November 3rd

Pan,

Okay… I've learned a few things in the past couple of days…

1. Don't ever get your hopes up when your best friend stays the night

2. Don't ever get your hopes up when the girl you love with all of you heart doesn't love you back, but shows a hit of kindness

Yeah, duh I'm referring to you… I really don't know what I'm going to do! I am to afraid to tell you-- and every time I'm close, you shove another guy in my face. What am I supposed to do? Now, I'm having second thoughts about giving you this journal… and even if I did, I wonder what you would say about me. Should I just give it to you now? Unfinished? No-- I did this and decided to give it to you after a full year. Now I'm waiting and thinking of what you would say… Oh my god, this is so fucked up! I should have never even became friends with you in the first place!

But then I may have never known how it feels to be in 100 Head-Over-Heels love…

(maybe it's not so bad?)

(no, it's bad…)

Trunks

November 5th

Pan--

Do you remember when you were in third grade? You started crying in the hallway because you were lost and I helped you find your class. Then your mom made me walk with you and Goten to school everyday because you became lost in the first place because Goten had abandoned you. And that was when we first became friends.

Is it too late to say that I don't want to walk you to school anymore?

Yeah.

November 10th

Pan--

Do you think I'm crazy for thinking I'd ever have a chance with you? You're still trying to figure out what type of guy you like.

And I'm still trying to figure out if I'm ever going to have a chance with you.

Trunks

November 11th

Pan-

You called me today to tell me you found somebody else and want my approval. You are bringing him by tomorrow.

Should I just tell you I'm happy for you?

Or should I tell you how I really feel?

Trunks

November 13th

Pan,

He's horrible. He carries around a comb, drives a sports car, always wears dingy cologne… He looks like an ape with all of that ridiculous hair he has. Dreadlocks? Never seemed like the type I pictured you with…

But then again, I was.

I wish I could just tell you how I feel!

Trunks

November 20th

Pan-

I would give up everything just to be able to tell you how I really feel. No matter what you said back. So today when you walked into my office in black heels and a sexy little dress, you can bet I was feeling even less self-confident. I walked over to you, handed you the papers you needed and took that ridiculous yellow bandana off of your head. You took it from my hands, looked me in the eye and said "it gives me mah character!" and winked as you walked out.

You're not as grown up as I thought you were…

Or are you?

-Trunks

November 24th

Pan,

Lately, it just seems so ridiculous that I feel the way that I do. I am obsessing over you and can't help myself to think of you every day, ever minute. I'm actually going crazy and everything I do… it related to you.

Last time I looked at you differently was before I met you.

And I wish, now, I could go back to that…

Love,

Trunks

November 30th

Pan-

We're going shopping for Christmas gifts tomorrow.

You, me, and dreadlocks.

November 31st

"What one should I get?" Pan modeled two dresses over her slender figure.

'Dreadlocks' wasn't paying attention and kept his hands shoved in his pockets and his mind on the song his iPod was spitting back out at him.

Trunks swallowed hard, then spoke. "I'm sure they'll both look very, very nicely on my mother…"

"Oh, I'll speak for her! Thanks!" Pan giggled when she saw Trunks' expression. "Oh my god, Trunks, you look like you just got hit by a bus!" Pan and Trunks laughed, and 'Dreadlocks' walked over and put his headphones over Pan's ears, obviously jealous of the attention she was giving Trunks.

A frown overcame Pans face as she listened unhappily to Eminem talk about Slim Shady 's standing up.

For about the millionth time in his life, another guy had pushed Trunks from the picture.