Thank you so much for your review. Im glad you liked it! Writing has been very helpful for me..

March 23, 2006

Dear Diary

We have been divorced for about 3 weeks now. He decided to call me the day after and tell me about all his "fun" he had while we were fighting about details. He already has a girlfriend. She is 20 years older than him.. Oh well, another mummy for him. He constantly owls me and tells me what fun he has had the previous night. I just throw it straight into the fire. He actually learned hwo to use a phone just to be able to call and toment me. Luckily i have caller id, which i dont think he knows about. HA. He has already bailed on our daughter. He has the basic visitation, and owled to let me know he cant take her this weekend because he didnt feel good. It was fine with me. More time with her. His parents and family were trying to get him together with someone else even before we were divorced.

I am starting to heal. I didnt beleive it was ever possible, but i am. Harry and Ron have helped so much, but they can only do so much. They are both happily married, Ron has twins on the way. Ginny has been trying to set me up on dates, but i dont think im ready for it yet. I am working now. I am working for the Department of Magical Cooperation. Right now im only a secretary, but im going to work my way up.

I keep my self busy. I do anything i can during the day to exhast myself so i will fall asleep without thinking of him. Im going to a Universityso that i wont be a secretary all my life. I run a lot more, and the school work occupies a lot of my time when Zoe is asleep. I have to keep telling myself it will get better, i will stop loving him, i wont hurt anymore. The pain is slowly fading. Slowly.

Zoe is doing great. She is walking around everywhere now. Her magic is very powerful. She can make it rain when she crys, and she loves making things float around. She is going to be a powerful little witch.

The days keep passing, and they seem to go faster and faster as each one closes. My birthday is rapidly approaching andi want to be happy by then. Its gettng easier to pretend to be happy around Zoe. Although it might just be me healing, and less pretending. Well diary for today im going to ask for peace. I need peace in my heart to get by. And keep me busy.

Hermione