A/N: This is actually my first Voyager fan fiction. Heaven's a lie was the second, I kinda forgot about this.. And just found it. I believe this is where Heaven's a lie got it's story line from.. It's short and not sweet.

Slash pairing Chakotay/Tom

Angst on Tom's part. I will write a happy one, I will one day... I'm just an angsty type I guess. Well hope ya enjoy.

Originally named: Somewhere I belong due to the Linkin Park lyrics, but I changed it.

Disclaimer: I do not own anything to do with the Star Trek franchise. I do not own the lyrics, nor the group Linkin Park. I just am amusing myself since I have no life outside of work and neices and nephew... No harm is intended toward anything nor anyone.. Got it all there... Enough said.


Tom's POV

Do you love me?

Do you need me?

Do you feel for me... As I feel for you?

Do we make love? Or do we just simply fuck?

When you grunt and shoot your essence deep inside of me, do i makea mistake to take that as love?

Am I just delusional... Has my heart taken over all rational thought?

Or do I sense something you just can't bring yourself to say to me?

I love you. I tell you every night we are together.. Making love.. As you pound yourself into me. I wish one night you would let me return the favor. I tried to ask once, but you threatened to leave and never come back.

I can't live without you.

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was not for real. It has to be real, it just has to.

Harry keeps telling me to let you go. Your no good for me. B'Elenna tells me the same. They say you are using me, they said they heard you tell someone, "He's a easy fuck!"

Lies!

Plain and simple lies. They just want me to be unhappy. Can't they see I'm happier then I've ever been. I have love in my life. I have Chakotay.

He's my everything. He's the reason I feel. My reason for healing my past wounds. When we first got together, I admit it was hard. The past kept creeping up and nightmares became reality. But I told myself, he was not them. He would never hurt me the way they did. He loves me.

He does!

I know he does.

He has to, otherwise why would he keep coming back to my bed!

I wish one night he would stay the entire night.

I wish he would kiss me, like I wish he too. Take my breathe away with those talented lips of his.

He loves me.

I know it!

He has to.. otherwise I don't know what I would do.

Here he is. Face all a smiles.

Lust burning deep in those brown eyes of his.

He pulls me to him, and bends me over my table.

Pulling my pants down, stretches me barely then fills me with himself.

I grunt in pain, but it's a pleasurable pain. I will never call it anything other.

He finishes and I hear the zipping of his pants.

He turns and heads toward the door.

For once I speak up, "Chakotay?" I call out to him.

"Stay," I ask him. Looking as he turns toward me. A satisfied smile is plastered on his face as he turns and walks out.

I fall down to my knees.

I wanna heal.

I wanna feel.

Somewhere I belong...

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