Hi!

Okay, so this wait wasn't to long! Right now I have a concussion so my energy is really low. I'm glad that I already wrote this chapter for 75%. Tonight I finished it. I hope my headaches will go away soon so I can start writing again!

So yes, Adam is alive in this story. I'm sorry. But they killed me while they were killing Adam! I think it's so not fair for him to die so I kinda wanted him in this story. Sorry not sorry.

I hope you will enjoy Chapter 5!

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Eli was down stairs making dinner. He worried about Clare being alone in the bathroom upstairs. He wanted to help. But Clare made clear she didn't want any. That didn't stop him. He needed to help her. He wanted her to feel good again. Tomorrow was Sunday and he had the day off. He knew Clare wanted to study for her finals starting at Monday, but he needed to do something for her. Just something nice and sweet. While he was cooking he started to get some idea's in his head. He grabs his phone and send Adam a text. Adam, are you busy tomorrow? I really need your help. Please let me know. – Eli. He put his phone on the counter and finished dinner. He heard his phone buzz and opened the message. Never to busy for you. What do you need? – Adam. Eli smiled. Always a friend I can count on. I need to do something for Clare. Can you meet me at the abounded church tomorrow at noon? – Eli. He played his idea through his head and he knew Clare would like it. I will be there! – Adam.

Eli turned around and saw Clare walking down the stairs. He immediately saw her blood shot eyes. Eli walked over her and puts his arms around her neck. Clare returned the hug and they stood there for a few minutes.

''I smelled food. What did you make?'' They pulled out of the hug and Clare smiled a little. ''Mac and cheese. Your favourite.'' Eli pulled her over to the dining room and sat her down. He walked over to the kitchen and picked up two plates with food on it. Clare smiled gratefully when he put the plate in front of her.

They eat in silence. When they were finished Clare got up and picked up the plates. ''You don't have to do that.'' Eli said while he tried to get the plates from Clare.

''No, you made dinner. So I do the dishes.'' Eli gave in and walked back to the living room. He picked out a movie for them to watch. He also grabs a blanked because he knew she would like to cuddle up on the couch under neath a blanked.

When Clare was done she walked over to the living room and saw Eli sitting on the couch, ready to start the movie. Clare walked over to the couch and lay on it, her head resting on his lap. Eli pulled the blanked over Clare and started the movie.

While they watched the movie Eli would strook Clare through her hair. When the movie finished he looked at Clare and noticed she feel asleep. He looked over at the time and saw it was only 10 pm. He figured Clare was tired form this day. He carefully pulled her head up so he could turn off the tv and all the lights down stairs. He locked the front door and walked over to Clare. He put his arms under her neck and knees, lifting her up. He walked upstairs and laid Clare down in his bed. Pulling the covers over her. He pulled off his shirt and pants and laid down next to Clare. He felt not sleepy at all so he pulled out his phone from his pants and wrote some things down he needed to get tomorrow. He really hoped Clare would like the surprise. He gave her a little peck on her head and whispers "Sweet dreams Clare. I love you."


Clare woke up in an empty bed. She looked around and didn't saw Eli around. She tried to hear something, maybe in the kitchen or bathroom but she didn't hear anything. Wondering where Eli went, she rubbed her eyes. She looked over at the time and saw it was 10 am. Next to the alarm clock there was a little note. I'm out with Adam today. But I have a surprise later. I will text you where to be at what time. Your love, Eli. Clare smiled a little. Happy that they were still good friends with Adam, even though sometimes Adam felt like the third wheel.

Clare figured she could use a shower. She stood up and walked over to Eli's dresser and picked out a floral dress for today. She was clad she decided to pack some books so she could study after her shower.

She kind off hated Eli's bathroom, because the shower was facing the mirror. So when you are in the shower you are looking at yourself. Clare tried not to look at herself to much and just was her hair and her body.

When she was done she starts to stare at herself in the mirror. See Clare. You aren't pretty. You are ugly. There is no doubt about that. You're fat, scared for life and a failure. Why even study for the exams, you wouldn't make it. And you should lose weight. Your sex life does not exist anymore because Eli think you're fat. So stop eating!

She tried not to listen, but the voices where screaming at her. There is only one way to stop this. She looked at Eli's razor laying on the rack and before she could think about it, she picked it up.

Wait Clare. Be smart. Eli is going to notice it on your wrist. Be smart and put it on your thigh. He wouldn't see it there. She gave the voice some credit for saying that. She put the razor on her thigh and made a few deep cuts. Hissing in pain, she felt relived.


Meanwhile at the abandoned church.

Eli was already unpacking the stuff that he brought. There were 3 boxes full of pictures that he decide to pack. He also brought rope to put a red line trough out there story, showing there timeline. He knew it was only 10 and Adam wouldn't show up until 12. So he decided to take a head start. Time flew by and before he knew Adam was there. ''So what's the plan?'' Adam asked.

''Okay, so I kind off want to make a trip down memory lane. The good, the bad, the ugly. For her to remind her of all the bad we went through, but also all the good you know?'' Adam only smiled. And he knew this was a good idea. If only Clare would like it…