" I know honey, god I know," Lily said hugging him tightly letting him release all his emotions that were building up.
After several minutes Sirius had regained his composure and about another hour of nerve racking waiting for all four of them Ma'dam Pomfrey came out.
"Well?" Sirius asked wiping his eyes.
"I made a miscaculation."
Sirius's heart dropped to his feet. "Wha-What?"
"Miss Edwards flatlined during surgery for 30 seconds."
"Is she alright?"
"Yes Mr. Black, but with the anthestics I've put her on it'll take a good 36 hours before she regains full consiousness."
He breathed a sigh of relief. "What about the baby?"
"She made it through surgery. She's 6 pounds 9 ounces."
Sirius grinned from ear to ear and looked back at his friends. Lily had jumped into James's arms and he was spinning her around in circles and Remus looked like a boulder had been lifted from his shoulders.
"Can I see them?"
"Yes of course."
Ma'dam Pomfrey led Sirius into the Hospital Wing where his ears were greeted by the sound of a baby crying. His baby crying. He followed the noise to the curtain next to Sidney and pulled it back. That's the first time he saw his little girl. The room fell silent as he got closer to her. She was flailing around in a makeshift bassanet. He carefully picked her up to get a better look at her. She was perfect. She had a full head of raven black hair. She had the peircing blue eyes of her mother and was a mix between the two in her face, but most of her face was Sidney's. A gentle and content face you could look at forever.
"You're alright." He said taking a few deep breaths in an attempt to bring his adrinaline level down. " Daddy's here."
She starting calming at the sound of his voice. There were nights that there was just the two of them down in the Common Room and he'd talk to the baby for hours. He smiled at the memory, as Lily came into the corner of his eye. She leaned on his shoulder to get a better look at the baby.
"She's beautiful," She gasped in awe.
"She's the spiting image of Sid," Remus in a hushed tone.
"I want one." James said getting a good look at her and turning around to Lily. Lily's jaw fell and Sirius smirked listening to the situation as best he could, but he couldn't take his eyes off of his daughter.
" Aren't I the one that's supposed to say that!"
"I meant eventually!"
"Well eventually, think before you speak okay?"
"Yes Ma'am" James said making a face.
"Hey guys?" Sirius said still not taking his eyes off the baby.
"Yeah Sirius?"
"She's beautiful,"
"Yeah Sirius she is."
"You scared me young lady,"
"She scared all of us,"
"What are you going to name her?"
"I'm going to wait until Sidney wakes up before she has an official name."
Ma'dam Pomfrey walked up unoticed to the rest of them. She smiled at the students. They were all very close ,but a blind man and his dog noticed that.
"The three of you are going to have to leave, I'm about to settle down for the night," She said in a half-mothering, half-professional tone.
"Yes Ma'am"
"It's been a long day," Remus said being the last to walk out.
Sirius followed his friends out with his eyes after saying their goodbyes. He placed his daughter carefully back into the bassanet and she immediately starting to unsettle.
"It's okay, I'm just going to be over there visiting your mum." He whispered to her lovingly. He kissed the top of her head and she began to settle again.
He pulled a chair up next to the cott that Sidney was resting on. He didn't like seeing her so limp and fragile, but she'd never looked more beautiful to him before either. It was a complicated emotion for him. She started to stir as he petted her hair. She smiled as she said his name, and opened her eyes slowly.
"Hey." He said in a hushed tone.
"Sh' 'kay.."
"Yeah Sidney, she's beautiful"
"I wan see," She told him. He noticed her eyes were closing again.
"Go back to sleep, you can see her tomorrow,"
" 'Kay," She went back to sleep, knowing that their baby was fine. Sirius was content with that and walked back over to his daughter carrying the chair. He placed the chair down quietly and carefully next to the bassanet. He was playing with her small fingers as he started talking to her.
"Your mum will see you tomorrow. She had a rough time having you, but that's okay because I have the both of you. I'm not ever going to let either of you go. Not ever. When your mum first told me she was having you I was with your Uncle James and Uncle Remus. We played a joke on this really mean guy called Snape, but I'll tell you about him when your older cause Daddy doesn't really have nice things to say about him. Your Uncle James is a real character you know. I met him our very first day of Hogwarts. He was looking for a place to sit on the train and he came and sat with me. I won't lie to you baby, your daddy isn't the best and smartest guy in the world. I was mean to alot of people, but when I said something mean to your Uncle James, he said something equally as witty. After that I knew we'd be friends until we died. Your Uncle Remus, he's the one I want you to learn from if you learn from any of us, Don't let me forget that one okay?
She smiled at him and started making her baby noises, but silenced almost like she waiting for him to continue talking.
Anyways, your Uncle Remus is a prefect, he's got straight A's. He's morally a good person. He'd never beleive that because he's 'sick', as he calls it. I don't know what we would do without him. Speaking of people you can't live without, if anyone qualifies for that it's your Aunt Lily. She's the smartest witch I've ever met in my entire life. She's your mum's confidant like your Uncle James is to me. She's just a beautiful person, Uncle James would suffer without her. I bet you anything that they'll get married someday. She'd make a great Mrs. Potter don't you think?"
Ma'dam Pomfrey came up and checked Sidney's vital signs. After she was satisfied she went over to Sirius and the baby.
"How's she doing?"
"Great, I was just telling her about things"
"I hate to break this up,"
"Okay just give me an extra minute?"
"Alright,"
" I have to go baby, I'll be back first thing, I promise." He kissed her fist gently and walked towards the door after saying his goodbyes to Sidney. He walked up to the Tower and quietly walked into the bedroom careful not to wake anyone up. He changed and went over to the bunk that he and James shared and noticed that Lily was in the bed with James. He pulled a lock of hair off of her face and she woke up to his touch.
"Sirius?"
"Hey Lils, what are you doing in here?" He whispered.
"It gets lonely in there by yourself."
He beleived her. He'd been in Sidney and Lily's room on more than one occasion and it was creepy in there with the others. He couldn't imagine it all alone. No amount of bad thoughts could ruin the feelings he was feeling.
"Go to sleep baby doll, I didn't mean to wake you."
He went to sleep with all the good feelings in the world.
