Finding Your Love

By: Kyu

Disclaimer: In no way are these characters mine except in my head.

A/N: Hey everyone, another update, felt like being nice and not make you wait. I have a question for you who want me to keep updating since I have some chapter just waiting to be typed up. Would you like if I went up to the last I have finished? I really haven't been in the mood to write more of the story and it's been a year so once 5 is up you may end up waiting an awful long time. So if you want me to update anyway let me know if you think waiting a bit will be ok then I'll do that. It's up to you really. I may end up asking later on where I should head with the story later keep a lookout. Much love. Kyu

CH. 3 Deeper

"Shu-kun!" Ryuichi squealed as he pulled me through the door with Hiro following.

Ryuichi and I were laughing for no reason. It's something he was capable of making me do. Always making me smile. Just put us together and there's no stopping us. But, I was forcing it today. I didn't want to think about what lay in the other room and hoped maybe I could just ignore him and enjoy myself.

I was relieved when stepping into the room with everyone there. Well, not Yuki. I also though Tatsuha was missing till I spotted him sneaking up on Ryu.

"Shuichi."

I jumped. I was wrong about him missing; no one could deny that voice belonged to Yuki. I just didn't see him for he stood behind the door in shadow. I turned steadily toward him and gave him a blank face. He wasn't going to get anything from me this time.

"Konnichiwa Yuki-san."

He looked sad for a spit second when I greeted him so coldly. Maybe he did have true feelings for me, but no matter, until he can prove it I was never going to return.

Hiro stepped up and put his arm around my shoulders. Protective as always but it made my heart jump.

"Yuki, he is staying with me until you figure what he is to you."

"And what is he to you?"

Hiro looked stricken for a second but recovered just as fast. "He is my best friend and I care for him. It's hard to watch him get hurt and you may regret it if you hurt him anymore." Hiro stalked off, he was pissed. Just being in the presence of Yuki seemed to bother him. I was relieved though as he went that he had not said anything about being in love with me. I looked back at Yuki, his cold stare back in place but hidden beyond the edges I thought I could see sadness.

I left to find Hiro; I wasn't going to leave him alone even if I felt a little uneasy around him now. We were friends after all. I headed to the back and saw Tatsuha and Ryu. Tatsuha had succeeded in capturing Ryu and he struggled but did not look a bit like he meant to leave. It was cute and unnerving. Tatsuha looked confused. I let them be.

I found Hiro under a tree outside. He sat there looking straight ahead as if in a daze. I walked right in front of him and looked down. What I saw when he looked up engraved itself into my head. It was something I never thought to see Hiro do. He eyes glistened with tears and tracks ran down his face. He was the one who was supposed to be strong for me but this time. It was me who be strong. I fell down on my knees and embraced him.

"I'm ok, don't get upset over me." He whispered it gently trying to keep himself sounding under control when at the core he was going to fall apart. He held it in though not wanted to show it to me and lifted my head to show a smile. It made me smile and we stood and returned to the party in a slightly better mood.

Ryu had gotten away for Tatsuha and had brought out all the drinks and snacks. We all ate in happy company and when the Sake came out. I'll admit I went a little overboard, wanting to throw away my worries. I also became a game. Pass the Shuichi since I kept falling on everyone. Noriko was the first to play, she shoved me away at Tohma he pushed my off and he just about fell over until K caught him. Finally I was made to sit but I didn't want to. I snuck away and was chased. They were being slow on purpose knowing I'd tire so I made it back to the main room alone.

Yuki was still there sitting quietly not making a sound. I had forgotten he was there. I stalked toward him playing angry but was giggling so bad it did nothing. He smiled. I fell in his lap and immediately Hiro was there pulling me back.

Yuki scowled but made no effort to speak or move as I was dragged outside.

Hiro held me firmly in front of him and yelled as if I was a child who did something wrong. My eyes were heavy and it took a minute to focus on what he said.

"What were you doing?"

"Uh…" was all I managed.

He pulled me close suddenly and we walked around to the front to leave.

"We're going home."

I wanted to protest but thought it best even though on the outside I was amused and uncaring and let myself lean on Hiro as we went to the car. "Hmm…you smell good." I said. He smiled and shook his head.