Chapter 9: Secrets of the Heart
Joeys point of view:
Black and white was that day. First, we lost Kyle, then Caitlin. Everyone was depressed as we left Caitlins funeral. We now had a family cemetary. Now, Jonsey, Nikki, Caitlin, Jude, Jen, Wyatt, and Kyle were in that cemertary. It's funny...you don't realize how important that person is till they're gone.
After I got into my "regular" clothes, we all sat on the couch. Kenny sighed.
"We should of saw this coming," Kenny said.
Carrie was the most quiet. Poor Carrie...so sensitive, so young at heart...and...so beautiful. But, she couldn't feel the same way...I mean, we grew up thinking we were brother and sister.
Katrina left to go make supper, and Kenny went up to read his Archie Comic to distracted his mind. It was just me and Carrie.
"I want to show you something, Joey. We need to talk," Carrie said.
Being confused, I just followed. She took me to the abandoned park. We went through the little "maze," as she liked to call it, and led me to a river.
"It's beautiful, isn't it?" Carrie said.
"Yeah," I cried out. "I never knew this river was here."
Carrie went to the river, as she put her hand in the water. She just starred into the water.
"What's wrong?" I asked her.
"I always come here when I have something on my mind," Carrie explained.
"What's on your mind?" I asked her.
"I...I don't know, you're the most understanding in our...our...family...even though technicly we're not family.." Carrie began. "I need someone to talk to."
"Shoot." I told her.
"Well...I miss Kyle and Caitlin already, and so much!" she cried out.
She began to hide her head in her hands, and gave short snobs.
"Oh, please don't cry, Carrie, you're gonna make me cry!" I cried out.
"I'm sorry," she sobbed out.
"It's not your fault." I told her.
I pulled her to me into a hug, as she put her head on my shoulder. I started to stroke her long, beautiful red hair. My mind told me this was wrong. I grew up thinking she was my sister. But, the other part of my mind told me I love her.
"Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I was never born," Carrie told me.
A cold chill went up my neck.
"Carrie, don't say that!" I cried out. "Did you ever wonder what my life would be like if you would never be born?"
She quickly wiped her eyes, as she starred into mine.
"Really?" she cried out.
"Really." I told her, as I smiled.
"Joey..." Carrie said. "There's been something I've been meaning to tell you..."
"what is it?" I asked her.
"no, I can't." She said, shaking her head.
"Ok, why don't I tell you what I've been meaning to tell you?" I told her.
She looked at me with her beautiful greenish blueish eyes. I took a deep breathe.
"Carrie, there's something specail about you." I began. "And, now that I realized we're not actually brother and sister, I realize these thoughts and feelings are alright..."
"Joey, what are you saying?" Carrie cried out.
"I'm saying...I'm saying..." I stuttered. "I love you."
First, it was silence. Carrie smiled.
"Really?" She cried.
"Really." I told her.
I slowly approched her, as our lips slowly began to touch. My mind went racing. Would this change our relationship? Will we be dating?We slowly backed off, as she gave me another hug.
"I've always wanted to do that," she said, laughing.
And that was my first kiss...my first love...my secret of the heart was out.
TO BE CONTINUED...
Darkness' Kid
