"Thank you." James said. There was a long pause, and both just stared up at the stars overhead, until James spoke up, "Would you mind if I took you up on that offer now?"

Lily's eyes softened. "No problem."

Lily and James talked about everything from school work, to friend's embarrassing moments.

Suddenly something caught Lily's eye. The sun was coming up over the horizon. "Look." She gasped.

The sunrise was beautiful. You didn't see this every day after all. You had to wake up really early to catch it.

They smiled at eachother. Both of them got up and headed down to the Great Hall for breakfast.


They were the first ones in the Great Hall exculding Professor Slughorn, and the Headmaster.

Unsuprisingly they finished before everyone, and headed to their rooms to get ready for their trip to Hogsmeade. Lily had completely forgotten it was today, and so had James.


Lily and her friends, Atreyu and Marina were in the Three Broomstix drinking hot chocolate.

"So," Marina Started, "Spill!"

Lily tried and failed to look suprised at her statement. "What do you mean?"

"Where were you this morning? Marina never sleeps, and she said she heard you hitting your head on your bed, and not long after you left the room and went down stairs." Atreyu interrupted.

There was no hiding anything from those two.

"I-I was...uh..." Lily looked down trying to look more interested in the last marshmellow in her almost empty coacoa mug. "The last marshmellow is always the hardest to get out." Lily said trying to change the subject.

"Hmm, you were with James weren't you, and he's having some sort of problem. Is he sick?"

Lily had no idea how Marina did that. "No he's not sick, I can't tell you either. It's a private matter."

"Ok we understand." Atreyu said trying to get Marina to stop guessing.

"Come on you two, we have to meet up with the guys." This statement shocked even the all-knowing Marina.

"What?" Lily said after they sat and stared for over a minute.

Marina and Atreyu were too stunned to talk, so they just followed Lily to the edge of Hogsmeade to meet 'the guys.'

Well that's all for this chapter. Sorry it took so long but I had to TRY to find my notebook...I still didn't find it though. sigh Oh well See you next chapter.