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Disclaimer: Own Harry Potter, I do not.
Warning: None. Oh, except for the mad hawt boy on boy sex. Did I forget to mention that? Oops. Okay, well, um, it's SLASH. How's that?
Rating: M – As much as I've tried to avoid sex in this story, well, that wouldn't be very realistic would it? Once again, nice bold warning markers if you'd like to skim over it.
Another shorter one. But somehow I don't think you guys will mind. ;)
Also, I think I have been using the term 'screw' for most of this story. Very American of me, I just realized. So in this chapter I think I start using 'shag' instead. Sorry if my writing seems inconsistent in those kind of respects. I'm not British and I'm not very good at pretending I am.
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Chapter Six: Revelations (Part Deux)
Remus watched Dumbledore's retreating form from his position lying on a bed in the hospital wing. He still couldn't quite wrap his mind around what he had been told. Sirius had told Snape. He just couldn't believe it. His very life depended on his ability to keep his lycanthropy a secret and Sirius was just going around telling random Slytherins? Did he really hate him that much?
As he was trying to process everything Dumbledore had told him, the door opened slightly, revealing the bespeckled head of one James Potter. Seeing Remus was awake, he cautiously stepped inside, looking rather nervous for some reason. Remus realized why a moment later when he was followed by Sirius.
"How you feeling, mate?" James asked, with the wary tone of someone who's testing the waters before taking the plunge.
"Pretty much the same as always." Remus answered faintly, pointedly avoiding Sirius' gaze.
"Listen, Remus, I…" Sirius began, his voice filled with emotion.
"Don't." Remus cut him off, softly. "Please, just don't. I don't have the energy."
Sirius blinked a few times and opened his mouth as if to speak but then changed his mind. Instead, he merely turned around and headed for the door, leaving Remus and James alone in uncomfortable silence. James looked at the door in uncertainty.
"Go ahead." Remus told him. "Go after him."
James stood in silent debate for another moment, then nodded and made for the door.
"You know," he said, turning back for a second in the doorway, "he really feels terrible about what happened. You know how Sirius gets, sometimes he just doesn't think things through before he jumps into them."
"I know." Remus replied with a sigh.
Like jumping into to bed with me, he added silently, I bet he feels terrible about that decision too.
James gave him a last sympathetic smile and then disappeared out the door.
It took him almost an hour, but he finally managed to find Sirius slumped against an old oak down by the lake.
"Hey." James greeted him.
When there was no reply, he took a seat next to Sirius. Sirius didn't even try to hide his tears. He was too far gone.
"I know Moony is upset," James began tentatively, after a moment, "but he'll get over it. Just give him some time."
"You don't understand!" Sirius burst out in a half-sob.
"No, I don't." James agreed, looking at his friend in utter confusion. "Why don't you explain it to me?"
"I can't." Sirius said softly, almost pleading.
"You made a mistake, mate. It was stupid, sure. But no one got hurt. Remus is okay. I'm okay. Hell, even Snivellus is okay. So what's your problem? You're worried Remus won't forgive you?" He asked.
"He won't." Sirius replied without hesitation.
James sighed.
"He feels betrayed. Who wouldn't? But he'll get over it." He said.
"You don't understand." Sirius repeated once again, shaking his head.
He looked up at James for the first time since he had sat down.
"I'm in love with him, Prongs." He admitted, almost inaudibly.
James was understandably taken aback.
"You're what?" He asked, hoping he had somehow misunderstood.
"You heard what I said." Sirius returned, looking back down at the ground.
"But you can't be… gay." James said, choking slightly on the last word. "You've had more girls in your bed than any other bloke I know."
"Yeah, well, you said yourself I hit a dry spell this year." Sirius muttered. "You just didn't realize it was because Remus and I have been together since the beginning of summer."
"Bloody hell." James breather. "Since the beginning of summer? And you were living together! Oh God. That means all summer you were… Oh God."
"Well it doesn't matter anymore." Sirius cut in, bitterly. "I fucked everything up."
"You mean this thing with Snape?" James asked, trying to focus on the conversation at hand.
"No. Even before that." Sirius told him, wiping away at his frustrated tears. "It got too hard, lying to everyone. I thought it would be easier to just end it. But it wasn't. It was a hundred times worse."
Sirius broke off into another dry sob. James had absolutely no idea what to do. He'd never been so uncomfortable in all his life.
"I… erm… I just remembered I'm supposed to be meeting Lily." He stuttered after a moment, desperately looking for a way to extricate himself from this situation.
When there was no response from Sirius, he stood up and, after a few minutes of awkward hesitation, he set off back to the castle.
Sirius couldn't blame him really. He hadn't meant to dump everything on him at once like that. James was a creature of comfort. He had to be introduced to change slowly – given time to adjust. Besides, what did he really expect James to say? The way he was feeling, there wasn't anything anyone could say to make him feel better except Remus – and that wasn't going to happen.
But he couldn't just sit there feeling sorry for himself either. He needed to apologize. Even if Remus didn't want to listen, he still had things that needed to be said. He stood up, making his mind to go back and see Remus. He rubbed his eyes with the sleeve of his cloak and took a deep breath. He was going to make things right again. No matter what.
When he reached Remus' room, he took another deep breath before pushing open the door and stepping inside. Remus was in the same position as he had left him, lying on a hospital bed towards the center of the room. He glanced up when Sirius entered the room. He didn't exactly look thrilled to see him.
"I know you don't want to talk to me." Sirius said quickly, before Remus could tell him to leave. "But the way I figure it, you're stuck in that bed. So there's nothing you can do except hear me out. I don't expect you to forgive me. In fact, I'm not even asking you to. I just need you to listen."
Remus was silent for a moment, then he nodded slowly.
"I'm sorry." Sirius began simply, taking a step towards the bed. "And not just for this stupid stunt with Snape. For everything. I never should have broken up with you."
"Then why did you?" Remus asked softly.
"I was scared." Sirius answered truthfully. "And I was frustrated. You not wanting to tell anyone about us made me feel like you were rejecting me, like you didn't love me the same way that I love you."
"You were the one that said you didn't love me." Remus reminded him, tears in his eyes.
"I know." Sirius said, hanging his head. "I just… I don't know. I guess I thought that if you didn't think I loved you, it would be easier for you to move on somehow. I know it sounds stupid now. But the way you were talking… you made it sound like you stumbled into this without meaning to and you just didn't know how to get out. I guess I thought I was fixing everything."
"That does sound stupid." Remus offered, but his expression had softened somewhat.
After a brief moment, however, his face hardened once again.
"So what in the world possessed you to tell Snape?" He questioned bitterly.
"I don't know." Sirius answered. "I was upset, he was bugging me… I mean, he just kept talking about you and finding out your secret and… I don't know. I thought it would be funny."
"Oh yeah, real hilarious, Padfoot." Remus returned sarcastically.
"I know. I'm sorry." Sirius said sincerely.
He moved closer to Remus, taking a seat on the edge of the bed. He reached a hand out to Remus' face, but Remus pulled away from his grasp.
"It's not that easy, Sirius." He said, looking away. "You can't just day you're sorry and make everything okay again. You really hurt me." He stopped abruptly, his voice breaking.
"I trusted you completely." He continued after a moment. "With my biggest secret – with my heart, even. And you betrayed that trust. How am I supposed to just forgive that?"
"Just tell me what I can do to make it right." Sirius begged, his eyes brimming with tears. "I'll do anything. Please. I love you."
He leaned in towards Remus once more.
"I love you." He whispered softly.
He braced his hands against the headboard of the bed, on either side of Remus, pinning the other boy beneath him.
"Don't." Remus breathed.
But Sirius didn't listen. He closed the distance between them and captured Remus' mouth in a passionate kiss. Almost against his will, Remus felt himself return the kiss with equal passion, moaning softly as they finally parted.
"I love you." Sirius repeated once again, his breath already beginning to sound heavy.
He began to undo the buttons on Remus shirt, exploring the boy's chest with his hands as he kissed him again. Remus attempted half-heartedly to push him off, but he was helpless from the effects of the recent full moon and the weight of Sirius' body on top of his.
"Sirius. Please." He moaned, making a final attempt remove himself from Sirius' grasp.
Here comes the 'M' Rating…
He stopped suddenly, however, when he felt Sirius' hand slide below the waistband of his pants, sliding further down and running a tentative hand along Remus' hard shaft. He kissed Remus harder this time, beginning to move his hand back and forth along Remus' erection. Remus gasped as Sirius picked up the pace, kissing the side of his neck up to his earlobe.
"I love you." He whispered again, nibbling slightly on Remus' earlobe.
Remus definitely wasn't struggling anymore. Sensing from his sharp intake of breath that he was near climax, Sirius removed his hand. A slight growl erupted from Remus' throat at this loss of contact. Sirius smiled, kissing the boy lightly on the lips before moving lower, trailing kisses along his chest and finally to the tip of his cock. Then he took the whole thing into his mouth sucking once, sharply, eliciting a scream of ecstasy from Remus as the warm juice spilled out of him into Sirius' mouth.
Okay, safe again.
Remus fell back against the headboard with a sigh of pleasure. Sirius leaned back as well, snuggling into Remus' chest.
"Forgive me?" Sirius murmured into Remus' chest.
Remus smiled despite himself, enjoying the feeling of being in Sirius arms for the first time since summer.
"Fine." He said with an exaggerated sigh.
He glanced down at Sirius with a slight smirk.
"Besides," he added, "it's my turn."
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Well, that's chapter six! So, um, please review! Flattery will get you everywhere with me. And I do mean everywhere. ;)
Chapter seven… Lily gets an eyeful. Plus James has trouble coming to terms with his recent revelation…
