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The Gang's all here.
Down and Deep.
Rachel couldn't believe that she actually said that to him. He must think that she is a right push over now. She turned a corner and saw a small building. She recognised it for the Poet's Corner. It was called 'Down and Deep' and she went here all the time when she was little. Her foster mother is the manager. She stopped going because she didn't write depressing poems anymore when she met Garfield but now she had a great poem running through her head so she stepped into the small shop type café and went up to the counter where he foster mother was. She was called Susan. When Susan saw her she came from behind the counter and hugged her. Rachel hugged back and asked for a drink of tea. Susan got her the tea and sat down to listen to what Rachel had to say.
Kori had been at Richard's for a good two hours. She finished modelling her clothes and they had settled down to watch a movie. Richard had told Kori about Gar and Kori told Richard about Rachel. They put one and one together and figured out what had happened and left it so they can sort it out by themselves. Half way through Kori got up suddenly and grabbed her phone then walked out. When Kori walked back in she smiled.
"Who did you ring?"
"Rachel"
"Why?"
"Because she was there when me and you had a misunderstanding so I am going to be there when she and Gar have had a misunderstanding."
"Good" Richard felt a jolt of guilt every time Kori mentioned that night but he was getting over it slowly.
"What did Rachel say?"
"She said thanks and I will come around in about two hours. She said she has to get something of her chest."
"Right okay. Come back here and watch the rest of the film."
Kori smiled again and sat next to Richard again. Alfred popped in and out to make sure they always had enough popcorn and drinks.
Garfield had been searching for ages but couldn't figure out were she would go. In the end he was going to give up but he saw Susan, Rachel's foster mum, standing outside of her shop having a fag. He watched her until she flicked the cigarette butt onto the floor and went back inside. Garfield decided to go and ask Susan whether she had seen Rachel. Susan never really liked Garfield but there was no other option, so he walked in and up to her.
"Susan?"
"What do you want?"
"Have you seen Rachel?"
"Maybe you should open your eyes and your ears," she said. Garfield raised his eyebrow out of confusion.
"What?"
"You always were stupid," she said then she rolled her eyes and pointed to the stage were a pretty girl had just got up. She had very white skin and short purple hair and purple eyes. Garfield was going to shout out to her but Susan covered his mouth.
"Listen, that poor girl is trying to let out her feelings, don't you dare stop her like you stopped her life." She said harshly but Garfield just nodded and focused on the stage where Rachel stood.
"I just made up this poem because of something that has just happened. It's called 'Tears are falling'"
Rachel looked at the floor before she raised her head and spoke softly to the microphone.
'I am alone
I am cold to the bone
Nobody wants me
Why don't I jump into the merciless sea?
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Even after all the calling
That's what I used to think
That I was a nobody and was beginning to sink
But now I will float
Your love is my boat
But am I too far under?
How you like me is a wonder
But as long as I have you for awhile
You can stop my lonely tears from falling
That's what I thought
Until you were caught
Not trusting me
What do you want me to be?
But now I don't care
Because I don't want you to be there
I thought I loved you
I thought you loved me
But if you don't want to
We will never ever be
So good-bye
I will always love and trust you
But you never seem to trust me too
So I will stop this desperate calling
And make sure that these lonely tears are always falling.'
"Thank you, I needed to get that off my chest." Rachel said but she sighed before stepping down of the microphone. The whole room went into applause while Garfield just stood and stared again. Had he lost Rachel forever? Rachel walked straight past Garfield and didn't even see him. Garfield was going to put his hand on her shoulder but Susan gave him a dirty look so he didn't. He would have to wait until Susan wasn't looking. Garfield just sat down on one of the tables and listened to the man who was speaking some rubbish. Well he looked like he was listening but really; Rachel's poem was running through his head over and over again. In the café the lights were dim so you could only really see the person on the stage, because of the bright spotlight. That was why Rachel didn't notice Garfield.
Rachel walked up to Susan, but she said nothing that Garfield was here. Susan just gave her an apron and set her to work as a waitress. Rachel sighed but knew she had no choice. She had to get money some how. As she was walking around, a person on the other side of the café signalled her. As she walked closer she noticed it was a man.
"What can I get you?"
Garfield looked up at the waitress to see Rachel looking at the wall totally uninterested with what she was doing. He couldn't see her very well but he knew her voice anywhere.
"R…Rachel?" he stammered quietly. Rachel stopped looking at the wall and focused her eyes on the figure. Her eyes widened when she saw that it was Garfield sitting right there in front of her. She wanted to just run away and not go near him but Garfield grabbed her arm and sat her down next to him.
"Rachel? Speak to me!"
"Hi" she said feebly. But then the image of Terra and Gar popped back into her head and the anger levels rose inside of her again.
"What are you doing here Garfield? Come to laugh at me some more?"
"I didn't laugh at you did I?"
"Not to my face but I bet you had a good old laugh with your great new girlfriend Terra didn't you?" Rachel snapped. She knew she was over reacting but it just got her really worked up.
"Let me make something clear. I DO NOT LOVE TERRA MARKOV!" He screamed and everyone looked at him.
"What are you all looking at? Mind your own business!" Garfield snapped then turned back to Rachel but to find that when he was shouting at the people she slipped away from him.
Rachel couldn't take it. She could feel herself falling for him again but she didn't want to. Well she did but she didn't, she was too confused to come to a proper decision. She wanted to be back with Garfield and forget that this ever happened but again she had something telling her that she was too good for Garfield and another part saying Garfield was too good for her. She felt like her mind was going to blow up into tiny pieces soon. She ran back out of the shop, still with the apron but she didn't care, and she went anywhere the bus would take her. Fortunately it took it back to her flat. She opened up the door and went in side. She threw a couple of cushions about the room before she calmed down enough to write another poem for Garfield to find. She scribbled it down on a piece of paper and left it on the counter for him to find then picked up a few items. She took her book, and necklace that she got from him but left the hand made cushion by the poem on the kitchen counter and left the flat. She quickly got on the next bus so she didn't run into Garfield who was probably looking for her. She got of at the Wayne Estate and got let in by Alfred. Kori and Richard came up to her. Richard took her bags and took them to her room while Kori hugged Rachel slowly rocking her. Rachel still didn't cry, her eyes looked as if they were made from water but not one single tear ran down her pale cheeks.
"I am here for you Rachel just like you were there for me."
"I don't know what to do though Kori! Should I forgive and forget? Should I ignore him for the rest of my life? I am so confused." Kori knew it was bad because Rachel never gets confused. She always stays calm and collected; she was always the one who helped the others out. Kori knew that Garfield and Rachel were made for each other but she also knew that how many times she said that to Rachel, while she was in this state of mind Rachel would never believe her. She knew this because she didn't believe Rachel when she said that Richard and her were perfect together, so all Kori could do was hug her and answer her questions cautiously.
"Were we a good couple Kori? Tell the truth, I have to face it one day."
"You two were made for each other" but Kori already knew the answer to this question.
"You are only saying that to make me feel better!"
"No I am not, Rachel. I know that you don't want to but listen to me you and Garfield are a match made in heaven…"
"Heaven? No such place as heaven."
"I don't care, you two are perfect, and we all have the arguments. Remember how I never wanted to be near Richard again, now look at how close we are! Rachel you have to do what your heart says." Kori said. Richard just grinned and held back a laugh from how corny that speech really was but he knew he shouldn't so he went out to get some drinks.
"But my heart is in two minds. Left side saying, no Rachel. He doesn't trust you but my right is saying go for it Rachel he is one in a million."
"Do you love him Rachel?"
"It depends"
"On what?"
"Whether he loves me too…"
"No Rachel if he loves you or not, that doesn't matter for the moment. Do you love him right here right now no matter what he thinks of you?"
"…"
Garfield had finally given up looking for her, but tomorrow he will search again. He slumped his way back to the flats and trudged up the stairs. His feet were aching from all the walking he had been doing. He got to the door opened it and saw that the sofa had been thrown across the room. Rachel had obviously been here. He put the sofa back together before he noticed the cushion that he made her for her birthday. He walked up to it and held it in his hand softly. He smelt it and it still had she sweet fragrance of lavender that Rachel always smelt of. He looked at the poem on the counter. He read it but the words just seemed to fly over his head without a care in the world. But for the sixth time he read it, it finally sank in.
To Garfield,
My mind is not thinking right so here is a poem I wrote. Please read and understand my feelings. Its called 'So do I or don't I?'
'I don't know what to do
I don't know if I still love you
But do you still love me?
Or would you just let me be?
My mind is in a muddle
My heart in a struggle
All I can remember
Is that you hurt me in December
But a love for you still flickers
Can you relight the flame?
Or is it too late, and who is to blame?
I want to get together
Be with you forever
My heart says go
But my brain says no
Can you change my mind?
Or have you turned blind?
Who should I listen to?
To me or to you?
Would you want me back?
Or would I just be put on the rack?
Can I trust you?
Do you want me to?
Can you prove your love?
Or is it just tough?
Can you answer these?
If you can then please!
I want to love you
But will you love me too?
From Rachel'
Garfield quickly picked the piece of paper up and the cushion and set out for looking for her again. The poem gave him a new lease of energy to find her. He locked the door after him and set off again. He feet still rubbed but he didn't care, he needed to find her right now!
Jessie had stomped back up stairs after Victor made it perfectly clear that he didn't love her. Bee had gone home because she was getting too frustrated. Bee almost slapped her but Jessie ducked just in time.
"Jessie? Look this doesn't mean we can't be friends," Victor said through the door of her room yet again. He heard Jinx sigh from behind the door but no reply.
"If you are going to keep ignoring me, I will have to ask you to move out. I don't want to but I will if I have to."
"Yes, Victor chuck Jessie out just because you found out that she is madly in love with you" Jessie said in a sarcastic tone, mimicking Bethany.
"Don't make fun of my girl Jessie. I will give you until tonight to come out and talk properly and forget that this ever happened. If you don't then I'm sorry but tomorrow morning I want you out."
"You would really throw me out because I am not speaking to you?"
"Well yes. I am not living with someone who hates me. And secondly I can see that you and Bee are not going to get on…"
"Yes, it is all about Bee, isn't it Victor?"
"Well she comes before you"
"Just leave me alone. I might come out later. But for now. Get lost." Jessie said but he voice was muffled because she had her head under her pillow. Victor just sighed and left the hall out side of her door. He went down into the kitchen and got him some take-away donuts from Donut Hut. They said they would be arriving in about twenty minutes. He doesn't know why, but donuts always made him feel better.
Lilly was now back at Chris's house. They were up stairs in his room playing on his game station. Lilly wasn't very good at this game but Chris would always help her. Lilly couldn't remember when she had laughed so much in one night. She didn't know how, but Chris made everything look and sound hilarious. She had forgotten all about her secret but still at the bottom of the bag lurked the notebook. She was getting to the point where she hated writing in it, hated keeping everything under cover, all in code, nobody could know her secret, not even Chris. When Chris went out to get some drinks Lilly glanced at her bag and lent over to grab it. She rooted through the contents before she found the plain white notebook. She took it out and sighed when she flicked through page after page of secret messages and coded facts. She didn't notice Chris come back into the room so she carried on studying her notebook. Chris who was trying to read it over her shoulder but couldn't quite figure out how to de-code it. Chris moved his foot and something snapped under his weight, Lilly turned abruptly.
"Chris, how long have you been there?"
"Eermm…not long."
Lilly shoved the notebook back into her bag and plastered a fake smile on her face. Chris put the drinks on the side and sat down opposite Lilly and looked at her straight in the eye, which were rapidly turning grey again because she was feeling unhappy and under pressure.
"Is that notebook part of your secret?"
Lilly knew she should say no, and do what you were supposed to do in these circumstances. All the rules she learnt were going around her head but were escaping through her ears. And she couldn't lie to Chris, anymore than she needed to.
Lilly sighed and looked down at the floor before she looked back into Chris's eyes
"Yes."
"Is it a bad secret?"
"Yes"
"Can I know what is in that notebook?"
"…"
"Lilly?"
"No, I am so sorry Chris. You can't trust me I am full of secrets and mysteries, as you put it, this is what I was trying to tell you earlier I understand if you want me to leave and…"
Chris put one finger over her lips and shook his head. Lilly looked back at him.
"Who said I wanted you to leave?" Lilly looked deeper into his eyes and noticed that he was smiling, not only with his lips but his bluey-green eyes also had a cheeky grin.
"But I can't tell you! Don't you hate me?"
"I don't care that you can't tell me, I respect that it is your secret, and I will listen when you can tell me. And no I defiantly don't hate you."
"But, how do you know that it isn't really bad, don't you want a girlfriend who can tell you everything? Don't you want a pretty girlfriend? Don't you want…"
"I want you." He said softly before lip locking her. At first she tried to resist but she began to relax and she melted into his chest. She snaked her arms around his neck and his arms found them selves around her waist.
"Kori, do you think Garfield is out there looking for me?"
"Defiantly."
"You think he really does care?" then the Garfield is too good for me kicked into her system.
"Yes, Rachel. I bet he will burst through those doors and sweep you off your feet."
"He deserves someone better than me! He deserves someone who won't make a big deal out of nothing."
"Stop it you are sounding like Lilly. You are great for Garfield and Garfield is great for you. And when he comes here looking for you I want you to listen to what he has to say, then he will listen to you. After you do all the talking you will both share a passionate kiss."
"You should write romance novels." Rachel said, but at least she was chuckling at the same time. Not even ten minutes later had they said that Alfred came in with a very tired looking Garfield. But when he saw Rachel standing there the energy came back to him and he ran to her and hugged her.
"I would like to announce that Master Logan has arrived, but I see that you can tell that for yourselves."
"Thank Alf." Richard said while the butler walked back out of the room.
"Were you here all the time Rachel? I was so worried. I have been looking for you for ages. I got your poem. It was beautiful, just like you."
"Enough of the sweet talk. It is nice to see you…I think...but we have to talk on out own." Rachel said and looked at Kori. Kori smiled and made a kissy face and winked before dragging Richard out of the room. Rachel laughed at Kori's face, she was of course referring to the passionate kiss she and Gar were supposed to have at the end of this conversation. Rachel sat down and Gar sat down next to it.
"You first." Rachel whispered.
Garfield grabbed her hands in his and settled down on the sofa. Rachel still couldn't look him in the eye but she had a small smile playing on her lips. Garfield could always make her smile.
"Rachel, I want you back. I should have listened to you. I should have trusted you and I am so sorry that I didn't! Please come back." Garfield said and in his eyes Rachel could see a hint pleading. Then Rachel did the fatal thing by looking him straight in his forest eyes and the love for him came rushing up to her brain. They just stared into each other's eyes until their lips met together into a sweet kiss.
From behind the door Kori and Richard were looking through the keyhole and Kori practically jumped into the door when they kissed. She would have squealed really loud but Richard spun her around and met his lips with hers. So both couples in the Wayne mansion were sharing a long passionate kiss, and all Alfred could do was walk around them and try to ignore it.
Lilly and Chris had started to watch TV while the Chinese takeaway was on its way. Chris had ordered them the meal for two. Lilly said she wasn't hungry but Chris put his puppy dog eyes on and she couldn't resist.
"Please Lilly? For me?"
"Fine, but I am not going to have lunch for a month."
"Why?"
"I will end up like an even bigger whale! Do you know how much fat is in a Chinese meal?"
"You shouldn't worry, just enjoy yourself."
"Just be happy that I finally gave in to let you have this whole meal."
"You really need to have more fun."
"But if I have fun, do you know what they say?"
Chris wasn't go to answer this and just give in because he didn't want to get in an argument because he didn't want to lose Lilly, but because he thought that Lilly would return to the old Lilly, and he didn't want that.
They carried on watching the TV. When the doorbell went. Chris went to the door and took the food off him. He had to go and get his wallet from his bedroom, when he was out of the room; Lilly took out her purse and gave the deliveryman the money, she had plenty of money and she owed Chris this, when she could tell him her secret, the least she could do was buy this meal. Lilly paid him and closed the door, then quickly sat back down and shoved her purse back into her bag and sat there trying to look innocent. Chris came back in with his leather wallet, looked at the closed door, at the food on the side then at Lilly who was sat on the floor. Lilly smiled sweetly and shrugged her shoulders. Chris raised his eyebrow.
"Where is the guy?"
"He went away"
"But I didn't pay him!"
"I guess he was just a really nice deliveryman," she said but she couldn't hold back the laughter anymore. Chris's face broke into a wide smile and he came over to Lilly and started to tickle her.
"Did you pay?"
"Chris…stop it…I don't like being tickled!" she said but she was still laughing.
"I will if you tell me, that you paid for our dinner!"
"Okay…okay I did…just stop it! I'm not ticklish!" she said but she still couldn't stop laughing. Chris stopped for a moment and looked at her funny.
"So you aren't ticklish, but you laugh?"
"No, I am not ticklish, I laughed because you were the one who wastickling me and you are just funny."
"Why did you say stop tickling me then?"
"When you tickle my sides, you can practically grad rolls of fat, so I don't like it." Lilly said in an almost whisper. Chris just rolled his eyes and heaved her up on to her feet. When she got her balance she went over to the bag and started to dish out the food. Chris shoved the main meal in the oven to keep warm while they ate the starters.
Jinx slumped out of her room and downstairs. Her eyes were puffy and red but she tried to hide them, by letting her hair down from the pigtails and her natural fringe came in front of her eyes.
"Hello Jinx, good to see you out of your room, donut?"
"Please." Jinx said but without looking up at him. She caught her appearance in a nearby mirror. She got really angry with herself. Crying over some guy? Jessie was crying over some prat? She quickly brushed her hair back into her normal style and looked straight at Victor. She snatched the donut and ate in all in one.
"I am leaving tonight. Got a flat on the other side of town."
"Oh right. Are we still friends"
"Nope, but thanks for the donut."
"So you are not my friend because I don't love you?"
"Yup, that pretty much explains it all."
"Right, go get your bags, I want you out of that door in one hour maximum."
"Give me five minutes." Then she stormed up stairs. She didn't have a flat and she still loved him with all of her heart but no man was going to make her fall to pieces. She would get over him with time. She came back down stairs with the large black suitcase. She stood by the door and hugged Victor stiffly.
"Thanks for having me stay at your place."
"No problem, much"
"And thanks very much for breaking my heart" she said coldly then she stalked off down the drive and turned right, walking away from Victor's life, but was it forever? Victor was secretly glad that she was finally leaving, he liked her but she liked him too much. He rushed back inside and called Bee up to tell her the good news.
Rachel and Gar sat in silence on the sofa in each other's arms while on the chaise lounge Kori and Richard were silently sleeping. Gar looked down at Rachel when she looked up at him, and he kissed her forehead as she drifted off to a peaceful sleep. Soon after Garfield too had dozed off into a deep slumber. Alfred came in with two large thick blankets to put over the couples and turned out the lights.
Lilly and Chris had finished their meal and had gone into Chris's room where they will be sleeping. Chris had asked whether Lilly would want the bed and he slept on the floor but she refused and insisted that Chris had his own bed. Chris knew he wasn't going to win so he just shrugged his shoulders and got ready for bed. While Lilly was getting changed into her Pjs in the bathroom, Chris slipped into a pair of sweat pants and a loose grey t-shirt. Lilly came back in wearing blue Pjs with printed wings on the front over her chest. He smiled as she picked up the brush to brush her hair.
"Can I brush your hair for you?"
"Sure" she said, shrugging her shoulders and passed Chris the large brush and turned around then sat down in front of the bed, so he could sit on the end and brush it properly.
"You have beautiful hair Lilly."
"Thank you Christopher."
"Christopher? Since when have you started calling me by my full first name?"
Lilly shrugged her shoulders.
"Well, Lilly…darn I can't do it to you. Your name is just Lilly."
"No it's not."
"What, do you mean Lilly Bourne? No I mean full first name!"
"Yes so do I"
"Why what is your full name? I mean your first name?"
"Promise you won't laugh"
"Promise"
"My full name is…Tiger Lilly, but I just say it is Lilly."
"Your full first name is Tiger Lilly?"
"Yup, pretty stupid huh?"
"Pretty stupid? No I think it is just pretty. Wow that is so sweet!" he said then he pushed Lilly forward because he had finished with her hair. She got up and took the brush from him and shoved it into her bag. Chris just sat on the bed repeatedly saying 'Tiger Lilly' quietly. Lilly rolled her eyes and settled down on the bed made of blankets that she was sleeping on.
"So you like my name then?"
"Yeah, can I call you Tiger from now on? I mean as a pet name?"
"If you must"
"Don't tell anyone else, can you keep a secret."
"I'm sure one more secret won't hurt, okay I won't tell anyone my full name."
"Good!"
"Night Chris."
"Night Tiger" he said then yawned, soon he fell asleep but he quickly jumped up, lent over to Lilly and planted a tender kiss on her lips.
"I forgot my good night kiss."
"Night Chris" Lilly repeated and he went back to sleep. When Lilly was sure that he was sound asleep she crept out of her bed and got the notebook out. She wrote two pages of code then put it down and fell asleep herself.
But Lilly didn't have a great sleep. Her mind was thinking about Monday where the secret was going to get very difficult to keep. She wasn't sure how long she could keep this up.
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