Disclaimer: I hate this things If I owned KH I would have someone writing this things for me
Parings: Sora/Riku Cloud/Squall (for now I think)
Rating: PG-13 for now rating to change
Warnings: This fic is a YAOI and in case the paring didn't give it away it means male/male relationships don't like don't read. Really very simple. It's also an AU okay. Well having said that enjoy the story.
A/N: Hi all how's it going? Good I hope. I just wanted to let you know I'll be changing the rating from PG-13 to R pretty soon. Not because of anything sexually graphic yet but more because of the themes I'll introduce later on. It's really no big deal, I'm just doing this for my own sake so I feel like I gave fair warning and I won't feel like I'm corrupting anyone. So in future chapters, if at any point, something makes you uncomfortable, whether it be the contents of certain ideas or any sexual scenes just stop reading. Any lemons that appear in this fic I'll clearly label and make them one chapter entries so they may be skipped if anyone feels uncomfortable reading them or I might post them on a different sight that allows NC-17 fics and type a less graphic one here, either way I'll give notice. I'm doing this because when I first started reading Yaoi's I actually skipped the lemons, because I wasn't comfortable with that yet, I got over eventually. So I'm just giving anyone who might feel the same way I did the chance to skip certain things. That's all ^ _ ^
Thanks to: Only Haunted, yep evil for at least one more chapter, then they will have gone through enough. Heather Christi, thanks, though I'm not too sure where I'm going to end up with those people. Grey Elven-Eyes, "awesomness on paper" Damn! Thank you ^ _ ^. Animegirl171, Not sure yet maybe both (lo) o.0 I think I'm serious about that. PrincessSwifty, I know I feel so bad for Riku unfortunately, Jin-kun insist on angst. RcA, yes we need people to remind Sora of that. Lady Geagua, err yeah I think you did confuse it with another fic, no biggie I do that a lot too. And I was actually thinking of writing the play as an original fic but it still need a lot of work, we'll see how it goes. VamssAmby10210, Thanks I'm glad you liked the Cloud/Squall part. Zelphie. I'll definitely try to be creative, and as for the Sora/Riku together we're getting there. Master Fluffy, Thanks and Sora/Riku together very soon promise. Jade queen of the Damned, (lol) "screwed about his feelings" I know poor Sora but he gets better in this chapter much, much better. Sakura N, it will definitely get hotter, but not yet, hope you like this chapter better. Eva, This is your fav fic aww (gets teary eyes and huggles reviewer) Thanks. And Don't worry I don't see the end until much later. esaure, Your stalking my fic? Thanks I feel honored ^ _ ^ April-Chan, Thanks a bunch, hope you like the chapter.
"Hello"
Tidus looked up and stepped forward away from the curtain and saw Squall sitting on the edge of the stage. His feet were dangling at the edge and he was leaning back on his elbows looking up at him, in a very peculiar way that made Tidus want to run.
"Hello Squall"
Tidus said moving a little closer to him.
"Seeing as how you already know my name, can I know yours? Or is it a secret?"
Tidus looked down at Squall who was lightly smiling up at him. Why was he suppose to not like him again? Sora. Right Sora didn't like him so neither did he.
"It's Tidus"
"Tye?"
Squall asked. He knew perfectly well who Tidus was and he had also heard his friends call him Tye sometime. Tidus narrowed his eyes.
"No. Tidus"
He replied coldly. Squall groaned inwardly. He had just made Tidus angry and he didn't even know why. Perhaps he had taken liberty with that whole Tye thing.
"Were you looking for someone?"
Tidus remembered why he was there in the first place and nodded.
"Yeah. Have you seen Sora? I was told he'd be here."
Squall considered lying to Tidus but decided no good would come of it and just told him the truth.
"He was here, he left right before you got here though"
Tidus's eye light up at hearing that, maybe he could still catch up to Sora, before he had to go to soccer practice.
"Great! Well I'll see ya!"
"I wouldn't go after him if I were you"
Squall said raising his voice, since Tidus had already begun to leave. Tidus stopped in mid step and turned to face Squall, his brow furrowed .
"Why not?"
Squall swung his legs on to the stage and stood up gracefully, walking slowly towards Tidus. Tidus noticed how Squall moved with smooth, cool almost liquid like precision. Squall stopped in front of him. Tidus gulped. What was it about Squall that made his so nervous? Did he even want to know?
"He said he needed some time to think by himself. Seems like he has quite a few things to work out."
Tidus nodded looking up into Squalls stormy eyes, not able to break his gaze.
"You like him don't you?"
Tidus flinched and took a small step back. He was surprised Squall could tell, was he that obvious? He wanted to lie to him deny what he felt for Sora, but looking into his eyes, he found himself not able to do so. Nor did he think he wanted to lie.
"Yes"
He said a little more than a whisper and took a step back. He needed to get space between him and Squall. But for every step he took back Squall took another forward, not taking his eyes off of him. Searching, searching his eyes for something. Tidus squirmed under his gaze. He took another step back and his back hit a wall, he was trapped.
"You're fighting a lost cause with Sora. Did you know that?"
Tidus closed his eyes and sighed sliding down along the wall all the way down to the floor. Squall stood there blinking at the spot on the wall were Tidus's head had just been. He looked down at the deflated boy at his feet.
"I know"
Tidus whispered. He knew he shouldn't really be going after Sora. Sora was his best friend and no matter how much he seemed to like him at the moment, he knew it wouldn't last. It was just a small crush something definitely not worth pursuing and loosing his friendship to Sora over. Actually what he felt was less than a crush. Kairi had been right, he thought he was in love with Sora only because he had been the first boy he had ever been attracted to. When his want to be with him came more from the fact he needed someone to relate to what he was going through, than from actually wanting to be with him. Funny how things suddenly seemed so clear at two o'clock in the morning, while trying to stay awake to finish your Lit paper, while munching on a chocolate bar and a cup of coffee in your hand.
Squall kneeling in front of him, brought his attention back to present time. Squall looked at Tidus and cocked his head to the right.
"Than why chase him?"
Tidus stared back at squall wondering why he cared.
"I'm not chasing him. It just... not any more anyway."
Squall was happy to hear that, it seemed like Tidus was getting over a small crush or perhaps it was just infatuation. No. Infatuated was what he currently was with the boy in front of him or at least that's what he told himself. He couldn't understand what it was about Tidus that made him feel... feel something he shouldn't but was not fighting.
His attention was brought back to Tidus when said boy exhaled slowly through his somewhat parted lips and then proceeded to lick his lips. Squall wondered if Tidus's lips were as soft as they looked. Only one way to find out.
Tidus tensed when he saw Squall leaning towards him. Looking into Tidus's vulnerable eyes, Squalls conscious decided to kick in. Telling him it probably wasn't the best idea to take advantage of Tidus when he seemed so ... broken. Squall sighed damning his righteousness and stood up.
Tidus followed Squall every move as he stood with his eyes. For a second there he thought Squall was going to kiss him. Or perhaps he just hoped he would. Tidus blinked when a hand was thrust in front of him and took it, this time with no hesitation.
"Come on do you need a ride home?"
Squall asked pulling Tidus up, mindful of not pull too hard like he had last time.
"No I have practice, but thanks anyway"
Squall nodded. Tidus gave him a small smile before he left. Squall stared after him, even after he had left, the same say Cloud had also left through. He rubbed his temple wondering what the hell was going on with him.
"Hey Leon! Ready to start casting?"
Squall frowned at the name and turned to see a small dark haired girl, climbing up the stair and through the curtain towards him, holding two clipboards in her hand. He had completely forgotten he was casting today. That had been the reason he had been there in the first place. He was now glad neither Sora nor Tidus had needed a ride.
"Hello! Are you listening Leon? Are you ready?"
She asked waving a hand in front of his face.
"The name is Squall, Fie"
He said ignoring her question. The girl smiled up at him.
"I'll stop calling you Leon when you stop calling me Fie"
Squall smile and shook his head at his friend Yuffie. Another person who he actually considered a friend. She had been his friend since eighth grade, when they had been in a play together, he hadn't gotten the part he wanted and had made crap of the part he got. While everyone else had praised his performance, she had walked right up to him and told him, just because he had gotten a part he didn't' want did not in any way give him the right to make shit of the part he had gotten and ruin the rest of the play. She had been honest and he liked honest people.
"So can I bring the first people in or are you not ready?"
"Go ahead I'm ready"
He said walking to the edge of the stage and jumping off, turning to help Yuffie off by offering her his hand.
"Thank you"
She said taking his hand and hopping down. She straighten up and handed one of the clipboards to Squall.
"Here I knew you'd forget it"
He took the clipboard and looked down at the names of the people who were auditioning while Yuffie took off to open one of the doors to the theater. She stopped halfway and turned to Squall.
"Squallie?"
She said slowly looking at the boy, who was glaring daggers at her for using that name.
"Did you um get you Ashazel?"
Squall only nodded and her face fell.
"Oh great, now I have to shoo all the Ashazels away?"
She shrugged and skipped the rest of the way humming something. Squall took a seat in the front row, bringing his hand to pinch the bridge of his nose, this was going to be a long evening.
Sora entered his room dropping his back pack on the floor. He walked to the center of the room and stood there for a few seconds hands on hips. He turned slowly in circle taking in every little thing in his room.
He sighed and shook his head. He couldn't be there everything in room reminded him of Riku. Everything from the pictures to the video games they played together, to the dreamcatcher hanging on wall at the head of his bed. Which Riku had made for him the first year he had gone of to camp and Sora couldn't go with him, because he had been a year too young.
He exited his room and headed to the garage of his house he needed to leave, he needed fresh air to clear his head. He scribbled down a quick note to his parents and took his keys form the key rack and took the remote for the garage door. He walked out side opening the door with the remote. He entered the garage dropping the remote on a table cluttered with boxes and tools no one ever used and snatched up a black helmet form a hook on the wall, putting it on. He walked towards his Onyx Suzuki GSX 750 Katana and hopped on it.
He really didn't use his bike much, he had seen it and had fallen in love. He was pretty sure he was more in love with the idea of owning the bike than actually riding it. Though he did ride it quite a bit, but only for short trips. He usually let Riku drive while he wrapped his arms around him. Great even his bike reminded him of Riku. Was there anything that did not?
Frustrated he turned on the engine and zoomed out of the garage onto the street. Quickly passing houses, entering the outskirts of the city in twenty minutes later. He turned into an almost unseen dirt road, invisible to all those who didn't know it was there. Which meant everyone except him and Riku.
He slowed down a bit on the dirt path if it could be call a path at all, he slowed even more when the lake came into view. He stopped and turned the engine off bringing his feet down to the ground keeping his balance. He took his helmet off shaking his hair out.
Sora sat on his bike hugging his helmet looking out at the lake. The setting from his dream, except this time he wasn't dreaming and if he didn't think carefully he could really loose Riku.
He hopped of his bike, kicking down the bike stand, hanging his helmet on one of the handles. He sighed walking slowly to the oak tree standing a few feet from, the lake. Sora sat at the foot of the tree his back against the rough bark. He folded his hands behind his head and closed his eyes. Enjoying the soft breeze caressing his skin. For a second there was nothing except him and the breeze, for a second he forgot everything. All that existed was a calming feeling that slowly brought him to sleep.
Someone was playing with his hair, he could tell by the gentle tug and pull, but he was too lazy to open his eyes to see who it was. Another tug and pull and he cracked his sleepy eyes open.
He looked up at the silver haired boy straddling his waist. Sora was still sitting down back against the tree hands behind his head. He looked up amused as Riku kept doing something to his hair, completely unaware he was being watched. Sora didn't mind at the moment he was happy just looking up at Riku.
"What are you doing?"
Riku wasn't startle to suddenly have an audience. He smiled and looked down at Sora not taking his hands away from his hair.
"I'm putting a flower halo in you hair"
Sora chuckled.
"Why?"
He asked bringing his hands from behind his head to wrap them possessively around his silver haired demon.
"So you'll look like an angel and its proof. It my proof that I love you"
Sora smiled warmly feeling his heart doing summersaults.
"There"
Riku said having finished bringing his hands down to his sides. Sora looked over Riku's shoulder and saw the sun setting. His expression turned a bit sad and serious.
" I love you but, I wish I could prove I love you. How can I prove I love you? Can I?
Riku gave him a playful smirk
"You can"
Sora turned his gaze back to Riku.
"How?"
He was eager to prove he loved him. Riku smiled bringing his right hand up to his face and tapping his index finger on his lips in quiet thought. He smirked and looked over his shoulder onto the lake and turned back to Sora. He moved his hand back down.
"Walk on water"
He said with a playful smile still on his lips. Sora smiled and held Riku even closer. It was obvious Riku was only teasing him.
"Well even though this is a dream I don't ..."
"WHOA!"
Riku said holding up his hands.
"How do you know this is a dream? And your dream for that matter it could be mine?"
Sora laughed and Riku pouted crossing his arms over his chest.
"This is my dream I know it. For one thing and one thing only. The sunset. Every time I dream of you it's always during sunset, because I love the way your hair picks up the colors of the sunsets and turns this amazing lilac color."
He said reaching up to touch Rikus hair. Riku lean into the touch.
"Okay. So no walking on water?"
"Well like I was saying even though this is a dream, it's impossible to walk on water so..."
Sora said pausing eyes wide in surprise. He looked up at Riku as if something had just dawn on him and he smiled.
"So I guess you'll just have to believe when I say I love you, that's enough proof"
Riku smiled and leaned down, bringing them, touching forehead to forehead nose to nose.
"Just like that? So simple, I thought you said things weren't that simple"
He whispered, Sora looked into Riku's eyes.
"I guess some things just ... are"
He said moving his hand from Riku's waist to join the other on the back of his head, bringing him closer, kissing his lips. Lips which were soft and warm like the soft breeze he felt on his face.
Sora opened his eyes to a beautiful sight. A breath taking sun set made of soft purple and read hues, the lake was shimmering brightly and a satisfied smile tugged at the corners of his mouth. He knew what he had to do. Riku was his best friend had always been would always be, but through the course of time things had started to change between them. In very slow, subtle ways, but he change was there.
He was no longer afraid nor was he confused. He wanted this new change, he wanted to be more than Riku's friend and most importantly he wanted Riku to be with him. It was like Squall had said, he couldn't or more like wouldn't bring himself to think of anyone else with Riku. If anything like that happened he knew he would feel like he had just lost apart of himself forever. Riku was the one part of him which made him complete.
He stretched out his somewhat numb limbs and yawned. He stood up a smile still playing on his lips. He stood watching the sunset a bit longer before he gave a victory yell and did summersault, running to his bike when he came out of it.
He couldn't believe how blind he had been. All he had to do now was admit to Riku how he felt. He was so sure Riku felt the same way. He now realized the reason Riku had wanted him to decide for things was because he had in fact been afraid to be rejected by him. That of course would never happen. Sora mounted his bike slipping his helmet on and rode off.
Riku sighed for what seemed to be the millionth time in the last couple of hours. He had come home after coach cid had told him to. He had been set on talking to Sora, but he hadn't been home. So now he laid on his bed staring up at the ceiling with his arms folded beneath his head.
There was a light knock on the door before it was cracked opened and his mom peeked her head in.
"It's open"
He said in a very monotone voice.
"Dinner's ready"
His mom said stepping into his room looking down at her only child.
"I'm no hungry"
Riku answered not bothering to look at her. At that she frowned and crossed her arms.
"That's what you said yesterday and the day before that and the day before that. Riku is everything alright?"
Riku only continued to look up as if determined to memorize every inch of cobalt ceiling. When he was actually surprised she had noticed. Considering they weren't around much. His parents were very busy people and were not home much, but Riku had never once resented them for that. He was fine with that, he was only surprised she had noticed there was something wrong from only watching him, than actually talking to him.
Not that he didn't talk to his parents, he and his parents had never had any problems communicating. Though due to his current situation, he hadn't found it in himself to talk much lately.
"I'm fine mom, nothing's wrong"
She walked towards his bed and sat down. Riku felt pressure on the bed and looked down to see his mom sitting next to him.
"Really than would you mind telling me why you haven't spoken to Sora in the last few days?"
She asked knowingly.
Bulls eye. Riku thought humorlessly. Not only did she know there was something wrong, she knew exactly what. He could almost swear his mom had some sort of mind reading power. Like almost every mom.
"I ... it's nothing"
She sighed.
"Riku I know your father and I are pretty busy most of the time, but that doesn't meant we wouldn't put our work aside if you needed to talk to us. You come first always have, always will. Understand?"
Riku nodded, he understood he just wasn't sure they would understand him.
"Tell me what's wrong. Did you and Sora have a fight?"
Riku sighed at the mention of Sora's name and closed his eyes.
"Not exactly"
He sat up suddenly, opening his eyes staring into mirror aqua marine eyes belonging to his mother. She wanted to know than he would tell her.
"I kissed Sora"
His mother blinked and sat silently trying to process what her son had just told her.
"You like boys?"
Riku frowned.
"I like Sora"
His mom smile sadly at him and placed a hand on his shoulder.
"Does he not return you feelings?"
Riku blinked a little shocked.
"You're okay with that, me liking Sora?
She smiled at Riku pulling him into a warm hug. Riku was surprised but hugged her back a small smiled playing on his lips. They pulled apart.
"Riku you are my son your father and I love you unconditionally. That means no matter what. Who you choose to like, or love, or be with does in no way chance the fact that we love you. It never will."
She finished reaching up to push back a stray strand of silver hair, he had inherited from his father. Riku smiled and nodded, it felt very good knowing his parents would love him no matter what. He knew that of course but hearing it felt better.
"Now tell me does Sora not return your feelings?"
Riku closed his eyes flopping back down on his bed, startling his mom a bit.
"No and yes, he is so confused"
Confused? She didn't understand why Sora would be confused wasn't he the one who was "out"
"Why?"
"He's not sure what he feels for me. He's not sure if he wants to be friends or more"
His mother nodded trying to understand the situation.
"And you want to be more?"
Riku nodded throwing a hand over his eyes.
"Have you told him you feel this way?"
Riku shook his head. He pulled the hand away from his face tucking both hands under his head again. His mom sighed teenagers.
"Why not?"
"Because Mom you have to understand how Sora works. He's ... I'm not sure how to explain this. If I told him I wanted to be more than his friend he would comply in a heartbeat, just like that with out giving it a second thought. But only to see me happy, because he loves me as a friend. I don't want that. I want him to figure out his feelings for me with out the influence of mine for him."
His mother blinked not believing what had just come out of her son's mouth. She recovered and smile proudly at the very mature young man Riku had become.
"Riku you are the most selfless person in world honey."
"Yeah well I think I might have just ruined our friendship"
She leaned down and reached out with her hand to caress his cheek taking his chin gently in her hand, starring firmly into his eyes.
"Sora's a smart boy Riku"
She said and kissed his forehead, standing up. Riku looked up at her and for the firs time in three days he felt calm. Hw knew it was silly but he felt as if his mom had just told him everything would be alright.
In a way he was right, Riku's mom had seen both boys growing up together from the ages of four and five until now. She had seen as their friendship had started to change in very subtle ways. The looks the hugs, the protectiveness they had developed towards one another that went a bit beyond friendly or brotherly. They might not have thought anything of it, but to those with more wisdom it looked like they were growing even closer.
That was the reason she had not been too surprised to know her son had stronger feelings than friendship for Sora. In fact she had been more surprised they hadn't realized their feelings sooner.
"Hey mom, what are you guys doing tomorrow?"
Riku asked hoping, that maybe they could come and watch his game. He hadn't spend much time with his parents and even though he didn't mind they weren't' around much, he sometimes missed talking to them.
"Did you want to do something?"
His mother asked smiling.
"Kind of"
"Well we have to go in the office, but we'll be back by eleven than we can do whatever you want honey"
He was a bit sad by eleven his game would probably be over. No matter they would still have the rest of the day.
"Okay it's a date"
She nodded and started to leave and stopped turning around. Remembering why she had been there in the first place.
"Look I'll let you off the hook about dinner, but tomorrow I'll cook you a very, very big breakfast before I leave and you have to promise me to eat every single little thing"
Riku nodded smiling and she left his room.
Riku stood up and walked towards the window facing Sora's. Sora's room was pitch dark, which meant Sora wasn't home yet. He sighed. His mother was right Sora was smart he would figure things out . All he had to do was wait. At the moment he needed to get some rest. Glancing at the clock hanging from his wall told him it was only nine. He was tired though and he needed all his strength for tomorrow's game. He walked to his bed turning of the light before flopping down on his bed not bothering to take his shoes or clothes off.
Sora pulled into the garage turning off the engine, he hopped off his bike, took his helmet off hanging it back on it's hook and snatched up the previously discarded remote. He ran out of the garage closing the door.
He walked into his house and threw his keys and the remote on a corner table and made his way towards the stairs.
"Sora is that you?"
He heard his mom, and stopped in the middle of the way to his room.
"Yeah mom. I'm home"
"Where were you?"
She asked now standing at the foot of the stairs.
"Uh I just needed some fresh air"
He answered wanting to run up to his room, he looked down at his mom wondering if the interrogation was over.
"Is everything okay?"
He nodded. She smile up at him.
"Alright. Have a good night"
"Night"
He said and started running up the starts again.
"Oh! Your father and I are going shopping tomorrow would you like to come with us and get some new clothes"
She said finishing her sentence yelling, since Sora had ran down the hall to his room.
"Can't Riku has a game tomorrow."
He yelled from inside his room. His mother smile and shook her head, those two seemed like they were joined at the hip.
Sora closed the door and leaned against it panting. Finally. He thought and walked towards the window facing Riku's room. He looked out the window and his face fell. Riku's lights were off, which meant he was already sleeping. He glanced at his clock, it was nine thirty. He sighed and stepped away from the window. Riku did have a game tomorrow and he always went to sleep early when he had an early game. Saying he wanted to be completely rested.
Sora had wanted to tell him how he felt. He smiled flopping down on his bed.
"Oh well I'll tell him before the game tomorrow"
He thought out loud. He closed his eyes and turned his head burring his face in his pillow. He turned his head to the side saw something sticking out of his pillow. He pulled it out and smiled. It was the shirt Riku had let him borrow that night. Sora smiled he had been sleeping with that shirt under his pillow for the past three days, because it brought him comfort just like Riku did. He hugged the shirt to him and closed his eyes letting himself finally fall into a comforting state of sleep. Knowing everything would be alright in the morning.
Jin: (scoffs) Yeah right and pigs will fly.
Cardel: Shut up. Okay so next chapter will be more angsty but after that everything will be a-okay.
Demak: Yay! and at least I got some fluff in.
Cardel: Yeah Riku was a bit OC, but it was Sora's dream. So I hope everyone's happy Sora finally figured out what we all knew.
Jin: True that was getting a tad annoying. Now I'm gonna go and steal Sora's bike. Excuse me
Cardel: Oh right remember I said he didn't have a car I never said he didn't have a bike. (lol) I know absolutely nothing about bikes or cars by the way, so any sort of vehicle that appears in here it taken from my brother's endless piles of car magazines and his never ending babble about his RSX (that's the car Riku drives here)
Demak: I like that bike too Jin wait up.
Cardel: (shakes head) Muses. Hope you liked this chapter. Review please.
