Ok, so remember the whole angst thing me bringing up the chapter before? Well, sad to say but believe it people. Not every story out there is gonna be all fluff and happily ever after… although I'm not saying this story will end with angst. I'm just warning you guys that there will be angst and maybe a lot of it. But no, it won't be permanent angst that will go throughout many chapters. It'll be angst that will affect the lives of our titans though. I'm sorry if you hate angst but angst is something I'm currently very fond of and I absolutely love angst. But don't worry guys. There will be a lot of fluff to make up for it. Read on to this chapter for lots of fluff. And no, the angst does not begin here, or the next chapter, or after. It might take a while to get to that part considering this is going to be a long fic. So enjoy all the fluff while you can and once again, sorry to those who hate/despise/can't stand angst.
Chapter 3- Tears of the rain
What am I gonna do? The date's about to end and I didn't even tell her how I feel. The Boy Wonder thought to himself, followed by a loud sigh. Starfire, sitting next to him admiring the sunset, was close enough to hear the sigh. A sign of concern formed on her face.
"Robin, is something the matter?"
"What? I mean no. Nothing's wrong," he smiled to assure his words although inside he knew that something was wrong. He knew he was too afraid to do anything, make a move or even speak of his emotions. Robin turned back to face the sunset and the train of thought began once again.
Why was it easier the first time? His eyes squinted in memory of what had happened before the first kiss they shared. Then a sudden memory of the horrible battle they went through with Cinderblock flashed in his head. Who would've known Cinderblock would've caused that much damage back in that battle? There must be something behind it. She… I… wow… I almost lost her. He shivered at the sound of those last few words. Then something hit him. His eyes widened. Could it be? Robin stole a quick glance of Starfire then back. No… it couldn't. Could I have kissed her because I was only worried I would lose her? He shook his head in disgust of what he was thinking. No, I love her, that's why I kissed her. I… His eyes once again widened. "I… love her," Robin accidentally spoke aloud, not realizing that he did. But it just hit him, he really did love her and just now did he realize what kind of love. He always thought he loved her more than just a friend… but being able to think clearly of it and spending a precious amount of time with her it came to him that the love he was feeling was powerful and he needed to do something about it.
Starfire turned to face him, confused. "You love who, Robin?"
"Huh?" Robin snapped back into reality and smacked his palm against his forehead. God, I did it again!
"You said 'I love her'. Who is it that you love Robin?" Starfire asked, as frustration began building up inside of her.
"I… I…. I was talking to myself; I didn't intend it towards anyone."
"Oh… I see," Starfire replied, unsure of what to think or feel, and turned away from him.
Ugghhh... Robin dropped his head onto his lap.
Just tell her. Don't make this so hard on yourself, it's easy. Just say… 'I love you Starfire, with all my heart'. Robin looked up. Did he just hear his own voice telling him what to do? And this time it wasn't him talking. Ok, now he was losing it.
Yea you heard me, just tell her that and you're good to go. His voice repeated.
But… but… first of all, how am I talking to myself? And second, it's not as easy as you may think.
Well first, you're not talking to yourself, you're talking to me. A moment of silence, Robin arched his mask.The voice sighed. DUH you're talking to yourself. Just listen to me, I'm your advice. And second, I would know if it's easy or not, I'M YOU! Just do it, trust me, you won't regret it.
Robin sighed. I hope you're right.
Silence…
I still don't get how I'm talking to you and you're replying. He shook his head in confusion. The answer was quite simple, but his mind was too distracted on Starfire to think of the answer. Ok, I can do it. I'll just say 'Starfire, I love you.' Easy as that. Robin inhaled deeply and exhaled calmly. He turned to face Starfire. "Starfire?"
She changed her direction to face him, "Yes Robin?" and smiled.
"Starfire… I… I wanna tell you something."
"You may proceed Robin, I am listening."
"Ok, I don't know any better way to put this but…… Starfire, I lo-"
"Mommy, mommy look. It's Starfire mommy," a small child (boy) yelled across the street holding onto his mother's hand. "Look mommy!" He tugged onto his mother's shirt.
"Yes dear, I see her. Don't point, that's very rude. Wave instead."
The boy followed his mother's suggestion and waved to Starfire. Starfire giggled and waved back. Although very frustrated for being interrupted and thinking that he might not be able to bring it up again, Robin couldn't help but smile at her reaction. Seconds later the mother pulled the child away and they disappeared down the street. Starfire turned to face Robin.
"What were you saying Robin, before you were interrupted?" She kindly asked.
"Well, I was just gonna say-"
"Hey, is that Starfire in the park?" A teenage boy shouted out.
"Yea, it is. Who's she with?" His friend added in and squinted his eyes to view who was sitting down next to Starfire. "Is that Robin?"
"Yea, looks so. But who cares yo, it's Starfire. Hey Starfire, I think you're hot!" He shouted out towards her direction.
Robin's eyes widened. He was on a date with her for god's sake, he's about to tell her that he loves her, being interrupted twice now, they're about to be together forever and a teenage boy comes and shouts 'I think you're hot Starfire'! He wasn't about to take this, not now. But just as he decided to stand up and react, Starfire tugged on his arm.
"Robin, why is this boy calling me 'hot'? Am I heating up? Is there smoke surrounding me?" Starfire began to panic. She shrieked. "Robin, is something wrong with me?"
"No, no Starfire. There's absolutely nothing wrong with you. That's not what he meant."
"Then what did he mean, Robin?"
Robin turned back to grab a quick glance of the teenage boys, but no one was there. The position they were standing in was empty.
He turned back to her. "It's nothing Starfire, just a phrase," he sighed.
"I see, but I still do not understand this 'phrase'.
Silence… Starfire wasn't expected a reply considering she could sense something was wrong.
"Robin, I understand that you have been interrupted twice, but do you still wish to speak of what it is you wish to speak of?" Starfire asked, smiling and holding hope that he would.
"I… I… well… I just wanted to say…" suddenly a rumbling sound came from above them. They both looked up to see vicious, grey clouds forming quickly and seconds later raindrops fell on their faces. Robin grew so frustrated he could've stood up at that point and screamed so loud the whole world could hear had Starfire not stood to her feet while the rain poured down rapidly and harsh.
"Perhaps we should head back home?" She wrapped her arms around herself and shivers ran up and down her body. A cold breeze blew by. Robin stood to his feet and didn't say a word. "Let us go Robin." She began walking away.
Anger built up inside of Robin. "NO!" He shouted and grabbed Starfire's hand harshly. "Listen Starfire, there's something I've been meaning to tell you and if I hadn't been interrupted 3 times I would've done it the better way. I LOVE YOU KORIAND'R! THERE COULDN'T BE ANYONE ELSE ON THIS PLANET THAT I COULD LOVE MORE AND I WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT," Robin himself was shocked at the outcome of that sentence……. he used her real first name. Robin lowered his tone and was practically whispering now. "I'm… I'm sorry, I was just… I couldn't… I needed to tell you that and all these interruptions… I'm sorry."
Starfire stood in shock. Not only did that sentence come out very… odd, but he used her first name… and his frustration showed that he really cared. Her eyes shined under the rain and Robin noticed a tear form in her eye. How was that possible in the rain? He just saw it in her eyes, it was clear that she was crying and the liquid formed on her bottom eyelid. Then and there Robin's heart began to shatter into pieces. He didn't understand why, but he didn't mean to make her cry. Robin let go of Starfire's hand and took a step back. The tear slid down her flushed cheek along side the rain drops falling and vanished. Then a smile suddenly formed on her wet but gorgeous face. Her face lit up and her eyes gave off a gleam of light, all in Robin's perspective. Confusion ran through the Boy Wonder's mind. What was going on? Is she crying? Is she happy? Robin wasn't the kind that exactly understood girls and their emotions.
"Star?" Robin asked, taking a step closer. Starfire applied a large grin on her face and jumped on him to embrace him with a large hug, almost tipping him over and falling to the ground. But he held her up and smiled at the reaction. She stepped back from the hug and looked through his mask.
The rain continued pouring.
The shaded color, what was it? This was only the second time Starfire stood this close to Robin, but never before had she been given the chance to see what she was seeing. It was very light, but the color wasn't clear enough. She squinted her eyes and moved closer to examine.
Blue…
It was blue, the color of his eyes. She saw it through his mask, although not very clearly. A gasp slipped through her mouth and out in the air.
Rain poured down rapidly.
Oh… my. His eyes, they are blue; an amazing shade of blue. I had never expected blue. Oh why must he hide his eyes? She fell in a deep gaze staring at his gorgeous, faded blue eyes. Robin automatically noticed her expression but he hadn't known that his eyes would show through his masks. Could she see them? Did his eyes really show?
Who cares! He'd been hiding them too long it was time someone had seen them. But how clear were they? How much is she seeing? Questions ran though his mind and none of the Titans had noticed that they were standing under the rain while cold breezes blew by.
Starfire sighed.
"Robin, I love you too."
His heartbeat grew rapidly, his hands began to sweat and his cheeks turned a pink blush. Words couldn't describe how he was feeling at that moment. Starfire noticed his awkward expression and giggled.
Silence…
Perfect timing. They both thought alike and slowly moved in for a gentle and tender kiss. A kiss under the rain, what more could Robin ask for. Their lips locked and the taste of sensation ran through their mouths. Oh but this kiss was different. Robin pushed harder on her lips and she could feel the gentle force his tongue was applying to get through to hers. She let it pass and the kiss was no longer a kiss. They stood under the rain embracing one another and making out for quite a while. Soon the amount of air left in their lungs shrunk and they needed to depart for oxygen. Robin pulled his lips off of hers and gasped for air, Starfire as well. She was breathing quite hard and her cheeks were a fade of red. Her lips were pink and flushed but her expression was stunning. Robin's cheeks turned red as he saw how hard she was breathing. He looked at her mouth and noticed the puff and color they had turned to. His lips were red as well and Starfire had noticed. Suddenly thunder struck. It was barely heard through the ears of the distracted Titans till another thunder struck and they snapped back into reality. Robin looked up and rain splattered on his face. He looked back at Starfire. The moment was too good to be true, he didn't want it to end but he knew that they would freeze out in the cold, windy, and wet breeze. His hands slipped down to her waist and he moved in closer, whispering in her ears.
"Starfire, you were right, maybe we should get going."
He pulled back to face her and she gave him a slight giggle followed by a nod. He let her waist bare, reached to grab her hand, and led her across the wet and muddy grass to the sidewalk. They stopped and she reached to grab his other hand. As they were about to lift from the sidewalk and into the low and not so dangerous part of the atmosphere ahead, Robin paused and stopped her from flying.
"Wait, before we go," he leaned in to kiss her on the lips and pulled back. "That's before we get to the tower and everything goes back to normal.
She blushed and smiled. "Robin, I do not see why we cannot share this amazing secret with our friends. They are our friends and they are trust worthy. I believe you are even closer to them than I since they are boys. I'm sure they will understand. Most likely I believe Cyborg and Beast boy will tease at first, but then they will move on and they will stop the teasing," Starfire tried to convince Robin. And surprisingly it was slightly convincing.
"You know, you're right Star. They probably wont let me live up to it, but they are my friends and they deserve the right to know. But do we have to tell them today? Let's let the day go by smoothly without their insults," he said, grabbing her by the waist and pulling her closer, smirking evilly. She laughed at his gesture and kissed him on the cheek then pulled back.
"Robin, we must leave before the weather becomes more severe."
"Right, sorry. Let's go."
She took his hands and they flew into the deep, dark sky, trying to stay as low as possible to avoid any thunder or lightning.
"Nope, he's not in his room," shouted a familiar voice from down the hall.
"And she's not in her room," another voice replied.
The voices both approached each other and they were non-other than Cyborg and Beast boy themselves.
"Dude, where do you think they are? We searched the whole tower, even the battle field during the rain!" Beast boy exclaimed.
"I dunno man, they're probably out somewhere… maybe on a mission?" Cyborg shrugged.
Then suddenly they heard a giggle come from down the hall. A very familiar giggle.
"Dude, they're here… finally!"
Robin and Starfire turned the corner of the hall laughing while trying to dry themselves off. Which was most likely what they were laughing at. Then their eyes met with a frustrated Beast boy and a confused Cyborg.
"Yo, you guys are soaked! Where have you guys been?" Asked Cyborg, curiously.
"Yea, where have you guys been? We searched the whole tower and the battlefield for you guys!" Beast boy added, a little frustrated.
Robin and Starfire looked at each other then back.
"We were out on a mission," Starfire replied, with a white, innocent lie.
Nice move Starfire! Robin thought to himself. "Yea, a small mission to check on the city. No big deal," Robin added.
"Then why didn't you guys tell us? We could've helped," Cyborg said.
"We didn't need help. It was a simple mission. We were really just walking and checking on the city," replied Robin.
"Yes, it was fairly a small task. But we must go change our clothes. It began raining while we were outside and now we are completely soaked," Starfire said.
"Alright…" Cyborg replied, not fully convinced. Beast boy just arched his brow.
And with that both Titans stepped pass them and split down the hall and into their rooms.
Back in Starfire's room, Starfire had undressed and taken a warm shower. Now she was in a towel standing in front of her foggy mirror and brushing her hair.
"Oh what an amazing day!" She began humming and spinning in circles.
Starfire walked out of her bathroom fully dressed in her night gown only minutes after completing her hair. She sat on her bed and began daydreaming; a few sighs thrown here and there. Soon she was too weak to hold herself up and her body fell flat on her bed. Her hair spread on the sheets and her eyes closed with a large smile on her cute, settled face. Images of Robin appeared and disappeared. Then she visualized the date she had just been on; the rain, the kiss, Robin himself. It was too much for her mind to handle and she began sighing, once again. But the elegant smile on her face never left its spot.
Then a sudden knock on the door interrupted her graceful daydream.
"Starfire, it's me," Robin called through the other end of the door. Starfire gasped of excitement and jumped from her bed to open the door for him. He stood smiling as he watched her figure appear in front of him while the door quickly opened.
"I just wanted to check on you. Everything ok?"
"Yes Robin, everything is fine. I have taken a warm shower and now I am preparing for sleep. Do not stand in the hall, come inside," she pulled Robin inside her room. He shrieked as she did so and the door closed behind them.
Robin stood a little nervous in the middle of her room at night. They were both set in their pajamas and ready to sleep since it was getting late.
"Please tell me, you are doing fine? It was cold outside, I have noticed."
"Oh, I'm fine… just a little breeze, no big deal," Robin hesitantly replied. He was getting very nervous and it was very unusual to him. He had been in Starfire's room a million times before. Why was it different now? He looked around her room and gulped hard.
It's ok, it's only a room. I'll be fine. Just look her in the eyes, conversate for a few minutes, then walk out. Easy as beating a villain with his hands tied behind his back.
"Robin, do sit down," Starfire spoke out.
Robin snapped back into reality only to see Starfire sitting on her bed waiting for him to join her.
Uh-oh…
Well the wording could use some work, and the sentencing, but I liked the fluff. I hope you guys do also. R&R for the next chapter to come. And thank you for all the reviewers who have been reviewing. I love you all. -hugs-
