Later in the evening, Joey left her home. Actually, she had secretly slipped out of her home. Neither Bessie nor her father had known that Joey had snuck out.
Joey has been sneaking out for the past two weeks. She has been going to the same place over and over again. She has been going to the adoption agency to see her baby boy. She knew that her family and friends would have disapproved of this. Therefore, she had to keep this a individual secret.
Joey loved being with her baby. It made her happy that she was a mother. The only problem was Joey knew that an estrange family would want to adopt her baby soon. The family, who originally wanted to adopt her baby at the hospital, had unpredictably changed their mind. Therefore, the baby went straight to the adoption agency.
Fortunately, for Joey, she was legally able to name her baby. Even though her father criticized it, Joey decided to name her son. Joey named her son Joshua, which meant Gods saves. Joey not only knew that her baby would need salvation, but also she would need saving too. Joey knew if she did not speak up now, it would be too late.
Mrs. Bedingfield, Joshua's social worker, walked down the hallway to find Joey sitting down.
"Joey, what are you doing here?" Mr. Bedingfield wondered.
"I came to see Joshua." Joey declared.
Mrs. Bedingfield took a seat next to Joey and said, "Oh, honey... I knew I shouldn't have done this."
"Done what?" Joey pondered.
"I've shouldn't have let you seen your baby over these past weeks… It was not professional of me." Mrs. Bedingfield reviewed.
"Why not? I mean you're job is to find a home for my baby and until then I don't see the harm for me just visiting my own son." Joey defended.
"But you're getting way too attached." Mrs. Bedingfield reminded.
"My attachment to my son is none of your business." Joey prompted.
Mrs. Bedingfield took a deep breath and said, "You're son isn't here."
"What?… Where is he?" Joey panicked.
"Well, he's with his family… I told you it was my job to find your son the best family I could find. And I did. I put your baby in the best environment I could have found." Mrs. Bedingfield recapitulated.
Joey was still in shock, "Can you tell me where he is. I just want to see him one more time... Just one more time."
Mrs. Bedingfield shook her head, "I can't do that. I'm sorry."
Joey did not believe this was happening. She could believe that it was too late. Joey knew that this time was coming, but she did nothing to prevent it. She felt so depressed and mortified.
Joey took a deep breath and said, "Well, can I at least write him a letter?"
Mrs. Bedingfield said, "Of course you can."
Joey sat down ready to write the letter. This was so weird to her. How was she suppose explain everything in one letter? How was she supposed to tell her son that even though she put him up for adoption, she still loves him? How was she supposed to apologize for something like this in one letter? Needless to say, Joey tried to write everything in one letter:
Dear Joshua,
I don't know if you will understand this. I don't know if you will ever read this but my name is Joey Potter and I'm you're real mother. I know you have another family, with another mother, which I am happy for. I hope your new mother is kind and sweet. I hope that your family loves you.
If you read this, don't feel sad. Don't feel sad that you were adopted. Because your new family is probably much better than what I could have ever provided you.
When I'm older and I am on my own, I'll come find you find. I'll look day and night; night and day. So when we are together, I can explain everything to you. Because right now you're probably confused and mad, and these emotions are is understandable.
But just so you know, you were the best thing that ever happened to me and even though I had to give you up, I will never forget you. .
I will never forget that you were my first son. Nothing will make me stop loving you. I will love forever. I hope that your life turns out fine and if you are still confused, remember that you'll be in my heart forever.
Sincerely,
Your mother, Joey Potter.
