Wounds of the Heart

March 11, 2006

A/N: yes, I know that I should be updating Stripped. But I just read chapter 448 "Wounds of Shouki" from the InuYasha manga… and Takahashi Rumiko is quite the female dog nowadays… I personally think that she's created a bit of a fetish with Naraku, and he will never die! She'll kill Miroku off before she does that, it seems.

Anyway, this just inspired me to rant a little. Don't worry, I am still trying to update Stripped too, but… it's just so hard to get motivated!

Get motivated… get motivated… get motivated.


I couldn't do it.

I tried, I honestly did. I just couldn't do it.

Even if InuYasha hadn't stopped me, I wouldn't have been able to do it.

To hear her voice scream so desperately for me to stop…I just had to.

Kagome-sama believes that I didn't stop, that is was InuYasha who stopped me. I honestly cannot blame her; she loves him.

The pain is unprecedented; unbearable.

The physical wounds are enough. Inside of me, the Kazaana has spread and soon it will reach my heart. Then I will die.

I can curse Naraku as much as I want to, but it will do nothing. He got away. I tried to stop him; if I had held on just a moment longer then I would have stolen away the fuyouheki and InuYasha would have been able to destroy Naraku.

Then Kikyou-sama would spare Kohaku's life.

And She would be happy.

I couldn't do it. I tried to, but I couldn't hold on long enough.

Just one second or two more, and I would have died.

I would have left her.

Kikyou-sama healed the wounds that spread from the shouki that I absorbed.I am not adanger to anyone. At least not now.

I don't regret that it is becoming as it is. That's fate, I suppose.

There is still pain, but it isn't physical.

It's the pain, knowing that I will leave her, that is killing me.


A/N: by the way, if you didn't read chapter 448 on ear-tweak, then you'll probably be freaking out like I did and wondering what I'm talking about.

This was really just to let you know that I'm alive. Enjoy, and respond. Reviews will motivate me!

Get motivated.