Oh my god...I couldn't believe Jess was back, and that he was asleep a few centimeters away from me. How was I going to tell this to mom? Oh my god...Rory, don't worry about it now. For now, all that matters is that Jess came back to you. You'll take care of your mother later. Yeah, that's what I'm going to do. You should be sleeping...but I couldn't! Knowing that Jess was right there, next to me, was making me nervous! So I turned around and watched him sleep. He might had felt my eyes on him 'cause he opened his eyes and looked at me. He smiled. I smiled back. He reached for my right hand, which he gently rubbed and kissed. I smiled. Then I did something that surprised me: I made him get up and allowed his some place next to me. He hesitated for a moment.
You sure? he asked.
Hey, we're not doing anything wrong, I answered. We're only sharing a bed to sleep. And anyway, we're together, no?
Huh...yeah. You're right.
We smiled at each other then he layed down next to me. As soon as he's been comfortable, I snuggled to him and I soon fell asleep. I felt him tighten his grip then he fell asleep. The next morning, I woke up with the same position I had fallen asleep with. I lifted up my head and saw that Jess was still asleep. That's when I realized he was truely there. I smiled at that thought. A few minutes later, I felt him move and heard him moan lightly. I watched him open his eyes. When he saw me, he smiled.
Can a man be happier when he's waking up next to the woman he loves? There can't be any better way to wake up than when you see the eyes of the beloved one on ourselves. That's what was happening to me. When I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was the Rory's beautiful blue eyes. I smiled to her, kissed her on the forehead and then on the mouth. We kissed during a moment and took our initial places back. During a while, we kept silent, enjoying the moment's magic. After about 5 minutes, Rory looked at me again.
I didn't say hi, I think, she said.
Mmm...right, I answered.
Well...hi.
Hey.
You slept well?
I've never slept that good. And you?
She one again snuggled up to me without letting her eyes go off of me.
I think it was the first time that I slept that good, she told me.
She smiled and kissed me. Another 5 minutes went by without any of us told anything. I was feeling so good...that's when I heard snifflings. It was Rory. I sat up on the bed, she did the same, but turned her back to me.
Ror, what's wrong? I asked her, taking her by the shoulders.
She wiped her eyes and turned to me.
It's just that...she began. I still can't believe you're there. Before I saw you last night, I was beginning to get used to your absence. Every day I was getting better. Then, when I saw you, when you told me you loved me, all the feelings I thought had disappeared came back. Jess, I'd like you to know that I love you too. So much more than you could think. And also, I would have appreciated that you wait a few seconds before leaving. I would have answered. I was just taken aback by what you had just said.
While she was talking, I dropped down my eyes. I was realizing at what point I hurt her. When she'd been done, I lifted up my head back.
Rory, I'm really sorry for what I did to you. I now realize how much I hurt you and I'm ashamed of it. You're right, I should have waited for you to answer. But you know me, I have a big tendency to run away in front of everything. I hate that side of me. I wish I could be different...
An embarassing silence set up between us for a moment, that seemed to last an eternity to me. After that silence, Rory forced me to look at her in the eyes. She seemed touched.
Jess, forget all this now. It's part of the past now. I told you I'm ready to forgive you. All that matters now is that you're here. That we are together. I'll help you to change.
I hugged her.
Thanks Rory, I told her. Thank you for according me that chance. It means a lot to me.
If I do it it's because I love you. I want to wake up in the morning with you beside me. I want to find you when I get home at night. I want to have your children.
You're really planning on spending your whole life with me?
Yes Jess. Now it's up to us to make it work.
I promise we'll do it.
She let go of me, looked at me, smiled and kissed me. At that moment, I could just be thinking about a beautiful future, 'cause that future, I would be building it with Rory.
