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This is going to be all about Kori and how she feels. Im probably going to put a song and possibly a poem in it as well. Warning going to be very sad and its going to explain about Kori's broken heart. Could be OTT but I don't care. It could be OOC but again I don't care! Dedicated to my friend who like Kori hasn't had a great family life: Nicollette Luv u huni!
The Gang's all hereThe shards of my broken heart and soul are in the tears I cry.
"Hi Kori why you crying?"
"None of your business"
"If it is your business, it is my business too"
"Sweet, but I don't fall for sweet talkers just like that X, even if that surprises Richard."
"Why, what has happened to you and him, not an item anymore?"
"What do you think?"
"Why? What happened between you, only earlier today you seemed so close"
"Well, then I didn't know that Richard thinks I'm just another pretty face, I'm not in the mood Xavier leave me alone"
"Well, if you feel like talking you know where to go"
"Yup, Rachel's flat"
"No, I was implying that you could come to me"
"Possibly, now go away here is my bus"
"Looking forward to seeing you soon"
"Whatever" Kori picked her bags up again gave a small smile to Xavier then got onto the bus that would take her to Rachel and Gar. She paid the bus driver when she heard someone shout out from the back of the bus.
"Kori darling, what are you doing here? Come sit next to me, have you been crying? Oh darling come over here and tell me all about it!" Kori looked up to see Ian waving franticly at the back of the bus. When Ian saw that she had been crying he stopped waving like a maniac and came forward to help out with her bags.
"Thanks Ian, are you sure that you don't mind me sitting next to you?"
"I would be insulted if you didn't sit next to me, unless you were with Richard then obviously you would sit next to him"
"I wouldn't be so sure about that Ian. I'm sure that Richard wouldn't want to sit next to the slut that I am."
"You are not a slut darling, far from it. I'm guessing that you have had a argument with Richard then?"
"Yes, you see Richard has decided that I am just a paper cut out that he can insult then just try and cover it up with pathetic explanations"
"How did he insult you?"
"He said that I'm just a prep who is always trying to impress the boys and he just said all that because I always eat salad! He thinks I am a Kitten wanna be. I'm not a Kitten wanna be am I Ian?"
"Of course you're not Kori sweety! And if he thinks that you are all face then he doesn't know you at all! He isn't worth your precious tears Kori, he is just a jerk you can do much better then him if he thinks you're just another Barbie doll"
"Really, is he not worth crying about?"
"You know what I always say?"
"What"
"The only tears worth crying are the tears you cry from laughing too much."
"That is so sweet, thanks Ian. Well here is my stop."
"Mine too, come on I will help you with your bags. I'm guessing that you are going to Rachel's flat. You know to have some girl talk?"
"You know it Ian. Thanks again." Kori said quietly when they were outside Rachel's door.
"You are very welcome, and trust me tomorrow you will be with Richard again, stronger then you were before this all happened. Ta ta for now" Ian smiled and gave her a quick wink before walking further along the hallway and going up the next flight of stairs. Kori sighed then knocked on the door three times. She got her compact mirror out of her jean pocket and looked into it. She looked a mess. Her eyes were red and swollen and watermarks stained her cheeks. She tried to tidy her hair a little but her trembling fingers couldn't do anything right. She could feel her eyes filling up with tears again when she caught sight of the tiny bracelet wrapped around her right wrist. It was her sixteenth birthday present from Richard. One tear slowly made its way down her cheek, leaving a freshly made water stain where it had been. Rachel opened the door slowly but when she saw it was Kori she opened it fully only then did she realise that Kori had been crying and was just about to again. Kori looked up Rachel and Rachel read her eyes.
Her usual bright jade eyes had dimmed down a lot they no longer looked as if emeralds had been included into them. They didn't shimmer when the light hit her massive green orbs, the light did slightly reflect off the water that was a steady stream ready to break through her eyes and create a waterfall. Her once magnificent eyes that were now poisoned with tears looked sadly into Rachel's indigo contacts brieflybefore they found their way back to the floor as Kori slowly made her way into Rachel's living space. Rachel closed the door and looked at Kori as her tears got the best of her. Her knees buckled in on her and she let go off her bags and sunk low into the wooden floor.
Rachel quickly went up to her and gave her hugs. Kori was pouring her heart out into Rachel. All Rachel could do was hug her until she was ready to tell Rachel about what had happened. When Garfield entered he saw Rachel hugging a crying Kori in the middle of the room. He went up to them gave Kori a reassuring rub on the back then picked up all three of Kori's bags and took them to the guest room.
"Why me Rachel? Why me? Again?"
Everybody knew about the terrible past life of Kori. Her family life has been awful.
When Kori was 4Kori's mum has been ill for a while. Everybody in her family was helping their mum out. Next thing she couldn't get out of bed and couldn't eat anything so she had to be on a drip. One day Kori walked into her mum's bedroom on her birthday. Kori was going to be four today and her dad had sent her up to see her mum. When she entered she heard the familiar beeping of all the machines she walked up to her mum and held her hand. Her mum gave her hand a quick squeeze then Kori heard a long beep come out of the machine. Her mum stopped squeezing, her hand fell limp. Her father came rushing in and pushed Kori out of the way. He shouted at her to get out and stand quietly. Her big brother and sister were standing next to her. Ryan hugged his little sister gently while Katie just stood there and looked at the wall. Their dad came out and pointed at Kori with a shaking finger and shouted. "YOU, how could you not help her? You knew that she didn't have much energy so you make her use it up! You are so selfish!" but pushed Kori out the way and ran into the living room. Kori started to cry. Katie walked into the room and came out crying, mumbling "Kori, mums dead because of you. I cannot live here with you! How could you kill mum?" everybody blamed Kori for the mother's death except Ryan. He stood up for Kori when her father was shouting at her and beating her. But one time Ryan stood in front of Kori and got hit straight in the face from his father. Kori screamed but Ryan stood up and told him he was running away and no body not even Kori could stop him. Ryan kissed Kori on the forehead and stomped out nobody has heard of him since that day. Katie helped her father punish Kori and in the end even Kori believed that it was her fault that her mum died. Katie always picked on Kori and made her feel unloved which she was, nobody really loved her. Katie also ran away and became a criminal and Kori got blamed for that too. It was only Kori and her father left in the house. He would sometimes lock himself in his room for days on end. About a year after the death of Kori's mum died, Kori walked into her dad's room. First she peeked round the door because if she just walks in he throws stuff at her. Instead to find him lying down on his bed she found him hunched over in the middle of the room clutching at his bleeding wrists. They bloody knife was lying on the floor beside him. Kori looked at his empty eyes then started to cry when he came over to her and started to paint her face with the blood from his wrists. He was screaming at her. "You made me do this Kori! Nobody will ever love you… you are not worth anybody's love." Kori was still crying and still her dad continued to scream and wipe his never-ending blood flow over all her face and hair. Her tears took the colour red from where the blood on her face dyed the water a murky red. "Do you like my blood Kori? You are the one that wrecked this family and I hope you are happy." With that he gave a final slap across Kori's face then fainted from the blood loss and soon after died. Kori still lived in that house. She still has the little dress that is blood stained from the very day her dad killed him self. She never goes into that room because she never got the blood from the carpet and walls and where ever else he had painted his blood on. She lived alone for ages. Then a passing maid looked through the window and saw Kori alone sitting on the sofa with her teddy that had a large red stains over its wrists. Libby became her only friend. Libby wanted to take her back to her flat but Kori would not leave the house. And she still lives there today. She didn't want to leave in case Ryan ever came back to her. Sometimes she cries in the middle of the night out of loneliness. Yes she had her friends and she had Libby but friends aren't the same thing as family are they?
Raven sighed and slowly rocked Kori backwards and forwards.
"Why me? Nobody loves me, my dad was right. I don't deserve anybody's love."
"Don't be silly Kori, we all love you and Richard loves you, your father was not right. I don't want you even to think that ever again."
"Oh yeah, Richard? Whatever! If Richard loved me then why does he call me a slut? I was just his pretty face!"
"That's not true Kori and you know it. I'm sure it's just a miss understanding."
"It's not fair Rachel, everybody thinks that its only Kori Anders, she is always happy. I'm forced to fake a smile fake a laugh everyday of my life because nobody understands how empty my life really is."
"Calm down Kori, we will always be here to help you. We will never leave you alone when you need someone to lean on, you will always have us to fall on. And we will always catch you."
"Thank you" mumbled Kori she stood up she was still shaky from remembering about her past life. She nodded at Rachel then made her way to her room. On her way she passed Garfield. She managed a small smile for him before going into her room. She brushed her hair and teeth before getting changed into her pjs and settling down to sleep. As soon as her head touched the pillow she off to dream one of her most haunting memories. The memory of finding her dad in his room. On the right side of her face where her hair covered it up was a bloodstain that she could never get off. From when her dad was rubbing his bleeding wrists over her face she could never get a small patch of it off. She always had two bangs at the sides of face to cover it up. Nobody knows about them except her. And she never going to tell anyone about it or that she still kept the room the way it was or that she still had a dress and teddy with big blotches of blood on them. She thought that she might have told Richard when they were older so he could help her get over her tragic life but Richard obviously didn't want to help her. He just wanted a nice face to go next to him for popularity reasons only.
Garfield walked into the room where Rachel was sitting on the sofa flicking through the channels. When she heard him come in she turned the TV off and turned to face him.
"You have got to go and talk to Richard right now. Does he even know how much he has broken her heart?"
"Has he ripped it out threw it on the floor stamped on it a few times and put it through a paper shredder then I bet he threw all the tiny pieces across the room then tried to put it back together with sticky tape but he did it wrong but he didn't care then shove it back into her? Is that what he did?"
"You know Gar, I'm worried about you. But yes I can see that, that is probably what he did."
"Wow, I have got to go to his house now and make him explain what the hell he thinks he'd doing to Kori! I mean after what's happened all her life!"
"That's what I was trying to say in the first place."
"Oh ok, well I will see you later Rachel, I might be at his house for a while so don't wait up because I might decide to sleep at his house. See you later or tomorrow" Garfield bent down over the sofa gave Rachel a kiss then walked out the door to take the bus to Richards house to make him explain him self.
Soon Garfield was knocking on the oak door, Alfred came to answer it. When he saw that it was one of Richard's friends he told him to follow him. He had something to tell Garfield before he went in to see Richard.
"Master Logan, It is my wish for me to warn you that Master Dick isn't feeling too happy at the moment because Miss Kori and him self have had an argument."
"Thank you Alfred but I already know this information, and I am here to help them get back together!"
"Very well" Garfield smiled then nodded at Alfred. Secretly Garfield was scared of Alfred. He spoke too posh for Garfield but Alfred wasn't that bad. Garfield sighed before opening the door to Richard's room.
"Hiya dude, I think you have some explaining to do" Garfield whispered into the darkness. Richard comes out of his bathroom with a pale face but Garfield couldn't tell whether he had been crying or not because his sunglasses were still firmly in place.
"About what?" Garfield now knew by the way Richard talked that he had in fact been crying. Garfield never knew that Richard loved her that much. But this was a good thing. If he is upset then that's means they have a chance to be together again.
"About what you said to Kori, to make her come to our flat and make her cry her heart and soul out to Rachel for just over an hour?"
"She was crying?"
"Of course she was, you made her remember about her family or what family she did have."
"Did I?"
"Yep, what ever you said she took it really hard."
"I didn't mean to hurt her, I just made a comment on how she always eats salad and she took it the wrong way. Then she asked me if I meant it but I didn't understand so I said yes and then she walked out on me before I could tell her how sorry I was. I miss her Gar and I didn't mean t make her cry"
"Well you did, bad style. I think you better come back to our flat and explain to Kori right now before she falls into depression"
"She would go into depression just because of me?"
"No but you have just made her believe what her dad said to her, about that nobody wants to love her. Do you know how wrong that is?"
"That is stupid, how can anyone not love Kori, she is the best girl and only girlfriend I have ever had, I don't want to lose her Gar! So is it to your flat to sort this thing out then?"
"Come on lover boy, you gotta persuade Kori that she is loved."
Garfield grabbed Richard shoved a coat in his arms and dragged out of his house and to the bus stop. Then they barged into his flat.
"Here is Richard, and he needs to talk to Kori now."
"I'm not letting that jerk to go and see Kori. She is sleeping trying to forget that Richard had ever faked liking her. Don't you dare let him go in and disturb Kori from peace of mind!"
"Calm down Rach, don't worry Richard does like Kori. It's just a mistake" but Rachel wasn't listening. She didn't know why but she was much more than a best friend to Kori. She was much more than her big sister. Rachel was like her mum as well. She knew what Kori had been through and knows almost how it feels. Her mum was raped. So she didn't have a dad. Her mum loved her but she couldn't handle a child on her own. At least her mum was kind enough to put her with a foster family so she wasn't alone like Kori was. When she met Garfield and they became lovers she moved away with him. His parents were travellers so he hardly sees them but they always send him packages through the post.
"I don't believe him Garfield, you bastard Richard how could you do this Kori?" she suddenly jumped out from the sofa and lashed out onto Richard.
"How could you break Kori's heart when you just mended it?"
"Rach, calm down! Now come on Rach get off Richard." Garfield was shocked by his girlfriend's actions but he knew that Rachel loved Kori almost as much as she loved him.
"DON'T YOU DARE GO NEAR THAT POOR GIRL RICHARD, YOU CAN'T CHANGE THE PAST ONLY FORGET IT!"
"Rachel! Come here." Garfield grabbed Rachel's arms from punching Richard's eyes out. She struggled for a while but then started to calm down.
"I'm going to our room to calm down, I don't let that jackass go anywhere near Kori until I have finished meditating" she hugged Garfield gave a dirty look to Richard before walking out to go and chill for a while.
"Wow, they really are best friends aren't they? And your Rachel's packs a punch" Richard said rubbing his arm where Rachel had lashed out on him.
"Sorry about that, but she really cares for Kori and you did leave Kori in a state. I bet the only time she has been worse was when she was alone with her dead dads body next to her."
"Just lay on the guilt Garfield. It makes me feel so much better about myself."
"Oh yeah sorry. Can I get you a drink?"
"No, but I will go to the loo be back in a sec."
"Kay"
Richard smiled at Garfield then set off down the corridor he nearly made it before he heard Kori singing in her room. She voice was quiet but Richard could hear the sadness in her voice that filled the air. He realised she was singing about her dad, but he was sure that some things she sang was meant about him self too. He pressed his ear to the door so he could hear Kori's sweet voice.
'I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I'm afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me
Because of you
I'm afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You have known better then to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just thought of your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life
Because it's empty
Because of you
I'm afraid
Because of you
Because of you'
When the last sweet note rang through Richard's ear he had one tear sliding down his face. He could tell that she meant every word she just sang. He sighed because he promised that he wouldn't go in and see her. So he walked past her door and went to the toilet. When he went back he saw that Rachel was back and she looked a lot calmer. She looked at Richard but no emotion was displayed across her face. He gave her a small smile but she just turned away from him and pointed to the chair opposite her.
"Explain"
"It's just a miss understanding"
"A miss understanding? Is that all it was? Is that what made Kori cry her heart out to me just a miss understanding?"
"I know it doesn't sound good enough but its true. I didn't mean to insult her!"
"You of all people know how unstable she is. After everything she has been through I can't say I blame her. Infact I can never blame her!"
"I know, that's why I'm here, to explain to her that she is loved and that her dad was a jerk and he didn't know anything"
"Her dad isn't the only jerk is he? I know a certain boy with black hair and a black heart to match. Take guess who it is"
"I know that I did bad but please let me fix it."
"I don't want Kori to even know you where here. She is staying by me and you better not pester her"
"Now Rachel I think that is a little harsh on Richard. Just let him try and explain it to her"
"NO, WHY SHOULD HE HAVE THE CHANCE TO MAKE EVERYTHING ALRIGHT? HE JUST BROKE HER HEART GARFIELD I'M NOT HAVING HIM JUST WALKING UP TO HER AFTER ALL THE MISERY SHE HAS BEEN THROUGH"
"Hello Richard, what do you want your pretty face back?" they all turned to see Kori in the doorway. She was just wearing her Minnie mouse outfit and her eyes were still puffy and her hair was all knotty and tangled. Richard saw what he had done to Kori and though how bad he felt.
"Kori…"
"What is your pretty face not pretty anymore? Because I have been crying my eyes aren't good enough for you are they Richard? I guess my dad was right after all I'm not worth your time and love. I was just your stupid slut wasn't I?"
"Kori I never want to hear you again saying that a word from your dad's mouth was the truth. Don't you dare!"
"Why would you care Richard? I'm nothing to you am I? Rachel was right why should you have the chance to break my heart again? Well tough because it is too broken and no body can fix it happy?"
"Kori, don't be like that. I didn't want to break your heart I never meant to. And I don't want to break your heart in the future either"
"Well, even if you did you won't have that chance. My hearts belongs to me and no body else! I don't even think that I want my heart it's too tatty after all I have been through but you wouldn't care about that would you?"
"Kori I do care, I want to help you through your life as well as your friends. I know how you feel I saw my parents die too! Yes you had it worse than me, you were alone were I had Bruce but now you have Rachel, Bethany, Victor, Garfield, Libby and you have me"
"Libby was right you are just faking it again like everything in my life I just can't have a happy ending can I? Every day I am reminded of what family because of this" she didn't know what she was doing until she had shown everyone.
She pulled back her hair and pointed to a dirty red blotch on her face.
"This, yes I have had this since my dad died bloodstains are impossible to get out of anything! Guess how long it took Libby to wash it out of my hair? Weeks sometimes I can still see traces of his dirty blood under my fingernails. But I could get rid of them but this just won't go away." She ran up to Richard and swung her arms around him
"Make it go away Richard I don't think I can go on this way…alone"
Richard put his arms around her and stroked her knotty hair while whispering in her ear that she was alone but she will never be alone again.
"You might have been alone Kori, but never again will you be on your own. I will make sure of it."
"Do you know how hard it is Richard to wake up in the morning and still she that patch on your face? To still be the same person, the same damn nightmares every night" with that Kori broke down into tears while hugging Richard and he hugged her back with all his might. Rachel was shocked when Kori shown them her unfortunate stain. She never knew how hard it really was for Kori being alone was Rachel's worst fear. She grabbed hold of Garfield whose eyes were glistening with tears. He hugged her back and whispered in her ear.
"You won't be alone either Rachel. I'll be here for you always"
"Thank you "
The next morning Rachel woke up to find that Kori and Richard were already awake sitting on the sofa softly talking to each other. She smiled. She knew that Kori's heart would never be completely healed but as long as she had Richard she would make it through her life. She went to wake up Garfield so they could get to school.
Thank you all for reading this chappie hoped you like it. Next chappie is the Halloween disco. I thought this one would just show you how much Rachel and Kori were friends and how much pain Kori had been through. Please review and tell me what you think. I think it was deep myself. But anyway TOODLES
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