A/N: Thank you all for your patience. I hope this chapter does the story justice.

This chapter was enspired by the song Just feel better by Santana and Steven Tyler of Aerosmith.

Later that night Sirius was sitting in the common room on the couch watching the fire burn itself out. It was all he could do to not sit there and cry. His chest and eyes were burning. He was hurting like he'd never hurt before and technically nothing had happened yet. He knew Sidney wasn't going to change her mind. She never did whether right or wrong. There was no way he could get sole custody of Lindsey, and even if he did there was no way he'd be able to raise her alone. He didn't have a place to stay, and he loved Lindsey enough not to drag her through that while he got it together. He didn't know what to do, what to feel, or how to justify it to himself and until he did he'd sit right there in front of that fire wishing that time would stop. He was so wrapped up he didn't notice James, Remus and Lily come in.

"Hey Sirius." Lily greeted him cheerfully. He didn't hear her though.

"What's the matter man?" James asked him gently shaking him after not getting a response himself.

"What?"

"What's going on?"

"Nothing."

"Okay, nothing is the exact opposite of what you look like now. What's wrong? Where's Sidney?" Remus asked.

The name Sidney made his heart break more.

"She's in the Hospital Wing I guess," He said his voice cracking against his will.

"Hey, Sirius what's the matter?" He was still silent. It was making her nervous. "You can talk to us." Lily asked getting on her knees, to his level.

"Umm, Sidney's decided that we aren't fit to keep Lindsey,"

"What!" They all said in unison.

"Yeah, and she's left me with no choice in the matter. She doesn't care what I think, or how I feel about it." He said slowly losing more of his composure.

"Oh honey," Lily said giving him a tight hug.

"Sirius start from the beginning." James demanded in a concerned tone for his best friend.

"Well, when I went to go see them in the Hospital Wing. She had a letter from her father, and it basically said give Lindsey up or I'll disown you. I thought she would keep her guys. I really did. We had the worst fight we've ever had and she said she was giving Lindsey up with or without me."

"Sirius, that's awful." Remus said sitting on the arm of the couch.

"It was in the heat of an argument, she probably didn't mean it." Lily said trying to find a reason for her friend's actions.

"No Lily, she meant it. With every fiber of her being she meant what she said to me."

"I'm sorry Sirius." James said, his voice full of sympathy. It wasn't much to offer but it was all James could think to say.

"Look, you two stay with him. I've got business to tend to."

"Stay away from her Lily, she didn't listen to me she's not going to listen to you." Sirius said finally letting Lily go.

"Okay Sirius,"

She was going to the Hospital Wing to sort all of this out. Sidney had lost her mind and there was no way Lily was just going to sit there and let her take what was left of Sirius's heart down with her. She walked right through the doors of the Hospital Wing and went right over to Lindsey's bassinet and saw Sidney there talking to her.

"What's this I hear about you giving Lindsey up?"

"Oh Jeez!" She took a deep breath. "Don't scare me like that!"

"Oh you mean like your scaring Sirius with all this talk about giving up his baby!"

"It's not a threat, I really am giving Lindsey up."

"You're kidding," She could not believe her ears.

"No," Sidney said in a smart ass tone that set Lily off.

"Outside now,"

"You can't-"

"Look, I've things to say to you that aren't appropriate for a Hospital or a child. So yeah, I can. Go outside or I will drag you out" Lily said glaring daggers and warning in her tone.

Sidney scoffed and walked outside with Lily behind her.

"I just want to let you know, there's nothing you can say to me that will change my mind,"

"You're the most selfish person I've ever met in my life you know that!"

"I'm selfish for wanting to give my daughter a better life?"

"You and I both know that's not why you're doing it."

"Then why am I doing it Ms. Knowledge!"

"You're doing it because you're scared of you're father! You're doing it because you don't believe in Sirius to come through for you! You don't believe in yourself!"

She was interrupted when Sidney's hand collided with her face. Sidney had just smacked her.

"You didn't just hit me!"

"You shut- up about my reasons for doing this! It has nothing to do with you!"

"When you ruin my friend's life, It does have something to do with me!" She socked Sidney in the jaw. Sidney's hands went to the sore spot and when she pulled them back there was blood on her fingertips.

"If you do this, I want you gone. I don't want you anywhere near Sirius ever again." She said her voice full of hatred and warning. She walked away from Sidney and headed towards the Griffindor tower. She came in quietly and saw James and Remus leaning over Sirius, who was bent over. He had his head in his hands and heartbreaking sobs were racking his shoulders.

"It'll be alright Sirius. We're all here for you." James told him firmly as he wrapped his arms around Sirius's opposite shoulder.

Lily knew that this wasn't going to turn out well. When James called Sirius by his proper name in that tone, well let's just say it sent shivers down her spine.

"What's the damage?" She said coming up next to Remus noticing the sad look in his eyes.

"Sirius doesn't believe that Sidney wouldn't do this to him."

"She's giving the baby up." She said in a hushed tone being careful that Sirius didn't hear her.

"You're joking,"

"I wish I could tell you yes,"

"Do you know when?"

"Didn't get a chance, I hit her and told her to stay away if she really did go through with this, and I think she will."

"Damn." He said shaking his head in disbelief.

"Lil-Lily," Sirius said trying to draw some breath.

"Yeah honey,"

"Wha-What'd s-she say?"

"I didn't go honey,"

"Yes- you did. I-I know you did,"

"She didn't tell me anything that you didn't already know," She said in a quiet, calming tone as she brought his head against her stomach in a hug.

"Don't let her do this Lily." She was started when he suddenly pulled her close to him. He said breaking down the worst anyone could, his entire body was racking with sobs. Lily could almost feel his heartbreaking as he pressed his head deeper into her stomach and pulling her closer to him.

"Why don't you guys go on up to bed. You both look tired."

"You can't get up in the bedroom-" Remus started being the caring guy he was.

"He's not sleeping tonight. If he does I'll leave him on the couch."

"Goodnight Lily, night Sirius,"

"G'night babe." He put his hand down on Sirius's back. "It'll be alright man, whatever happens."

Sirius just nodded. Lily looked at him with a caring face. It couldn't of been easy for James to see Sirius so distraught either.

"Goodnight James," James walked towards the staircase slowly giving Lily one last look. "I'll take care of him."

James went up the stairs. Sirius still hadn't stopped.

"Hey Sirius, It's going to be okay."

"No," He said shaking his head slightly.

"We're going to take care of you, James, Remus and me. We love you," She sighed and whispered into his ear. "You don't need Sidney."

"Yes-Yes I- do," He started trying to draw some breath." I need her- and Lin" He stopped she knew if he said it out loud it would probably kill him if this entire thing didn't and Lily quit her interrogation. Seeing her rock like this made her already aching heart break.

"I'm here honey, I'm right here."

"D-Don't leave me Lily- I'm sorry I screwed up-"

"I'm never leaving you alone Sirius-never."