Anime:
Saint Seiya
Couple: Mu and Shaka
Author:
Litha-chan
Rate: Yaoi, Angst, Romance, Lemon
Status:
In progress
Started in: May/2005.
DisclamerSaint Seiya belongs to Kurumada & cia. This fic has no profitable purposes. Unfortunately, if Mu had been invented by me he'd be more... (I'll shut up not to spoil the fic) and if Shaka had been invented by me I wouldn't have let him… (I'll shut up again).
The great gratefulness to Ice Magus for translating this fic for the english, since I have a certain deficiency for this language. Credits it for this favor. I am in waits it of commentaries.
Chapter II
I can't forget you...
"I hate
it, yes, I hate all your lies
I'm so scared
and I fear what I
saw in your eyes
But I have hope,
I dream, I wish and I pray…
That you have some love for me
left".
The house of Virgo was only silence and darkness. It was like there was no one living there, but that was not true.
Shaka locked himself inside his house since the sad day when he met Mu of Aries. If before he found himself in loneliness, now he had not recovered, instead he was feeling even worse. He had neither eaten nor drunk anything in three days, he wouldn't even move from his stiff position. He was in a corner, still wearing his armor, he could no longer feel his bodies and could no longer shed tears. Such sight was extremely sad.
"Mu, what's going on with you? I feel such a sad vibration. You've been like that for three days". Said Mireia staring at Aries' face. His eyes could not hide such sadness.
"I prefer not to speak about it, Mireia. I don't think it would be correct neither with you, nor with our… Son". The words were being spoken with difficulty, in a sad, low tone of voice. "Son… Who'd have guessed I'd have a son? In fact, I knew this would happen someday, but I wish it were different, I wish it were with someone I love". Mu's thoughts were so distant that he couldn't even feel a tear slipping down his beautiful face and Mireia's graceful hand washing it away.
"You know, Mu…" She started speaking to call his attention. "I know that between us there's nothing but the obligation imposed by our clan's traditions. I know you don't love me, I know you are hurt". She looked at Mu with serene eyes. Caressing her dark hair with her graceful fingers she continued: "I'm not so distracted to the point of overlooking your suffering. When you arrived at the village, I could feel something different about you. And, after that, during the day in which Amal was created I knew your mind was elsewhere. You were with me, but you wish you were with someone else and I believe that, only by thinking of that person could you finish what we started". She said blatantly.
Aries' eyes looked for Mireia's a little scared. Could he have been that clear in his desire? Really, during that night, at least in the beginning, he refused to go on forward, but in his heart, what made the different in his heart was that when he touched Mireia's skin, he wished he was touching Shaka's silky skin and, having that in mind, Mu could make love. In his mind he was loving Shaka's body. He could feel his texture, his smell and even the whisper of his voice, which he thought was musical. But when he woke up, he saw that all that had not been real.
"I'm sorry, Mireia, you remained silent for too long". He said with no strength. "I believe she must, at least, know what's happening with me, after all, she is the mother of my child, I owe her this". He said while staring her reddish eyes.
"I remained silent, because you were not the way you have been these days. Your return to Greece and the Sanctuary… This place has to do with your suffering… Suffering out of love and I feel I am causing you some of this pain". She said looking at Aries and caressing her huge ten-month womb.
Mu placed his hand on Mireia's womb, from where a part of him would come.
"Mireia... I'll tell you everything that's happening with me. I owe you this and I wish you'd understand me". He spoke as if he were telling her a secret. Actually, more than one person really were going to hear him out.
Mu was really tense. On the other hand, Mireia looked excessively calm.
"When I returned to Jamiel, before going to Liang-chau, I was organizing my mind. My feelings were confused, I was confused. Loving is a wonderful gift, but it always disturbes our thoughts when it catches us by surprise". He stopped for a second and looked at the sunset that could be seen by the window of the humble house. "And I found myself in love, Mireia. This person became, slowly, so special in my life that I could no longer imagine my life without him". He stopped roughly when he pronounced the word "him", observing if the young girl would show any kind of reaction.
"Him?" Was the only question asked. Mireia's face showed no disgust. She wanted to know who he was, who was the man who had earned the love of one of the most tender men she had ever met. Mireia had always heard things about Mu, Shion's pupil – Master of the Sanctuary of Athena – but she had never seen him until that day in the village.
"Yes, him… Shaka".He said holding back his tears "The only one I love, the only one who could make me feel love. Not the love of a brother, but something bigger than that". He lowered his head allowing his beautiful hair to cover his face. "I'd die for him, Mireia, I'd live in abstinence if he asked me to… Only to be able to love him, only to be able to have him by my side".
The young woman embraced Mu tenderly, putting him close to her womb as if the young man was her son and not the father of her son.
"Mu, have you already talked to him?" She was worried about Mu. She didn't wish him no harm, she wanted him to be happy and, if possible, smiling, because she had never seen him doing so.
The young man opened his heart sobbing. "I tried three days ago. He went to my temple and… Started to ask me about my absence, about the secrecy of my return… But I think I did not express myself well and in a desperation moment I ended up telling him that I did not return alone… I was very blunt, Mireia… About you and my son… Our son". He started crying heavily.
The young woman said nothing, she just kept embracing Mu and caressing his hair, trying to pass him calm and peacefulness.
XoOoX
Na angry Milo entered the House of Virgo without asking permission. He knew he wouldn't have it, but that wouldn't stop him from doing what he was about to do.
He discovered about Shaka's situation from Aphrodite. And even though he was not very close to the blond man, he didn't want to see him so devastated as he was. Of course, if it had been before, when Shaka had an ego the size of Asia, it would be different, but after he saw that the blond man was more kind to them all… He didn't want to see him in that situation. Nobody deserved to suffer out of love… Nobody.
"Well then, mister Shaka, Get out of that corner, get up and let's open this House a little bit, because the smell is starting to become unbearable". He was now close to the spot where Shaka laid all cornered. "Humm… By the looks of it I'll have to go beyond words, right?" He shook his head, looking ridiculous.
Milo took large steps forward, opening every window of the temple. The heavy golden curtains that touched the ground were put aside, allowing the faint sunbeams of dawn enter the place. When he was done, Milo turned around and saw Shaka crouched, his eyes wide open, but it was as if there was no life in them. Milo ran to Shaka, kneeling close to the blond man.
"Shaka? For Zeus... Shaka? Come on, talk to me, say something, man!" Really, he was caught by huge despair. He never imagined Shaka would be like that.
He decided to stand Shaka up, and carried him to the bedroom. Shaka was way too weak, his breathing was slow, his blue eyes were fogged, vague, almost lifeless. Placing him on a simple bed, Milo started thinking quickly about what he would do next.
Before anything he had to remove Shaka's armor and that was the first thing he did. If Shaka were in his best shape, Milo would have been expelled from the House or, maybe he would have been sent to another dimension. But, in his current situation. He couldn't hurt even a fly.
Leaving Shaka unarmored on the bed, he would now pay attention to two things: the first one was preparing the blond man a warm bath and the second was calling someone to help him prepare Shaka something to eat – since he didn't know how to cook at all -, but who could he call? Camus was not in the Sanctuary, Shura and Deathmask were training… Well, he'd have to ask the Sanctuary's information breaker... Aphrodite, who would be willing to help, since he knew how to cook very well and for any kind of occasion. Milo heated the water in the bathtub and ran to Aphrodite's house.
"For heaven's sake, Milo... He is finished". Said the piscis knight with a scary look over Shaka's body. "I'll prepare a simple dish. If he hasn't been eating anything lately we run the risk that he throws it all up…" He said, imagining what he could do.
"Dite, he is very hot, he might have a great fever". Said Milo touching the blond man's forehead, his face was expressionless. It was hard to believe. Watching the knight closest to God in that situation was something terrifying.
"If he has a fever, then I'll prepare something that Aldebaran reminded me the other day. It's our mothers' specialty… Chicken soup with rice!" Said him in a cheerful tone.
"Dite... Shaka doens't eat meat, even though it's white meat". For the little he knew about Shaka, he had never seen the blond man eating any kind of meat: neither red nor white.
"Milo, dear... I don't care an inch about what he can or can't eat. I'll not change a dish that can help him just because of some limitations. He is going to eat the soup and that's it!" Said him seriously. HE still had much to do and would not worry about Shaka's diet, he would only do so when the blond man recovered.
Things happened during the end of the afternoon and by night Shaka had already taken a bath and his hair had been tangled by Milo not to disturb his movements but something was missing… He hadn't eaten yet.
It was difficult for two knights. Milo held Shaka's body while Dite gave him - or at least tried to give him – the soup. It had been prepared with vegetables and, of course, some ingredients picked by Aphrodite to make him recover faster.
Both were tired. It's not like they wouldn't do it again if it were necessary, but they were tired physically and mentally. Watching a partner in such state without imagining themselves in the same situation was almost impossible.
It was over two o'clock in the morning when Shaka moved in the bed. His body was aching too much, his mind also bothered him, his eyes were swollen. It looked as if he had been run over by many elephants out of control. His eyes, even though they were hurting, looked around the bedroom and found two knights laying there; the faint light from the moon that entered the room made himidentify Milo and Aphrodite resting on a small sofa by the wall.
He expelled the heavy air out of his lungs. His mind had suffered a collapse, by the looks of it, because the last thing he remembered was falling on the stairs in front of his House. He didn't remember anything after that.
Not remembering anything would be a bless Budha could give him at that time, but that would unfortunately not be heard. HE whispered… "Lies... He lied, he fooled me... He made me believe him, in the love I could feel with him. He never loved me… But I... Still love him". He didn't notice that Aphrodite was awake and listening to what he was saying.
Aphrodite felt a pain in his chest when he heard that. He didn't know how much Shaka was involved with those events. He found himself suddenly beside the blond man holding his hand.
"Shaka"... Said him slowly. "Look, I... Don't want to look like a busybody, more than I already am, but… You tow need to talk". He felt Shaka shiver at the sound of those few words. "You know, if you two don't talk I fear for the both of you. You suffer like that because you love too much and you think you were betrayed. He suffers because he is away from you in a moment when he shouldn't be". He tried to make his friend's mind a little more clear in a careful way.
"Aphrodite, if you keep talking about him and all this situation, I'll be forced to ask you both to leave me here alone. Understand it, I don't want to talk about him. It's over even before it had even started". His throat was aching, but he had to say that, he had to make that enter his mind. He still loved him, but he had to forget him the same way he had been forgotten. He would have to go on with his life the same way 'he' did.
The pisces knight sighed, accepting his partner's decision. He wouldn't force Shaka to do anything. He needed some time to calm down.
"It's all right, Shaka. I won't talk about it anymore, but I want you to get better. And when Milo wakes up I'll talk to him so that he won't bother you with that, ok?" He would have to accept the blond man's decision.
"Thank you, Aphrodite". Thanked him tired, closing his eyes, allowing sleep to drag him completely. Aphrodite couldn't do anything, but lean on the sofa and try to rest.
XoOoX
The following days passed by mechanically.
Milo tried to make SHaka think again about the issue while they trained. Oh, yes… Milo got Shaka to train with him for several days. In fact, it was a plan made by him an Aphrodite with the eventual help of Shura. Daily training would keep Shaka's mind busy.
The blond man's decision had been taken. He wouldn't try to think about the Aries knight again, no talking to him, ignoring him seemed to be the best he could do. But not always what we want is what we do.
Going to the village to buy some herbs to make tea and other useful things, an everyday business that shouldn't call his attention became his worst nightmare. His eyes fell upon a couple. A couple whom he didn't want to meet, but… Fate? Well, that for Shaka was turning out to be the worst thing.
In a small store in front of him was Mu dressing ordinary jeans pants and a black t-shirt, his hair in the usual ponytail and beside him was a young woman… Blue dress, long dark hair below her waist, sweet face and ruby eyes. The dots, characteristics of every lemurian, were very visible and her womb was huge. Shaka's eyes when he saw that… The couple, the young woman and specially the womb that carried a being he wished it had been Mu's son with him, shone… Once again he was being envelloped by stingy and mundane freelings. When he realized he was already in front of the couple and staring the young woman.
"Hum… I'm honored to meet the lucky young lady who grabbed the Aries knight's heart for herself". He said sarcastically, hurt, but not looking at Mu's wide open eyes. "My pleasure, I'm Virgo Shaka, the knight closest to God… Or at least I was". He said half-looking at Mu.
Mireia looked at that beautiful man. As she already knew about the story of Mu and Shaka she was not surprised that he was feeling hurt, but she never imagined he could come and speak to her.
"Nice to meet you, Virgo Shaka, my name's Mireia". She said looking at him in the eyes. "But, I'm afraid you're wrong about me having stolen or taken Mu's heart… Since his heart and also his thoughts belong only to you". She was serious. It was not because she had been forced to follow the rituals of her people that she would let go of her true self. She knew that Shaka's acting that way meant one thing: jealousy.
Mu was worried about how that conversation could end. He knew Mireia was a difficult person and after he saw Shaka out of control in his temple… He wasn't sure if that situation was really a good ideia.
Shaka's eyes closed a little bit when he heard that. "Evil tongue". He thought when he saw that the young woman's face remained the same. He wouldn't accept defeat, even if he had to make a ridiculous scene in the middle of the street.
"If that were true he wouldn't be the father of that child you carry".The vein on his forehead trembled a little showing that he was irritated inside. "He would have stayed with me, instead of going to bed with you". It was done, he spilled his poison, but couldn't feel it, because a slap in his face was all he felt.
"How dare you talk to me that way? Show some respect for a lady, even though that lady is carrying the child of the man you love, you ungrateful! Before saying all this crap, look for the reason why this all happened!" Mireia spoke in a serious, dry tone as if she were a mother protecting her babies. But in that case she was taking Mu's side who was astonished by Shaka's words and specially by the slap Mireia gave in the knight's face.
Shaka couldn't believe he had been hit by that woman. That made him feel stupid, weak and even ridiculous.
"Virgo Shaka, if you really think you can say anything about Mu I believe you are totally wrong. Now if you believe to have a civilized conversation my house is open for you". Mireia finished staring at the face in front of her with her fingers still marked there.
Shaka merely closed his eyes trying to calm down his breathing as well as his wish to attack that woman who dared touch him. With no answer, he looked at Aries and turned around, going to the Sanctuary.
"Mireia, for Athena, how dared you do that?" Said the young man shocked, staring at the woman's angry face.
"I did it and I'd do it again. I won't allow him to speak bad things about you in front of me even though he is hurt. If he is a man, then he should honor that and besides, he needed someone to face him". She looked at Mu who had sad eyes. "He is jealous, Mu, it's a normal reaction for those who love and feel the pain of a loss. But, even though he is the knight closest to God… I have to say that I found him a little stupid". She said already preparing to take the way back home.
"Mireia… Love makes us blind, deaf and stupid sometimes". Said him going to the woman's side and holding her arm, taking her away, but his thoughts were joining a certain furious blond man in the direction of the sanctuary.
"Mireia... o amor nos deixa, cego, surdo e burro em muitas das vezes"¹. Falou já se colocando ao lado da mulher segurando o seu braço levando-a embora, mas seus pensamentos estavam indo com um certo loiro enfurecido para o santuário.
To be continued...
Kisses
Litha-chan
