Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter
Dedication: To girls. If you're a boy, I'm sorry, but this one goes out to all girls everywhere.
When David and I stopped kissing, I was confused. I was positive that David didn't love me, but all of a sudden this feeling inside me said trust him. It was the potion finally taking full effect. I was almost back to the way I was. But still, there was that lingering feeling that David really didn't want me back.
But you just kissed him! I reminded myself, but it was hard to let everything that had happened go. I finally got what everyone meant by being strong. They seemed to know me better then I knew myself. It was a scary thought, but it was true. It was almost like it was their job to make sure I made the right decisions.
"Why would you love a girl like me, David?" I asked David carefully, wondering if I was about to have my heart broken all over again.
"Because you're independent, yet you need people around you. You're loving and nice and you know how to forgive and forget. Your smart, and your not afraid to do something even it makes people laugh at you. And you're a wonderful friend. Oh, and you're the most beautiful, awesome, sweetest girl ever." David told me, and I felt myself blush.
"That's not true." I said, snorting. This time I wasn't doubtful because I was all depressed, but because I knew it wasn't true.
David took my hands in his. "Yes, Lily, It is true. Maybe you can't see it, but I can. Most people can see that you are every one of those things I just said. Trust me Lily!" He said, and there was a note of desperation in his voice at the end. I looked at him for a second. He looked so cute.
"I just don't want to get hurt again!" I said for the second time that night, and this time I started crying.
David pulled me close, and I cried on his shoulder. I was crying everything out, all of my worries, everything. When I was done, I looked at David. I felt so much better. It was like since I finally cried and voiced my fear at the same time, it got lesser. Just saying it didn't mean anything, and neither did crying. They had to be together.
"Lily!" He said, and I was wondering what he was talking about. He conjured a mirror and handed it to me. I grabbed it and looked at myself. My eyes were glowing purple! All of a sudden, all of the memories from the past month or two were flashing before my eyes. I had no idea what was happening, but I knew that it must be something important.
I opened my eyes. I was breathing hard like I had just run a mile. David was staring back at me, looking worried. I sat up. I rubbed my eyes. I looked at David, and I realized something. I felt different. Really different. David continued to watch me as I thought about how I felt different. Finally I realized how I felt different. I was better.
Madam Pomfrey had told me that for some people taking the potion, something would happen to them so they would know that there were completely cured of depression. I thought she meant like a chandelier falling on them or something. Now I realized this was what she meant. I was completely undepressed. It felt wonderful.
I grinned at David, who was still looking at me worriedly.
"I'm all better!" I cried, suddenly feeling better then I had in months. I jumped up from were I had been on the couch and grabbed the mirror, which was on the floor, and examined my eyes to see if they were still purple. I looked at them. They were back to bright green and I was glad. Suddenly, I had a new appreciation for things like that.
"David? I'm sorry." I told David, still hoping around with my newfound energy.
"For what?" He said, looking curious and truly having no idea.
"For making this so hard for you. You know, saying you didn't really love me and all. I know now that you do." I told him, sitting down next to him.
He smiled at me. I leaned forward and kissed him this time. It was a long kiss, and quite a bit harder then the last kiss. The last one I had been hesitant, but now I wasn't. It was like with my depression being all gone, my trustfulness came back.
"I love you Lily." David whispered into my ear.
"I love you to."
The rest of the week, I was absolutely euphoric. I couldn't stop grinning, and I had boundless energy. I went to see madam Pomfrey, and she told me that I was very lucky to be one of the few who had a reaction like that. It was pretty rare. She also told me that I would have a ton of energy all week, and I would be extremely happy, but then the happiness would go back to a normal state, and I would be like I used to be, at least for the most part.
Everybody noticed the difference, but nobody more then me. Another thing Madam Pomfrey told me was that the reason why I was only feeling a little of the effects of the potion was because it was all building up to the climax. I was actually hungry for once, I ate more then I usually do all day just at breakfast. I could concentrate in class, and it seemed much easier.
On Saturday it was the final Quiditch match. I don't know the exact odds of us winning, but I knew that we had to score at least a hundred points before I could catch the snitch. I was worried, because we were playing Slytherin and I wanted to beat them more then anything.
On Saturday, it was cold and cloudy, but I didn't mind. I don't mind playing in the clouds; I like it actually. It's easier to see. Anyways, the team shuffled onto the field. I looked at the smug looks on the Slytherins face and more then anything I wanted to beat them. I saw one of them point at me. I shuffled closer to hear what they were saying
"-all depressed, so she will play like crap. Don't bother playing your hardest, she sucks now. Thank goodness to whatever made her unhappy." The caption told to what I'm guessing is the seeker.
I held back a grin. They didn't know that I was all good and happy now. They thought I was still all unhappy. They were in for a major surprise.
They were surprised, not by me, but by the whole team. They all showed such a passion for playing. The whole time, James didn't shout one thing because we were all playing to well. We were soon winning by eighty points. I knew that there was just a few more and we would win!
We scored another goal, so I started to keep my eye out for the snitch. Something hit me in the back of the head. Thinking it was a bird, I reached my hand behind me to grab whatever to was. My hand closed around something cold and round. I pulled my hand forward. I was holding the snitch. The game was tied, but it was over.
"What happens now?" I asked David as we flew to the ground. The whole team was glaring at me because I might have cost us the game.
"I'm not sure. I don't ever remember there being a tie." David said, frowning.
"Captains over here please!" Madam Hooch called, and James and the Slytherin Captain came forward.
"Now, we are going to have a tiebreaker. You have two choices. You may either have your chasers try and score and whoever scores most in five minutes wins, or you can see which of your seekers can catch the snitch faster." Madam Hooch told them, and they both frowned, thinking.
"We are going to pick the seekers." James said, and the Slytherin captain thought about that. Finally he nodded, and the Slytherin Chaser and me came on. I remembered that they still thought I was all depressed, so I attached a sullen look to my face.
"Three, two, one, GO!" Madam Hooch shouted, and I rose like a bullet into the air. I looked everywhere, and for once I wasn't distracted by anything else, but neither was the Slytherin seeker.
We both looked for about ten minutes. I could hear the crowd getting impatient, but there was nothing I could do. The snitch was nowhere to be found. Then, I saw it. Hovering near one of the goal posts was the snitch. I was close to it, and I sped over to it. I grabbed it easily, since the Slytherin Chaser was on the opposite end of the field.
"AND GRYFFENDOR WINS!" The announcer shouted, and I grinned. It had been too easy to catch that snitch. I grinned at my team as I flew down. They grinned back at me, forgetting that it was my fault that we almost didn't win. David kissed me when I flew down, and the rest of the team hugged me. I looked over at the Slytherin team. The captain was yelling at the seeker for not following me around.
The spectators spilled onto the field, and Tess, Tucker, Tyler, and Kelsey all ran toward us. Kelsey looked happier then she had in days. Tyler had been supporting Gryffendor to, since he was in Ravenclaw. I grinned at all them, and Tess hugged me. I hugged her back, grinning. We had won the Quiditch cup for the fourth year running. With a start, I realized we had started winning since I joined the team. Well, since me and Sirius joined the team, but still.
All of us made our way back to the Gryffendor Tower. Sirius and David snuck off while we were walking, and I figured it was to go to Hogsmade and get some party food and stuff. I was too happy to care that David wasn't there. I hadn't been happy like I had been lately in forever.
The rest of April flew by. I was always surrounded by my friends and David. Most of the time we were doing homework, but occasionally we just talked. I went back to my normal moods, but now I appreciated things a little more. I had a second chance at life and I am going to live it right.
I put my hair back to its natural red color and gave it highlights instead. I was proud of having my mother's hair. Actually, I don't know if it's my grandmother Lily's hair or my mother's hair, but it doesn't matter. I'm still proud of it. I told Kelsey this, and she laughed, but she agreed with me.
She showed me that her hair isn't really blonde, but reddish-blonde. "I'm going to let it go natural to." She told me, and I grinned.
On May second, I had a career meeting with Professor McGonnagall.
"So, Lily, what would you like to be when you get out of school?" Professor McGonnagall asked me, and I thought about all of the packets I had looked through that morning.
"I think that I might want to be a teacher." I said shyly. I hadn't told anybody this, not even Tess.
"Well, what subject would you like to teach?" Professor McGonnagall asked, and I thought about my answer. I really liked Charms, but I wasn't sure if I wanted to teach it. I liked Transfiguration and Herbology, but I didn't really want to teach those. Potions was a definite no.
"I want to teach Defense against the Dark Arts." I said, and I knew that's what I really wanted to teach.
"Okay, then you need a NEWT O in Defense against the Dark Arts, an E in Charms, and an A in Potions, and Transfiguration. You may take one other class to." Professor McGonnagall said, and I nodded.
"I'll do it. I want Arithmacy for my other class." I said, feeling slightly confident and unconfident at the same time.
"You need an OWL in all of those classes, but at least an E in Potions and Transfiguration." She told me, and I nodded. I got up to leave, wondering if I could ever make and E in transfiguration and an E in Potions.
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