Chapter 14
Ruthie sat at the vanity in her bedroom and brushed her hair. She smiled in the mirror and continued to brush her hair. Tomorrow was her wedding day. Annie walked towards Ruthie's room and saw her brushing her hair. Her little girl wasn't a little girl anymore. Annie walked into the room and took the brush from Ruthie's hands. She started brushing her hair gently just like she did when Ruthie was a little girl.
"Hey mom", whispered Ruthie smiling at her mother through the mirror.
"Hey", whispered Annie still brushing her curly locks.
Annie put the brush down on the vanity and went and sat down on the bed in Ruthie's room. Ruthie shifted in her seat to face her mother.
"Hey baby come sit by me", said Annie.
Ruthie did as she was told. Annie held her hands and looked at her daughter
"Tomorrow is the start of a new beginning for you, my little girl is getting married. You are young, but I know that this is right. Martin is right for you, and you chose well. He makes you feel like how your dad makes me feel. There is no one else that can do that for me. Marriage is not easy Ruthie", said Annie.
"I know mom, I really do, but marriage with Martin, I can't imagine doing this with anyone else either. Mom it was like this was meant for us you know. I felt it when he walk into the yard", laughed Ruthie.
Annie smiled too. Martin spent the whole day with them and they didn't even know who he was.
"Yeah I remember that", said Annie smiling.
"He is the one isn't he?" asked Annie looking into her daughter's eyes.
Ruthie nodded her head.
"Yeah, I know it sounds so corny and cliché but mom he is the one, I know it. When I was in that coma that was what I dreamt about. It was me and Martin married with two of the most beautiful babies. We were so happy mom. And starting tomorrow that is going to be a reality", said Ruthie smiling.
Annie nodded her head.
"Ruthie you are so grown up, I feel like I'm losing you so soon. I only had you for 16 years, it's not enough time", cried Annie.
Ruthie wrapped her arms around her mother.
"Mom you haven't lost me because I'm getting married. I still need you. I really do. I don't know anything about being a wife. I need you and mom so much. You guys are my strength. I love you", whispered Ruthie.
Annie nodded her head.
"There is something I need to say okay. Ruthie when you found out about Sandy, I'm sorry how I called you selfish. You weren't you were a girl that got her heart broken. I'm sorry that I was thinking more like a counselor and less like your mother", said Annie looking at Ruthie.
"I'm not going to lie it did hurt when you called me that. Martin sleeping with Sandy and thinking he got her pregnant. I felt like my heart couldn't take it. I felt like dying, but that's when I knew", said Ruthie getting up.
"Knew what?" asked Annie looking at her all of a sudden grown up daughter.
"I knew that at that very moment my feelings weren't a crush. That pain mom, I never felt it so strongly before. Vincent dumped me, Peter moved away. I have gotten hurt by guys, but the very thought of losing Martin made me want lash out, throw stuff and die. I couldn't handle it so I buried the pain. I buried it so deep inside thinking that if I didn't think about it, it would go away. I through myself into volunteering and even though I met Sammie and Harmony out of it and I'm thankful for that, it was just a way to not deal with the pain", said Ruthie looking at her mother.
"I didn't expect you to understand my feelings because I didn't tell anyone that I have been in love with Martin since I met him. He walked into our home and I felt it. I pushed it down because I was with Peter. But Peter knew too. He knew it, so did Vincent. But Martin. He never realized that I loved him. I didn't know it until then, until he broke my heart", said Ruthie.
Annie looked at her.
"How did you get past it?", asked Annie.
"I didn't at first, but Sammie and Harmony they got me through it. They had this faith in me. I told them and they told me to follow my heart. I knew that there was only way to do that and that was to be with Martin. But he wasn't mine to have. It hurt so much to think that the one person that held my heart couldn't give me his. So I sang at that party mom. I sang about my fear. He looked at me and I felt it. I felt my feelings finally returned. That night he told me he loved me. He told me that he wanted me to be with him. All the other things didn't matter, what mattered was what was in our hearts. That night when I sang that song to him mom, I never felt to calm in my life. It was that night that I got my soul mate", said Ruthie smiling.
Annie looked at her.
"I'm sorry I wasn't there for you Ruthie. I'm sorry I didn't help you deal at all. I thought I was doing the right thing by making you stay away from Martin so he could deal with Sandy, I never knew that I was adding to your pain", said Annie looking contrite at doing that.
"You weren't mom, I understood, I was probably being selfish", said Ruthie. "You weren't, you were being a girl that was in love with a guy that was in a horrible situation", said Annie.
"Mom I didn't blame you I don't blame you, yes it hurt but I know that you and dad just didn't want me to get hurt in the long run. You couldn't have known how deeply my feelings ran. NO one knew", said Ruthie.
"Harmony and Sammie knew", answered Annie.
"Yes but it's easier to tell strangers your feelings that people that are closest to you", said Ruthie.
"At the time I could take their judgment, it didn't matter that I came off as weak to them, with you I didn't want to look weak to my family. I didn't want to be weak in front of the people that made me strong. I used to cry at night thinking about him mom. I hated that, I hated that she took him from me. I don't know why I did, I just hated her mom, I didn't want you to see me like that. I didn't want you to see me be hateful when you never taught me that", said Ruthie looking at her mother.
Annie felt the tears come to her eyes.
"Ruthie don't you understand that you could come to me, and tell me anything. Ruthie I don't care about all the other things, you can be yourself with me. You can show me your feelings. Maybe I did something wrong that you thought you couldn't. But you can", said Annie.
"That's right you can", said Eric coming into the room.
"I am sorry Ruthie, me telling you to let go of Martin was wrong. I was afraid that you would get hurt, that the only end result was pain, I never figured that staying away from him would be more painful. Sometimes I forget that you are not a little girl anymore and your feelings for Martin are not like the crush you had on Robbie that it was real grown up feelings", said Eric walking up to her.
"It's okay dad, I forgive you and like I said to mom I don't blame you. What I feel for Martin, it's kind of consuming sometimes, and it's real don't worry about us because I know for a fact that we will make it", said Ruthie smiling.
Eric and Annie hugged her.
"Go to sleep baby, tomorrow is your day", said Annie tucking Ruthie in for what would be the last time.
Eric and Annie stood and watched Ruthie sleeping for a little bit.
"Are we doing the right thing?", asked Eric.
Annie looked at Eric.
"Yes we are, I know we are", said Annie leaning over and kissed Ruthie on her forehead.
They let Ruthie sleep and walked down the stairs.
"Ruthie stay still will you", said Lucy combing Ruthie's curly locks.
"Lucy I don't want my hair up, I want it down, Martin loves my hair down", said Ruthie smiling.
Lucy nodded her head. Sammie came into the room smiling. She was already dressed in her maid of honor gown. It was a light blue dress that reached to her knees. Her hair was up in a French twist. She was beautiful.
"Oh I got the something blue Ruthie", said Sammie swirling the garter around her finger and smirking.
Ruthie giggled at that. Sammie handed it to her to put up her leg.
"I have the something borrowed", said Harmony walking into the room.
"Here it was something a brought a while ago", said Harmony handing her a small ring.
"It's for your pinky, I heard it was good luck", said Harmony.
Ruthie went up and hugged her.
"Thank you", whispered Ruthie looking at the ring that had a light blue jewel in the middle of praying hands.
"Its beautiful", said Ruthie looking at the ring and slip it on her pinky finger.
"Well you need your something old", said Lucy handing her a pendent.
"It was grandma's, she gave it to me it was her mother's and well it should go to you, I wore it on my wedding day, you should wear it on yours", said Lucy.
She smiled and helped Ruthie put it on.
"Now for your something new", said Annie walking into the room.
"Here is a veil, I saw it and know you said you didn't want to wear one but I saw it and I knew you would love it", said Annie.
Ruthie looked into the box and gasped. It was so lovely. The intricate lace was beautiful and completely hers.
"oh mom it's so beautiful", said Ruthie tearing up.
"Hey none of that, tears mess up the makeup", said Harmony smiling even though she was tearing up also.
They heard a knock on the door.
"Come in", said Annie trying to wipe the stray tears from her eyes.
"Hey are you girls ready?", asked Simon stepping into the room.
Ruthie nodded her head.
"Yeah I'm ready", said Ruthie smiling.
Eric walked in then.
"Oh wow, wow, my baby girl, you look so beautiful, so beautiful", said Eric.
He felt the tears coming to his eyes.
"Thank you daddy", said Ruthie.
Eric leaned down and kissed her forehead. The rest of the girls made their way out of the room.
"You ready baby?", asked Eric taking her arms.
Ruthie nodded her head.
"Take me to my prince dad", said Ruthie smiling. Eric nodded his head.
Ruthie stood at the back of the church and heard the first few chords of the sing that Harmony and Sammie were singing. Ruthie closed her eyes and smiled at the song that they chosen. It was Janet Jackson's Again. It was the song that she sang to Martin when they were on their way back from visiting his mother.
I heard from a friend today
And she said you were in town
Suddenly the memories came back to me in
My mind
Chorus:
How can I be strong I've asked myself
Time and time I've said
That I'll never fall in love with you again
Ruthie saw her family walking down the aisle slowly. Sammie and Harmony were singing into the microphone. Ruthie could see Simon smiling brightly at Harmony that winked at him. She saw her mother take a seat. But where she was standing she couldn't see Martin yet.
A wounded heart you gave,
My soul you took away
Good intentions you had many,
I know you did
I come from a place that hurts,
an' God knows how I've cried
And I never want to return
Never fall again
Making love to you felt so good and
Oh so right
It was her turn now. She took hold of her father's arm and he covered her face with the veil. Ruthie took a breath in and smiled at him. Eric was shaking. She was shaking too. This was the day. She was marrying Martin today. She smiled as she walked slowly. She heard Harmony singing gently. She sang under her breath as well.
Repeat Chorus
Martin clutched his hands and rocked back and forth on his heels. Mac lay a hand on his shoulders making him stop fidgeting. Martin drew in a breath. He saw Eric and Ruthie came into view.
"God", whispered Martin.
Mac smiled at him. His best-friend was nervous.
"Calm down", whispered Mac.
Martin didn't pay any attention to that though. He saw her smiling and singing as well.
So here we are alone again,
Didn't think I'd come to this
And to know it all began
With just a little kiss
I've come too close to happiness,
To have it swept away
Tears fell down his face.
"Martin", whispered Mac.
"It's her, it's always been her", said Martin.
He closed his eyes and remembered her singing to him one day that were hanging out at this house. He opened his eyes and saw that she was closer to him. He felt the tears flow down his face. Lucy smiled at him. They were in front of the church now.
"Who gives this woman away?", asked Lucy smiling.
The whole Camden family stood up.
"We do", said the family. Everyone in the church smiled at this.
Don't think I can take the pain
Never fall again
Kinda late in the game
And my heart is in your hands
Don't you stand there and then tell me
You love me
Then leave again
'Cause I'm falling in love with you again
Hold me, hold me
Ruthie smiled as her father pulled up the veil and kissed her cheeks and handed her over to Martin that was shaking. Ruthie looked up and smiled at him. She reached over with the pad of her thump wiping his tears away. They faced Lucy that began the sweet but short ceremony.
Don't ever let me go
Say it just one time
Say you love me
God knows I do love you again
Everyone smiled as Martin said his vows. He chocked on his tears.
"Ruthie I take you as my wife, my soulmate, and my other half. I love you more than words can describe. You being my wife is just the beginning of our lives together. You are my everything. I can't wait to spend the next 50 years waking up in your arms knowing that you are mine forever", said Martin with tears in his eyes.
Ruthie smiled and cupped his face.
"Martin, my prince, my love, my soul mate. You are my life partner, and I can't think of a better man. You are my heart and I can't live without you. You are the other half of my heart and without you I would not exist. My love you have made me complete, and I can't wait to spend the next 50 years in your arms knowing that you are mine forever", said Ruthie smiling.
Everyone looked on at the couple. They smiled and cried when they exchanged rings and cried when Ruthie sang to Martin. It was a song called At Last. It brought tears to everyone's eyes as they pledge their love to one another again before kissing each other sealing their fate as soul mates.
Ruthie and Martin barely remembered the reception. They did remember Mac getting the garter and Harmony getting the flowers that Ruthie threw making Sammie and Simon blush. They were there when Annie and Eric presented them with tickets to a cruise for their honeymoon.
"It's time baby", whispered Martin.
Ruthie smiled and thanked everyone before they left for their honeymoon. Martin smiled and carried Ruthie over the threshold. Ruthie giggled. "Hey baby", whispered Martin kissing her softly.
"Martin?", said Ruthie.
"Yeah baby what is it?", asked Martin lay her gently on the bed.
She had changed out of her wedding gown that was like a Cinderalla dress. It was a tube top, and flared out at the bottom. She looked like a princess in it in Martin's opinion.
"I prayed for you, when you walked into the yard that day I knew that the answered to my prayers were answered Martin", said Ruthie looking at him.
"But Peter I mean", said Martin.
Ruthie placed a finger against his lips.
"It was always you, always", whispered Ruthie before taking his lips.
That night was the night that changed Ruthie forever. Martin slowly took off her clothes.
"You are so beautiful", whispered Martin.
He reached over and turned on the stereo. Ruthie gasped when she heard the song. It was one of her favorites. "This Woman's Work" by Maxwell.
Pray to God you can cope
I stand outside
This woman's work
This woman's world
Oooh, it's hard on the man
Now his part is over
Now starts the craft of the father
He looked into her brown eyes and kissed her mouth gently and slowly. He ran his fingers through her hair trying to do all this at the same time. He had sex before but he never made love before and he was going to that with Ruthie. He was going to make love to Ruthie.
I know you have a little life in you yet
I know you have a lot of strength left
I know you have a little life in you yet
I know you have a lot of strength left
"Ruthie", whispered Martin looking at her. Ruthie moved up and reached for the hem of his shirt lifting it up and over his head. Ruthie looked at him. Her eyes looked down. He felt the blush coming up. She reached over and kissed his nipple gently making him gasp in pleasure. He closed his eyes as he felt her licking his nipple slowly. He reached over and ran his fingers through her curly locks. He pulled her head up then though and kissed her mouth. He felt this overwhelming passion consume him. It was so intense. He was making love to the love of his life. He would never forget this day.
I should be crying but I just can't let it show
I should be hoping but I can't stop thinking
All the things I should've said that I never said
All the things we should of done that we never did
All the things I should've given but I didn't
Oh darling make it go
Make it go away
Give me them back to me
Give that little kiss
Give me your hand
Ruthie took hold of his hands and kissed each finger individually. Martin cupped her face and kissed her eyelids, her forehead, her cheeks, her chin, and then her mouth. "Martin", moaned Ruthie softly. Ruthie pulled back and moved back on the bed. She reached in the back of her and removed her bra. "God", whispered Martin as her top half became visible to him. Her nipples stood at attention. Her nipples gave a dusty brown color. He looked at her and crawled towards bending his head and taking one of her nipples into his mouth. She closed her eyes and arched her back and moaned out his name as she ran her fingers through his thick short mane.
"Martin", whispered Ruthie pulling his head back to her lips.
"Can I make love to you", whispered Martin.
Ruthie smiled and kissed his cheeks.
"Make love to my body Martin, you already possess my heart and soul, now it's time for you to have my body", said Ruthie.
Martin gulped at those words. He nodded his head. He slipped his boxers off. He heard her gasp as she saw his naked for the first time. He blushed at that. She reached over and touched him gently making him gasped and groan.
I know you have a little life in you yet
I know you have a little strength left
I know you have a little life in you yet
I know you have a little strength left
Martin reached over and removed the rest of her clothing. Ruthie looked at him and opened her arms. He went to her and kissed her mouth gently. He prepared himself at her entrance.
"I don't want to hurt you baby", whispered Martin.
"I know what to expect, I just need you Martin, I need you in my body, please", whispered Ruthie arching her back.
He slipped into her body then. He felt her tense up a little at the pain. He waited for her to adjust and began the slow thrust into her body. It felt so good and she was so tight and small. He feared that he would hurt her but when he heard her sighs of pleasure he smiled.
"Martin, baby it feels so good", whispered Ruthie holding his back.
He reached down trembling and kissed her lips.
I should be crying but I just can't let it show
I should be hoping but I can't stop thinking
Of all the things we should've said that were never said
All the things we should've done that we never did
All the things that you needed from me
All the things that that you wanted from me
All the things I should of given but I didn't
Oh darling make it go away
Just make it go away now.
They made love all night that night. It was their wedding night. It was the night that their transformation as soul mates completed. It was the day that soul mates joined and bond together forever. It was all that mattered. It was all that mattered.
Author's Note: Alright yall this is a long chapter and there is only one more chapter after this. I'm sorry to see it end but I think it went well. Anyway tell me what you think. One more chapter and I will be ending this. Peace and thanks for the support.
