Remus was silently standing in the doorway, unaware of the pain his limbs were in.
he silently dragged his eyes over his three friends, then his eyes found their way to a calendar on Sirius' bed.
"... you know, then...?" Remus asked softly, his eyes on the details Sirius had written on the calendar.
"yes. we know." James said softly, his eyes fixed on Remus'.
Remus took no notice of the pain in his limbs. only the pain in his chest. right where his heart was. they were going to kick him out. he just knew it.
Remus raised his wand and flicked it at his trunk, all his stuff flying neatly into it and the lid slamming shut.
"what are you doing?"
Sirius' voice was smooth as silk, yet tinted with a emotion that Remus had never heard in his voice before.
Remus flicked his wand again and the trunk floated a few inches off the floor and floated past him and down to the common room.
"... you don't want me here, since you know what i am." Remus said softly, not looking at any of them, his eyes on the large red and gold rug in the center of the room, his hand still on the doorknob.
"what are you talking about, Remus?" asked Sirius, standing up from his bed, causing Remus to take a step back from the doorway.
"... Remus, we want you to stay. you may be a werewolf, but you're still our friend." said James.
Remus almost believed them for a second. 'they... don't care? they don't care i'm a hideous beast? maybe i can stay-- NO! it's just one of their tricks! they really hate me. they just want to build up my hopes and shatter them! like they do to Snivel--to Snape!'
"... are you mad!" asked Remus, looking around at his friends, tears brimming in his eyes. "are you MAD!" roared Remus. "i'm a hideous beast! and yet you still accept me! i could turn on you in a second! WHY?" Remus felt his eyes sting and tears roll down his cheeks.
if they were lying about him staying, they wouldn't care if he was screaming and sobbing his heart out...
"Remus! we want you to stay! we want you to be happy! you're our friend! WE DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR CONDITION!" yelled Sirius. Remus could see that Sirius was for some reason, as upset as he was. but was hiding it well... but his eyes were filled with emotion, but not a tear in sight.
"LIAR!" screamed Remus, whipping around on his heel and sprinting down the stairs to the common room. Remus felt stupid for crying... he was fifteen! he wasn't supposed to cry... but now he had, he couldn't stop, even if he tried...
a black blur zoomed past James and whipped out of sight after Remus. he heard the squeak of Peter's bed springs and he shook his head, looking at the only other person in the room; Peter.
"No. Sirius needs to do this on his own."
((TBC may the shounen-ai begin!))
