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Dedication: To the victims of Hurricane Katrina.
I scampered happily up to my dorm. Alex was really cute! And he liked me! I would have thought that I would have remembered someone that cute. Tess was up there, and she was looking at me seriously.
"What's up?" I said, grinning at her. She stared back at me.
"Why were you talking to Alex?" she asked me, frowning.
I shrugged. "I sat next to him and we started talking and, well, ya. He is so cute, don't you think? He likes me a lot! He kissed my cheek on the way up." I told her.
Her eyes bugged out of her head, practically. "Are you serious? What about David? You're just going to cheat on him? Do you know what Alex did to you before you lost your memory?" Tess exclaimed, looking angry.
I sighed. "Yes, I am serious. I broke up with David, so I'm not cheating on him. What did Alex do to me before?" I told her.
She sighed. Now she looked more annoyed at me, rather then angry. "That must have been why David was looking so sad. Alex called you all of these not so nice names. He called you a-a slut and all these names." She told me, looking at me like she just realized I didn't know.
I thought about it. Alex would never do that. "He would have never done that to me. He likes me and I like him, and your just trying to protect that David kid. I don't believe you." I told Tess, and she looked angry again.
"Fine. When you get your memory back, you will have no boyfriend at all then." She snapped, and stalked into the bathroom. I liked Tess a lot, and I didn't want her to be mad at me, but hey, she was lying to me. I went to me bed and wrenched the curtains closed. I was going to bed.
The next morning, I woke up. I had been having dreams of what I'm guessing is some of my memories. It was really weird. When I looked at people now, people that I know, I had memories to connect them with.
That day at lunch, I sat with Alex. I held hands with him. He was really funny and sweet. I caught a glimpse of that David kid. He was looking in our direction and looking super sad. If you ask me, he had some strange obsession with me.
After lessons, I had to go to Madam Pomfrey again. She did the same thing she did yesterday, this time she looked incredibly pleased.
"You have regained a lot of your memory. You should have all of your memory, except for the romance section, back by, if my predictions are correct, Sunday." She told me, looking pleased.
I grinned. That meant that I wouldn't have to keep being the worst one in class anymore. "When am I going to get my other memories back?" I asked her, curious.
"I'm not sure." She said, looking thoughtful. I understood that I could leave, so I did. I went up to my dorm to put my bag down. Tess was there.
"I saw you at lunch with Alex." She said softly. I nodded.
"Your really breaking David's heart, you know." She said. I looked at her.
"Why do you care so much about that David kid?" I said. I hadn't thought of him at all.
"Because 'that David kid' loves you! He talks to me lately, he tells me stuff! He can't sleep at night, knowing you like someone else. He is falling behind in his classes; you are all he can think about! Your hurting him so bad." Tess practically shouted at me.
I stared back at her coldly. Why did it matter so much to her who I liked? I remember enough to know that we are best friends, but not much more.
"I don't believe you. Your lying." I announced to her, and stalked out to go find Alex.
Tess and I didn't talk all weekend. Madam Pomfrey was right; I did remember everything except romance. This made it even worse to mad at Tess. Kelsey was always too tired to do stuff, since her stomach was so big. I really had no one to talk to. My cousins and my friend Kimmy were always there, but they weren't as good.
Alex and I were now onto kissing. It felt so awesome to kiss him. He was really sweet and funny to. I just loved being around him. That David kid was always looking sad though. I tried to push him out of my mind, but I had an inkling that the something that was wrong with him was my fault.
Monday morning rolled around, and Tess and I still weren't talking. I tried not to let this bother me, but it was hard. I had so much on my mind that it was hard to concentrate on my lessons. I was glad that I had Tyler, who hadn't said anything about David or Alex. I was glad at least one of my friends wasn't opinionated.
Lunch was okay. Alex pulled me into a deserted corridor, and we began kissing. Well, making out. It was cool and all, but then David came along. I couldn't help but noticing that he looked horrible. When I first saw him, he was good looking. Now, he looked horrible. His eyes had shadows under them, and his hair was a mess. He looked tired, and he was walking with his head down.
Then he looked up and saw us making out. I realized with a jolt in my stomach that Tess had probably been telling the truth all along. David looked at us in horror and run out of the corridor. I sighed. I looked up at Alex's adorable face.
"Listen Alex. It's not that I don't like you, but once I get my memory back, I probably won't want to be with you anymore. I'm sorry, but I think we should just be friends." I told him grudgingly.
Alex studied me for a second, and then nodded. "Okay. I think that sounds good." He told me. He gave me a hug, and then walked off in the other direction, leaving me wondering if I made the right choice.
I walked up to the dorms. I was think about what I did. I didn't even notice that there was a suit of armor coming up. BAM! I walked straight into it, banging my head. Memories began to flash before my eyes. Ones with David, ones with Alex, ones with Marcus Flint.
When I opened my eyes, I was lying on the floor. What had happened came flooding back to me. Everything that had happened with Alex… How could I have liked that scumbag? And David, poor David, what was I going to do about him?
I jumped up and dashed to Gryffendor tower. I had a splitting headache, but I didn't care. I had to find David and Tess and apologize. I found Tess first. She was sitting in the common room and doing her homework. I ran up to her.
"Tess, I am so sorry! I didn't mean to call you a liar, and I know that you were telling the truth, I'm so sorry Tess!" I said really fast, all in one breath. Tess looked up at me, amazed. Then she smiled.
"Got your memory back, now have you? Yes, I accept you apology. Now what are you going to go about David?" She said.
"I don't know!" I wailed. Then, speak of the devil, David walked in. I jumped up and ran to him.
"I'm so sorry David, I didn't mean any of that! You're the one that I want, not Alex. Can you please forgive me? I love you." I told him urgently.
He shook his head. "I'm sorry Lily. I just can't be with you. You hurt me to bad by being with Alex. I think you and I are better off as being not together. So long Lily." He told me softly. There was something in his face that looked different now.
I watched him walk away. I started crying. Tess was right. Now I had no one to be with. Tess saw me crying and jumped up to hug me. I just continued right on sobbing, right there in the middle of the common room. I had screwed up my life and I knew, just because of a cute boy who was nice to me.
The next day, the last thing I wanted to do was get up and go to lessons. I knew I had to though, so I dragged myself up. Now I see how David felt when was with Alex. I had hardly slept. I didn't do anything to my hair, just pulled it into a ponytail. I stooped down and grabbed my books.
I made my way slowly down to the dining hall. I wasn't hungry at all, but Tess was, so I went down with her. I had never been this depressed. I didn't want to do anything. I remembered the stuff that Alex did to me, and he was actually civil to me. It seemed to me like he actually wanted to be friends.
The worst part of all day was seeing David. He looked better then he had lately. His hair wasn't all messy, and the bags were gone. He looked slightly frazzled, and Tess told me that was because he suddenly decided that he couldn't afford to keep screwing up in classes.
Speaking of classes, I was doing everything I could to keep up with them. They were becoming increasingly harder. I did everything I could to do well in classes that Friday, and still, I only ended up with something that was barely passing. Tyler could tell that the whole David situation was affecting my work.
At the end of the day, I went down and had some dinner. I was a little hungry, but I guessed that was because I hadn't eaten all day. I did want to do anything, but I knew that I had homework to do. I pulled out my books and started working. It was incredibly lonesome to do without David or Alex or anyone sitting next to me.
I worked almost all night on my homework, and I managed to get it all done. It was amazing, but I did it. I was so tired that I toppled into bed with my clothes on as the sun was rising. I didn't sleep though. I tried, and I fell asleep after awhile. But I laid there for hours before I finally fell asleep.
I got up around four and trudged down to the common room. My hair was a mess, but I didn't care. I didn't care about anything, except school. And David. But David didn't matter, since I don't matter to him. I was so depressed; it was hard to believe that just a few days before I was so happy.
I sat there on a couch doing nothing. David came down the stairs for the boy's dormitory, and I could feel my heart flip over. I could feel myself start to cry. It hurt so much to look at him. Not having him hurt more then the whole episode with the rape. It was amazing, but it was true. A broken heart hurts.
A/N: This is a short chapter, but sorry. Okay, I have a question for you guys. Did you like the deal I made with you about the reviews? If you want me to do that more often, tell me and I will.
