Disclaimer: Kingdom Hearts doesn't belong to me.
It might be confusing at times, I don't know.
THE fears
There's a hole in his soul. He's not entirely sure how or why but there is and it won't go away.
He's used to the pains. He feels them with each step he takes and he's so used to them that he barley takes notice of them anymore. But only almost because of course he feels them.
All the time.
How could he not? They are his lone companions and he brings them wherever he goes and he feels glad that he's not alone at times.
But he is alone. All the time.
However, he's not the only person that's alone in the many worlds, even though he wishes that it was so because then he would be the only one that would suffer and then no one else would have to feel the pain. Everyone is alone sometimes and everyone despairs even though everyone else is oblivious to it.
The fighter, the girl, the friend, the flower girl, the ninja, the devil, the soldier, the lost ones.
Everyone, everyone, everyone. Everything.
Everyone suffers because of their memories and they try to hide from them.
Everyone has their own personal grieves, sufferings, pains and fears. He's not ready to admit it, but he has those fears too. The fears to lose her. But then again, he's already lost her and when he closes his eyes he loses her over and over again in his mind. Losing someone is the worst thing that can happen but as long as he keeps the pain, she's still with him in some way. It reminds him.
Yet the hole in his soul grows with each day and soon he'll be without his miserable soul and he'll just be a shell.
A shell to keep everything out.
A shell to keep everyone out.
A shell that is not meant to keep something safe but to keep the entire world out.
His mind is haunted. His mind is damaged and can't be fixed. The words that were left unspoken are the words that his mind repeats over and over and over.
But the words are unnecessary and he doesn't utter them.
And he never will.
