I need you
Pairing: Kodam

Spoilers for season 10
Chapter seven

Taking a breath, he sighed softly as Steve and Danny walked in.. He initially wanted to gain a trust with Tamiko so that he could win his way into the Yakuza.. He wanted to legitimise the business, at least the Hawaii faction, and then in turn, the rest of the world..It was a big move, a bold move especially to try on his own.. Then Tamiko's father was murdered by Kenji so he could take over.. Even though he didn't have any romantic feelings towards Tamiko, he still saw her as a friend and he hated to see her hurting over her father's death…

So the real reason he went to Japan was to take down the Yakuza, He wanted to have them make him an oyabun. As oyabun, he would have been able to dismantle the entire operation from within. To then prove his loyalty, he made the decision to become an inside man for them, and start feeding them HPD intel.. It was a risk, but he had to do it and he was only giving them enough information about HPD to give him time to gather evidence he needed and it was working…

He had planned to go after Kenji himself, he was gaining more and more evidence needed to take him and his entire crew and operation down..

but then when Tamiko left him amidst the whole debacle with Lou's niece, he decided to lay low for a while with five-o.. He still came in and did what he needed to do at work, but laying low meant coming in, doing his job and not saying a word to anyone.. Nobody could know what he was doing or else it could jepordise what he was doing.. He knew that Steve would want to get five-o involved or shut it down.

While staying low, he continued to gain evidence, and gain Kenji's trust, he showed them just enough to have them thinking he was on there side, but he was working the whole time for five-o.. It's why he had handed in his gun and badge, to keep his cover up to the Yakuza that he was not involved with five-o anymore..

Though once he to back to Hawaii and began implementing his plan, he slipped back into old ways.. He had been going to AA meetings, and the secrecy of the whole thing, feeling like even though he was working for five-o the whole time, he had at the same time betrayed Steve's trust by not letting him in, Tamiko leaving knowing he still loved Kono and that she was being used, it all got to him.. It's why Kono had found him the way she had, drunk and out of sorts..

After talking to Kono, he knew that he needed to let Steve and Danny in, and let the taskforce help…

He just needed some more time before he put his plan into action.. He knew now with Kono by his side that she would support him, though he wasn't sure how she would feel about the whole story coming out.. It was hard thinking he might lose her before he could truly get her back, they had a brief conversation when she was in town for Doris McGarrett's funeral which had ended with them in his bed but beyond that, they hadn't really discussed much at all, and they never really discussed anything after they slept together, but it was after that night when he knew he still loved her and had feelings for her.

He had the video footage or Kenji executing Ends and Haru, now all he needed was to take him down.. His alcoholism had prevented him from moving ahead with that plan till now, though he was planning on leaving that part out for now.. His conversation with Kono had lasted for several hours and it was now leading into early afternoon, early evening.

Adam was exhausted and he wanted to put the last motions in play before he went after Kenji the next day, so he wanted this done.. Sitting down with Steve and Danny opposite him on the couch, Kono by his side, he carefully explained everything that had been going on, him getting close to Tamiko to get a membership back into Yakuza.. His initial plan was to take down Masuda, but then the plan changed when Kenji had him killed.. He could have left it alone but seeing how her father's death affected her, he knew he couldn't back down.. He needed to keep going, part of him cared enough about getting justice for Hajime and Tamiko Masuda, and the other part wanted to take down the Yakuza for good.

Feeling nervous, he felt Kono slip her hand into his and squeeze as he spoke and told his story, taking a few deep breaths here and there.

"So, Let me get this straight Adam", Steve began, not failing to notice how comfortable Adam and Kono looked together already. He did love the two of them together and whilst his trust in Adam was low at this point he trusted Kono and he she trusted Adam, that was enough for him..

"Your plan to take down the Yakuza was to fly to Japan and have them make you an oyabun?", he continued, looking at him straight in the eye. "Yes", he replied nodding his head, taking another breath".. Steve nodded his head in response murmuring, "Uh-huh". Letting Adam continue, he waited patiently for him, "And as oyabun, I would have been able to dismantle the entire operation from within". His was down, looking at the ground, not wanting to meet either of their eyes..

Danny was next to speak up, "And I am guessing, to prove your loyalty", his hands flying around like they normally do, "you decided to become an inside man for them and start feeding them HPD", Adam cut him off responding by adding, "I was giving them morsels Danny, just enough to keep them on the hook while I gathered the evidence I needed and it's working so far".

Sighing softly, Steve needed Adam to know that whilst he was on board with this plan, it was the fact he wasn't honest with him.. "Look the fact that you thought this plan of yours was the best way to do it, that's not the problem here Adam". Hs arm outstretched as he tried to make his point.. "You weren't straight with me, alright, you lied to me multiple times". Looking out to his side, he continued, "I gave you so many changes to come clean.. Adam, you gave me your badge, your gun and you quit.. then you showed back up here like nothing ever happened and wanted back in".

It wasn't like he didn't know this conversation would be hard, Adam knew it would be.. but he had to make Steve understand why he did what he did and kept him out of the loop, "You know as well as I do, you would have said it was too dangerous, shut everything down, but after what Kenji did, what he Tamiko through", he paused, and looked over at Kono who continued to hold his hand, she knew he wanted to get justice for her father's murder, "I did what I had to do okay?, I had to see this through".

The look on Steve's face, he knew the man was getting angry, his brow was creasing and when he spoke, he raised his voice a little.. "Did? Cause that wasn't your call to make, you didn't just put yourself at risk", looking towards the door where he knew the rest of the five-o team had been earlier, "you risked the reputation of this entire unit, don't you see that, and that right there Adam", he sighed, shaking his head.. "that's hey, that's something /I/ have too answer for".

Looking away, he nodded his head.. He could understand where Steve was coming from, but it still didn't change what he thought and what he thought was he was doing was right for him.. "Look if you want my badge, I'll understand", he responded, not meeting the other man's eyes till he had gotten it all out, and then he looked at his boss. Sighing softly, Steve didn't want to lose Adam.. Yes there was some mistrust there now, but he didn't want to lose him as a friend or an employee either.. "If I want your badge, I'll take your badge, Alright.. Right now, what I want is for you to get some sleep, come in tomorrow and we'll deal with this together as a team okay? Is that okay?"

Nodding his head, he sighed softy. He had been drinking a lot the last few days in the midst of finding the last pieces of evidence, "Of course, sounds find to me Steve". At that, Steve stood up and Danny followed, and then both Kono and Adam stood up as well.. "I'll let them out Adam", she whispered softly, leaning in to kiss him on the cheek.. It was hard having to hear that, in all her time as being on the taskforce, she had never heard Steve that angry with one of his team.

Heading to the door with the, and walking them out, leaning against the door frame, "You aren't gonna take his badge are you Steve?", he sighed and shook his head, "Kono, I'm not going to take his badge, but I will let you know… It's going to take a while before he earns our full trust back". Nodding her head, she accepted what he said there and she too felt the same way.. After hearing all of that, she knew her and Adam had a ways to go as well.. "By the way, welcome back Kono", he added as he handed her a badge..

Smiling softly, she ran her fingers over the badge, and waved to them as she closed the door, feeling excited, nervous, happy and apprehensive about the idea of being home, in the taskforce again and having Adam back in her life all at the same time. It was a lot of changes in a short time span but she knew she could do it.

Author's Notes:
Thank you all for all your support. I was nervous doing chapters 5 and 6 because of the content involved in it, but I have gotten good feedback and I am really enjoying the angst of this story so far. I watched the most current episode of Hawaii five-o, episode 18 and there are spoilers in there, some of the dialogue for chapter 7 and 8 are directly from the episode. As soon as I saw the episode, only watching that very first part where it all came out about what Adam was really up to, I knew that I had to add this into my story.. I have changed a few things from the episode itself to be able to work in with my story, I did the talk with Steve and Adam before they took down Kenji and included Danny and then did the part where the hitmen broke into Adam's apartment after.. I am really proud of chapter 7 and 8, I really feel it's some of my best work in incorporating a bit of action as well as best I could.

I know the last few days has been hard on us all.. Knowing that Hawaii five-o is coming to an end in April is heartbreaking, but I do want to reassure my readers, supporters and fans to know that I'm not going anywhere. I am going to continue on with my stories and keep giving you guys as much Hawaii five-o content, and especially as much of my OTP McRoll as I can. No matter what the ending is, I'll continue with what I am doing and trying my best to make you all happy with what I write.

SteveMcGarrettLover:
I really want to thank you much from the bottom of my heart, for someone to not always enjoy angst topics in stories, to continue to read mine and enjoy them, it makes me feel like my writing is good enough to read even though you don't always enjoy angst topics. My confidence has really grown over the last couple of months and a lot of it is because of you and how supportive you have been of all my stories. I hope I continue to give you content that you will enjoy and love..