I need you
Pairing: Kodam
Spoilers for season 10
Chapter eleven
A few weeks had passed and things had been going well for Kono and Adam, both of them slowly reconnecting with each other. She had missed being with him, and having him on the team was an amazing feeling as well, they worked well together and had a great home life.. There were still issues they needed to deal with and she knew that..
Tamiko was one of those sore spots for her.. Kono had not been with anyone else since they broke things off and it was hard to think about Adam being intimate with anyone else since they separated. The Yakuza was also another sore spot, and the two worlds, Tamiko and the Yakuza didn't mesh well with Kono.
Being at home in Hawaii meant being close to her family and friends, and she loved it, though what she didn't love was one day hearing a knock on the door as she was doing some house work, Adam answering it and hushed voices at the door. She could hear a woman's voice, and she instantly recognised it as Tamiko, and at that, this sinking feeling rushed through her.
She knew that Adam told her that his relationship with Tamiko didn't really mean anything to him, but she was still scared that he had feelings for her, and those insecurities were on show now, though she did try hard to not let Adam see them.
Later on that evening, she decided to have a hot bath with candles, bubbles and relax, though as she was about to head into the bathroom, Adam tugged gently on her arm and turned her to face him. "Okay, I don't know what's going on with you Kono, but you gotta start talking to me. Why have you been giving me the cold shoulder all afternoon and evening?".
Sighing, she looked at him, tucking her hair behind her ear, she hadn't realised she had been doing it so obviously, but Adam knew her too well sometimes. "You were talking to Tamiko at the door earlier today, why?"
She wasn't going to mince words, if Adam wanted to know why she was angry and upset, then he would know about it.. "It's nothing Kono". He shook his head and sighed.. Tamiko was still being pursued by the Yakuza in Japan, though the Hawaii faction had been taken out, there was still factions world wide and thought she was involved with Adam's whole plan and knowing it was a double agent play all the time.
Shaking her own head, she looked at him, "Stop with the lies Adam, don't tell me it's nothing when I know clearly something is going on". She didn't hate Tamiko, but at the same time, she was jealous of her. She had been intimate with Adam, and had fallen for him, and Kono knew how charming a man he was. After all, he wooed her when five-o was still in the middle of investigating what was going on between his father and Joe White.
It was a scary feeling, being in love with someone, and having already lost him, only to find him again and then to think you might lose him once more.. "It really is nothing, it is just something Tamiko wanted me to take care of, she wanted a favour of me, and after all I put her through, I couldn't say no.. She is only in this predicament because of me anyway".
Pulling away from his reach, she felt the tears well in her eyes.. She hated being vulnerable like this, and baring her soul and her insecurities like this.. "You slept with her Adam, you can't just expect me to be okay with whatever is going on or whenever she wants you to be her knight in shining armour.. We are meant to be working on our marriage, and you are out there doing favours for her and keeping secrets from me about it".
It was like a dagger to his heart, he knew that.. He knew he had slept with her, and it had felt good, but not anywhere near as good as it felt being with his wife. It was a mistake and he knew that now, but he didn't mean he wanted Tamiko back in his life.
"Alright, fine.. The Yakuza in Japan want her because they think she knew about my plan all along, my plan being a double agent for five-o, and they want her on a plan to Japan by tomorrow night or they will send people here to Hawaii to take her.. It's my problem Kono, I involved her when I shouldn't have.. I need to fix it".
Running his hands through his hair, he let out an audible sigh.. He loved Kono, and he wanted to work on their marriage but he also needed to fix his mistakes. Steve had let him back on five-o finally, but still there seemed to be a bit of mistrust there as well. He knew he still had a lot of work to do. "You keep telling me you are done with the Yakuza but now here you are, being pulled back into it all, when it is going to stop Adam? When will you stop and think about us for once?"
In her heart, she wanted them to be a family and wanted to raise a family with him, and she had been feeling off the last week or so, vomiting and feeling unwell, and now she was late for her period. They had been sexual active a lot since that first night back in the Hawaiian Hilton and none of those times had they thought to use protection. It hadn't been spoken about yet, when they were ready to start a family, but she knew she loved Adam too much to not want a family.
The lateness of her period, she chalked it down to stress and hadn't even thought there could be another reason for it, she was usually always a little late when she was stressed, As she spoke, she felt another wave of nausea and put her hand over her mouth and made a run to the bathroom, throwing up the entire contents of dinner, Adam walking in behind her, and kneeling behind her to rub her back, though she pushed him away a little which put a frown on his face.
After she was finished, she leaned against the bathroom wall and reached for some toilet paper to clean her mouth, "Adam, maybe we need to take a break, I've watched you break free of that life before and now I can't see an end to it.. I can't watch you get dragged back into all over again.. especially by her, and especially not now".
Kono had taken a pregnancy test only a few days before hand and had been worrying about how to tell Adam, they had not long gotten back together, and now they were possibly pregnant and going to bring a baby into this world together? "What do you mean? Especially not now? Kono, I love you, I've never stopped loving you.. and everything I did, I did for you, and for us.. I don't have feelings for her, but I do care for her enough to know I can't let the Japanese Yakuza get their hands on her because they don't care if she is telling the truth or not, they will want to punish her anyway".
Standing up with Adam's help, she was in tears as she walked into the bedroom and opened her underwear drawer, shaking a little and feeling a little nervous as she clenched the test in her hand and gazed into his eyes, putting the test into his hands, her own shaking as she did so "I'm pregnant Adam, we're gonna have a baby".
Author Notes:
Thank you for being patient with me, I am really loving still writing and I am not going anywhere, it is just taking a little longer to get chapters out for my stories but I'll always continue to be here for you guys. I hope you like these two chapters. I wasn't planning on adding that end part in till it basically just wrote itself and kind of explains why Kono is feeling a little insecure and unsure of things in chapter 11. Thanks for sticking by me during this time when we are all anxious and stressed about the cover-19. I hope my stories give you a little bit of stress relief and make you forget the worlds issues for just a little while.
SteveMcGarrettLover:
Thank you so much and I am really glad you loved this chapter. I was nervous writing it because I wasn't used to doing a love scene for these two, but it came out really well. I hope you enjoy these next two chapters as well.
