ChApTeR 2
It's funny. You work so hard. You do everything you can to get away from a place and yet when you finally have the chance to leave, you find a reason to stay.
Rei stood there frozen for a while, mind racing and holding his breathe. He didn't know what to say… he didn't know what to do… Heck, he doesn't even know why the devil did he agree to be there in the first place…If by any chance people are capable of falling to piece, as in literally fall into pieces, Rei probably would have fell into pieces, rebuilt and fall to pieces again. He was having a real hard time deciding whether or not to answer the call.
He was being force to choose on different things, all of which sounds remarkable to him – and just by any chance you want to know, 'remarkable' is an unclear confusing expression that is expressing either positive or negative and unfortunately the only thing clear about it is that, its confusing enough even without the meaning. Maybe if he just stood there Aya would forget that there was indeed someone watching her lately. Maybe he could just stand there and wait for that moment before stalking to his room. Maybe he could just stand there and wait for that moment before stalking to his room, just play deaf like he always does and pretend that he didn't saw anything. Maybe he could just stand there and wait for that moment before stalking to his room, just play deaf like he always does and pretend that he didn't saw anything, just forget that night and never bother to learn the reason why the blue-black haired girl was feeling miserable all the while.
'It couldn't be because of me…' Rei mentally told himself, trying to figure the latter question 'she is already over me getting over her for weeks now. I don't know if she still feels the same but I do know that she's back to normal and acts like nothing ever happened… that's what I could see from her.'
'That's why you should go check on her. Something is definitely up. If she's not shedding tears for you then it must be because of something else.'
But Rei shook his head and disagreed on the thought. " I must be sleepy or something to hear voices…" he told himself again. He took one last look at the ajar door and started to walk up to his own room feeling a little stupid for ever talking to himself like that and decided he needs rest, but just as then, just as he took steps to get out of the place, the mysterious sobs continued to echo from the room again.
Rei stopped deadpan on his trail yet again. He felt his heart constrict without any reasons or whatsoever at all, cause as far as I know he doesn't have any heart disease at the moment. It was like hearing her sobs was the last thing he wanted to hear.
'Go check on her…'the voice in his head insisted. It wasn't helping him though and the truth was he was getting a little bit annoyed with it. If only he could, he would, he could have torn that part of him away and leave it somewhere to die, he'd be more than willing to feed it to some vicious things or whatsoever if in that way he'll get rid of it."I don't care about her…" Rei told the voice dismissively. And the sinister voice only laughed back on him. 'of course, you do, silly…if she's not more than a friend to you, well at least she's a friend to you. Don't tell me those days spent acting like her boyfriend or whatever even if it was only a play didn't change a damn thing? C'mon, ice prince, you're not that cold you know… She have probably at least made herself a close friend to you…' the voice told him with an evil glint. He was used to this kind of retorts. It was Ran's and the other's favorite fight back answer to him when it comes to being cold to that certain girl. Hearing it straight from his own head was dreadful, though. Like the last safest place he could ever think of was taken from him and was as hell as the rest of the lot now. The thought gave Rei a shudder and an uncomfortable feeling.
"I – " Rei wanted to complain back but didn't know what to say, maybe because he was too tired to think of any at the moment. Rei could only scowl back, he wanted to rest and decided to finally get over with it so it'll be all over with. He decided he could accept defeat every once in awhile and would finally do it to shut the hell up with the annoying voice. And he kept on reminding that part of his brain that he was doing it for Aya only because they are F.R.I.E.N.D.S.
